Reject all discouragement that is attempting to rob you of your momentum! This past week while we were worshipping, it was as if the Lord gave me supernatural vision and I saw our emotions. I could see that the enemy had made ploys against God's saints to block feelings in us, to stop us from gaining new zeal in the Lord. I saw satan and his forces had erected hidden snares and were creating offenses to wound our wellbeing and capture our soul expressions, causing us to stumble and lose momentum.
Our longing comes from the power of our desire, locked in our emotions. While the Spirit of God is creating a desire for the NEW, the enemy is attempting to ensnare us with old patterns, remove our creative unction, and bring many distractions into our lives. We must rise up now and say, "I've got to have You to help me press through into this new place. Reorder my focus so I can pinpoint the enemy's movement around me!"
Indeed, i had experienced an atack from the enemy for my emotions. Nikolai spoke again his nice words to capture me into the old pattern. Honestly, because of this enemy attack, I could not concentrate on school work. It was a battle over my emotional well being.
I refuse to come back to an old pattern through Nikolai. Lord, rise up in me like a lion that Your roar will scar the enemy.
Lord, jesus, I repent for allowing myself to got caught in the enemy illusion. Thank you so much for revealing me again the danger related to Nikolai' situation. Blessed be your name.
In Jesus Christ, Katya
I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. Galatians 2:20
Monday, February 25, 2008
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Galatians 2:20
I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Hello my friends,
Today is Saturday. Yesterday Danielle, Tori, Kevin and me went to the Italian restaurant "Bravo", We all were dressed up as for the formal. It was a good time and good food. Then I came home and immediately the phone call from Nikolai. Because I was in a way emotionally thirsty for affection and affirmation, I let our conversation continue. We talked hours and hours. He brought up questions, I brought up questions, We laughed, discussed our disagreement, etc. it became clear that he is not giving up on me. It was weird because I enjoyed our conversation but I also told him that "no" there is not going to be anything more.
Then I had a dream which is not very important but just because it happened after our conversation I thought it impotant to write it down.
We were in the classroom with Dr. Mbito. The group asked me to be thier leader for the project. There were a lot of assignments and I knew that I am not a leader but I would like to take a position. So we agreed. Then I see myself waling with another girl to a building but nobody from our class is there. So I wondered how am I a leader if I don't know where we are supposed to be. So we turned back from there and on our way back the people were coming toward that place two by two holding hands. I wonered but we just were there. Then it appeared "the last will be frist and the first will be last". Then somewhere in the middle I joined the group of people and we went to the police office. there were stairs. So I am walking up and see a lady sitting with closed eyes worshipping God by singing about the kingdom of God.I knew I had to show her my document to pass. When I passed her there was a music on TV : "Where you go I 'll go". I immediately started to dance and sing. Everybody was surprised including my sister but it was because of that song.
When I woke up I wondered about leadership....
But on one hand, Nikolai talked about the leadership that he received on his new job. We also talked about me being last instead of first on his list.
So I pray that God's wisdom will be with me in the name of Jesus.
Today is Saturday. Yesterday Danielle, Tori, Kevin and me went to the Italian restaurant "Bravo", We all were dressed up as for the formal. It was a good time and good food. Then I came home and immediately the phone call from Nikolai. Because I was in a way emotionally thirsty for affection and affirmation, I let our conversation continue. We talked hours and hours. He brought up questions, I brought up questions, We laughed, discussed our disagreement, etc. it became clear that he is not giving up on me. It was weird because I enjoyed our conversation but I also told him that "no" there is not going to be anything more.
Then I had a dream which is not very important but just because it happened after our conversation I thought it impotant to write it down.
We were in the classroom with Dr. Mbito. The group asked me to be thier leader for the project. There were a lot of assignments and I knew that I am not a leader but I would like to take a position. So we agreed. Then I see myself waling with another girl to a building but nobody from our class is there. So I wondered how am I a leader if I don't know where we are supposed to be. So we turned back from there and on our way back the people were coming toward that place two by two holding hands. I wonered but we just were there. Then it appeared "the last will be frist and the first will be last". Then somewhere in the middle I joined the group of people and we went to the police office. there were stairs. So I am walking up and see a lady sitting with closed eyes worshipping God by singing about the kingdom of God.I knew I had to show her my document to pass. When I passed her there was a music on TV : "Where you go I 'll go". I immediately started to dance and sing. Everybody was surprised including my sister but it was because of that song.
When I woke up I wondered about leadership....
But on one hand, Nikolai talked about the leadership that he received on his new job. We also talked about me being last instead of first on his list.
So I pray that God's wisdom will be with me in the name of Jesus.
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Lord, You are a help to all who trust and call upon You. Please, listen to their cries and prayers. I know that You are good and abundant in mercy. Just as David said: "For You, Lord, are good, and ready to forgive, and abundant in mercy to all those who call upon You" (Ps. 86:5). So, Father, I pray, that You will be merciful and forgiving through Your Beloved Son.
Jesus, I thank You for the Cross and Your Blood shed on it. Who could ever deliver us form our sins and iniquities? We were like sheep withouht shepherd. But You became a lving sacrifice and You are a true shepherd.
I love to say this to You: "Who is like You, glorious in holiness, fearful in praises, doing wonders?" (Exodus 15:11) Jesus, You are the One who sets people free. Jesus, come to their rescue even today. Please, draw them near to Your Cross! Make them alive in You!
And let all the praise and glory be Yours!
Faithfulness and mercy
Dear Lord, I love You and Praise You for the love for us.
Blessed be Your Name!
I read in Your word: "My faithfulness and My mercy shall be with him" (Psalm 89:24). This verse most likely speaks of our Lord Jesus; but I also pray this scripture personally.
Blessed be Your Name!
I read in Your word: "My faithfulness and My mercy shall be with him" (Psalm 89:24). This verse most likely speaks of our Lord Jesus; but I also pray this scripture personally.
Jesus, may Your faithfulness and mercy shall be with me.
Jesus, may Your Faithfulness and Mercy shall be with
Iana and Michael!!!!
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Today, Sarah and I met and had a great time. We prayed, read the scriptures and at the end worshipped in songs. The Lord anwered to one of the prayer even today. I had difficulties with my roommate. We prayed over that situation and talked about it. When I came home, she appologized. It was such a relief and thankfullness. Great is our God!
But there is another thing that caputred my attention. The situation with Nikolai is a battle over my trust. Whould I trust the voice of the Lord that clearly made known His will to me that Nikolai is no the right person for me, or whould I waver and trust the persistence and the words of Nikolai. My goal is to trust Jesus Christ even without understanding everything. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own undersanding" (Pr.3:5).
But there is another thing that caputred my attention. The situation with Nikolai is a battle over my trust. Whould I trust the voice of the Lord that clearly made known His will to me that Nikolai is no the right person for me, or whould I waver and trust the persistence and the words of Nikolai. My goal is to trust Jesus Christ even without understanding everything. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own undersanding" (Pr.3:5).
Monday, February 18, 2008
"The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; the God of my strength, in whom I will trust" 2 Samuel 22:2-3
"Trust in the Lord... feed on His faithfulness. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday" Psalm 37: 3,5
This dream happened in the beginning of the February month. The circumstances for the dream were folowing: On Saturday 2, I was supposed to meet Nikolai to give him his staff and the gift. However, by the deliverance of God, the meeting did not happen. But this was the dream prior to Saturday.
Here was the dream:
I was sleeping on my bed in the dorm. In the hallway there was loud voices, the door was slightly opened. My roommate was Jenny but she was with her guy friends, so she was not in the room. Then I hear some guys came into the room. The next thing happened is that I felt a fat face kissing me. I could not open my eyes but with all my strength I pushed him away. Those guys were leaving the room with laughing, mocking... I was still in my bed thinking about what had happened. THen I arose and went outside to the hallway.There were two groups on each side, so I asked them: "What's going on?" People were loud and the environment was wicked. Then I was in a kitchen, then one red hair guy came in and tells me:"I love you". I realized that it was the same guy who kissed, so I argued with him that he does not love me. He started to seduce me and on the floor we were wrestling. Then I saw standing and I touched his shoulder and said: "I do not trust a guy but my trust is in the Rock, Jesus Christ." Immediately, the guy became weak, powerless, afraid and left the kitchen. I called the police.
This dream means that God warns me not to trust Nikolai by any means. My only trust is in Christ Jesus. The kiss meant a betrayal like Judah toward Jesus. The funny thing is that when Nikolai called a day later he said: "I love you". It was a confirmation to the dream the Lord gave.
"Trust in the Lord... feed on His faithfulness. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday" Psalm 37: 3,5
This dream happened in the beginning of the February month. The circumstances for the dream were folowing: On Saturday 2, I was supposed to meet Nikolai to give him his staff and the gift. However, by the deliverance of God, the meeting did not happen. But this was the dream prior to Saturday.
Here was the dream:
I was sleeping on my bed in the dorm. In the hallway there was loud voices, the door was slightly opened. My roommate was Jenny but she was with her guy friends, so she was not in the room. Then I hear some guys came into the room. The next thing happened is that I felt a fat face kissing me. I could not open my eyes but with all my strength I pushed him away. Those guys were leaving the room with laughing, mocking... I was still in my bed thinking about what had happened. THen I arose and went outside to the hallway.There were two groups on each side, so I asked them: "What's going on?" People were loud and the environment was wicked. Then I was in a kitchen, then one red hair guy came in and tells me:"I love you". I realized that it was the same guy who kissed, so I argued with him that he does not love me. He started to seduce me and on the floor we were wrestling. Then I saw standing and I touched his shoulder and said: "I do not trust a guy but my trust is in the Rock, Jesus Christ." Immediately, the guy became weak, powerless, afraid and left the kitchen. I called the police.
This dream means that God warns me not to trust Nikolai by any means. My only trust is in Christ Jesus. The kiss meant a betrayal like Judah toward Jesus. The funny thing is that when Nikolai called a day later he said: "I love you". It was a confirmation to the dream the Lord gave.
Then Jesus went into the temple of God and drve out all those who boght and sold in the temple, and overturned the tables of the money changers and the seats of those who sold doves. And He said to them, "It is written, 'My house shall be called a house of prayer,' but you have made it a 'den of thieves'.
Matthew 21:12-13
Matthew 21:12-13
Trust me
I had a dream.
I was newly married. My husband and me were living in a simple house. That young men spoke the words: "Trust me. I will not forsake you, nor leave you." I had a feeling of distrust to him to be fully His in body, spirit and soul. Then I was by myself in a room. Outside was summer, people old and young were enjoying the water, splashing andplaying games, then I closed the curtains and came to the mirror comletely naked and started to dance. Then I hear the voice of a husband. He noticed that the black cat came into the ouse and spoke with a different voice. So we both realized it was a demon. Together we fought against it. The cat was trying to jump on me but then he, my husband, took the cat, I opened the door, he threw it away and I quickly shut it. There was heard unpleasant scream. My husband made sure that the door was looked.
Then we both came to the kitchen holding hands and kneeled down by the window. I started to thank Jesus in prayer. While still I was praying I woke up.
You know in a dream it was not clear that he was Jesus, but because of what He said and done to me, He proved to be Jesus who is with me.
Then I repented over the mirror and letting coming the evil.
And then I thought about word "trust" which is similar to "faith". When Jesus said "have faith in Me", He means "Trust me".
Thank You Jesus.
I was newly married. My husband and me were living in a simple house. That young men spoke the words: "Trust me. I will not forsake you, nor leave you." I had a feeling of distrust to him to be fully His in body, spirit and soul. Then I was by myself in a room. Outside was summer, people old and young were enjoying the water, splashing andplaying games, then I closed the curtains and came to the mirror comletely naked and started to dance. Then I hear the voice of a husband. He noticed that the black cat came into the ouse and spoke with a different voice. So we both realized it was a demon. Together we fought against it. The cat was trying to jump on me but then he, my husband, took the cat, I opened the door, he threw it away and I quickly shut it. There was heard unpleasant scream. My husband made sure that the door was looked.
Then we both came to the kitchen holding hands and kneeled down by the window. I started to thank Jesus in prayer. While still I was praying I woke up.
You know in a dream it was not clear that he was Jesus, but because of what He said and done to me, He proved to be Jesus who is with me.
Then I repented over the mirror and letting coming the evil.
And then I thought about word "trust" which is similar to "faith". When Jesus said "have faith in Me", He means "Trust me".
Thank You Jesus.
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Greatest riches!!!!
I want to have the greatest richness that is in Christ Jesus.
Dear Jesus, the world may look for the diamonds and expensive restaurants to eat, but my soul longs for You alone. You are the richest Gift! You are the Savior of my dark soul; You have lifted me up from the darkness and doom. Jesus, who is there like you? What riches will ever compare with You? You are worthy!
Thank You, Jesus, for becoming my friend!
Dear Jesus, the world may look for the diamonds and expensive restaurants to eat, but my soul longs for You alone. You are the richest Gift! You are the Savior of my dark soul; You have lifted me up from the darkness and doom. Jesus, who is there like you? What riches will ever compare with You? You are worthy!
Thank You, Jesus, for becoming my friend!
Friday, February 15, 2008
Dear Jesus, My only Savior!
To You I pray and give my expectations.
You said to come to you and trust.
Jesus, in Your name I ask victory over impurity in my life. Let these seven days be in my life the days of purification. Jesus, create a work in my life that will glorify Your name!
Thank you for the great book "Pioneer Experiences" that shares the testimonies of people who discovered holiness through Jesus Christ. I am reading it and thinking of a work that you could do in me.
To You be the glory and honor.
Save and restore,
Lead to the Way Everlasting.
Promises and vows
Now find new ground...
Jesus , Jesus,
Jesus, Jesus
Meek and Holy,
Touch unholy
And make it holy.
To You I pray and give my expectations.
You said to come to you and trust.
Jesus, in Your name I ask victory over impurity in my life. Let these seven days be in my life the days of purification. Jesus, create a work in my life that will glorify Your name!
Thank you for the great book "Pioneer Experiences" that shares the testimonies of people who discovered holiness through Jesus Christ. I am reading it and thinking of a work that you could do in me.
To You be the glory and honor.
Save and restore,
Lead to the Way Everlasting.
Promises and vows
Now find new ground...
Jesus , Jesus,
Jesus, Jesus
Meek and Holy,
Touch unholy
And make it holy.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
water...
living worthy
I had an interesting day. Today I have learned things about Vgotsky (Russion psychologist) and about Paul's letter to Phillipians. Here is the scripture that I want to elaborate more:
"Living worthy of the gospel". What could this mean to me?
It is obvious to me that I believe in God but how obvoius and how worthy of the gospel it to others?
What I am trying to say is that there are different things in my life that are not worthy of the gospel. For example, skipping the class because I am lazy or sleeppy. Not doing my homework with excellence and consistency. And there are many other areas.
What shall I do?
The class has really challenged me today to live a life worthy of the gospel.
It will include sufferings for the good, making sacrifcies, rejoicing and being thankful, enduring and truthful before God, yourself and others.
Lord, help me to live a life worthy of You and Your Gospel. Let every day I will be reminded that to live is Christ. Lord, let all my life has a visible reflecting of the Invisible God.
With love and thankfulness,
Katya
"Living worthy of the gospel". What could this mean to me?
It is obvious to me that I believe in God but how obvoius and how worthy of the gospel it to others?
What I am trying to say is that there are different things in my life that are not worthy of the gospel. For example, skipping the class because I am lazy or sleeppy. Not doing my homework with excellence and consistency. And there are many other areas.
What shall I do?
The class has really challenged me today to live a life worthy of the gospel.
It will include sufferings for the good, making sacrifcies, rejoicing and being thankful, enduring and truthful before God, yourself and others.
Lord, help me to live a life worthy of You and Your Gospel. Let every day I will be reminded that to live is Christ. Lord, let all my life has a visible reflecting of the Invisible God.
With love and thankfulness,
Katya
Friday, February 8, 2008
Shadow of death
This is a new season in my life. It is called "the valley of the shadow of death".
But despite the difficulties, loneliness, other issues the word says: "I will fear no evil for You are with me."
Lord, I pray that You will help me to move on. Establish my path in Your righteousness and truth. Thank You so much!
But despite the difficulties, loneliness, other issues the word says: "I will fear no evil for You are with me."
Lord, I pray that You will help me to move on. Establish my path in Your righteousness and truth. Thank You so much!
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