Lazarus

 This week, I am planning to make my first prenatal appointment. Also, I started filing ents for Medicaid program. Honestly, today it has been so emotional for me. Every time I am thinking about insurance and pregnancy related stuff, it is like anxiety and not knowing how to operate in this world.

Today, the scripture was from John 11, it is about the death of Lazarus. I think Jesus is speaking to me about how late it seemed to do anything about Lazarus, just like for me, it is already a second trimester, and I have not had a doctor's appointment. I believe, there is hope in these scriptures for me. 


" On his arrival, Jesus found that Lazarus had already been in the tomb for four days. Now Bethany was less than two miles from Jerusalem, and many Jews had come to Martha and Mary to comfort them in the loss of their brother. When Martha heard that Jesus was coming, she went out to meet him, but Mary stayed at home. "Lord," Martha said to Jesus, "if you had been here, my brother would not have died. But I know that even now God will give you whatver you ask." Jesus said to her, "Your brother will rise again." Martha answered, "I know he will rise again in the resurecction at the last day." Jesus said to her, "I am the resurrection and the life. The one who believes in me will live, even though they die; and whoever lives by believing in me will never die. Do you believe this?" "Yes, Lord," she replied, "I believe that you are the Messiah, the Son of God, who is to come into the world."  John 11:17-27

Stay her, child. I will speak and direct you at times of unknownness and instability. My name is greater than any problem or solution. I am the resurrection and the life, take these words to your pregnancy. My child, I love you and forgive your grumbling. Father loves you adn cares for your needs. You will not be left on the waste side, I will pick you up in My arms and carry you through adversities and any storm.