Prayer for an alcoholic

The Book: Breaking the Power

"I prayed for twenty years that an alcoholic friend would lose his taste for alcohol after decades of drinking. Nothing happened. Then I began to pray binding and loosing prayers fr him, and within a few weeks, this man declared that alcohol didn't taste good anymore.

I then realized that for twenty years I had prayed against a syndrome- the taste for alcohol. Nothing "happened" until I began binding this man's will to God's will and loosing the strongholds protecting the source or reasn that he drank- then God delivered him.

Breaking the Power by Liberty Savard

Chapther: So Where Do You Begin?

One of the first things God taught me was to bind my will to His will. When I questioned Him as to whether I could really bind my unruly, rascally, rebellious, "free" will to His will, I recieved the impression of these words: "Like it had magnets!" Binding my will to God's will produced an incredible steadiness in my spiritual walk. Suddenly, I had a sense of balance, a stability in my steps that I had never had.

Then He said to bind my mind to the mind of Christ. "

Then He told me to bind myself to an awareness of the blood of Jesus Christ because I often forgot what the power of His blood had done for me.

Then He had me bind my feet to the paths He had always ordained for me to walk.

He told me to bind my hands to the work He had always meant for me to do in order to prosper His will in the Kingdom, and I did.

He said to bind myself to the work of the Cross, because that was where the power, the authority, th elove, the forgiveness, the mercy, and the grace would flow into my life.

Thanks be to God!

I am happy to pronounce that the Lord is good. He did great works by His mercy and love.
I shared with you here about my misconduct and the prayer to trust God in the matter of work.

The Lord arranged things the most wornderful way! Linda smiled to me today, touched me and everything was fine!

Only the Lord could something like that. I give Him praise.


My prayer, Lord, help me to continue with the fast. Help me not to give up to pursue You this seven days. Put Your Holy Spirit's will and guidance in all that I do.
Let everything be done in the name of Jesus.

Thank you for Judy and the way we talked today. Thank you for Lisa Pay who invited me for lunch and fellowship in May or June.

Thank You, Father, for Sam. Please, nurture him and guide him by Your Spirit. Teach him through Your word and use him for Your purposes.

Thank You, Lord, for friendship with Hellen. For the spritual discernment that you gave her and the discipline that she lives in.

Thank You for Shawn and the rewards You are going to bless her with, because she belives in You and seeks You earnestly.

Thank You for the ability to memorize scriptures. Let it always serve for good purposes. Use us for Your Kingdom, dear Father.


With love

Titus 2:11-12

Thanks be to God for His Word that brings to light my issues and sins. I rather choose to be corrected by the Lord than to dwell in the land of wickedness. Right now, I have not been successful in saying "no" to ungodliness and especially worldly lusts. Sam and I have been engaged in improper conduct. It is worldly lusts that try to entangle us.

Today, I have been late to work for the whole 15 minutes. The problem is that I have failed a lot of times before and Linda was upset with me. So, I do not know what is going to happen with my work, but I will continue to trust and learn through all trials.

Father, in the name of Jesus, Your Beloved Son,
help me to renounce and deny to wordly lusts.
Teach me to say 'no" and help to get victory by Your grace.

Use this day to make me clean and set apart.

Thank You so much.

"For the grace of God- His unmerited favor and blessing-has come forward (appeared_ for the deliverance from sin and the eternal salvation for all mankind. It has trained us to reject and renounce all ungodliness (irreligion) and wordly (passionate) desires, to live discreet (temperate, self-controlled), upright, devout (spiritually0whole) lives in this present world..."

I am writing this because I desire to see a change and greater works of the Holy Spirit in personal life and the lives of those around.

Father, in the Name of Jesus, your Holy Son, I come to You to seek guidance and favor in time of need. Father, Daddy, I want to repent in my heart before Your thorne for the stealing. Stealing is much more than just taking an object that belongs to another, it may involve taking away somthing that belongs to other such as sexual privacy. Father, I repent before you for the committed act between myself and Sam. I repent on my part fro the stealing of th eprecious heritage that you had placed inside of him. Father, I ask you to remove the stealing effect from his life, but rather bless him in Your ways. Forgive me my sins, in Jesus name.

Lord, I glorify Your name for the work You are doing in Shawn's life. Father, I want to ask You to pour inside of me Your authority to "destroy the work of the devil". I pray that You will give compassion adn Your power to cast it out and cleanse Shawn from inside out. Daddy, I put my trust that the work that You started in her, You will bring in completion through the victory in Christ. I praise the Holy Spirit fro an amazing effect of purging us from any devil schemes.

Lord, I pray that You will set me free from any slumbering and seducing spirits. I command my spirit to follow the lead of the Holy Spirit. I belong to Christ and "this is how I know that He (Jesus) lives in us. We know it by the Spirit He gave us." (1 John 4:24). Thank You for doing these marvelous acts of mercy and love.

cite the scripture

It has been an interesting day.

When I woke up, I was so disinetersted in doing things. The atmosphere was so sleepy and drowsy. After taking shower, things started happening.

Even in my thoughts, there were two ideas: I wish Shawn and I would go for a walk; and that Shawn would take a shower to be awaken and refreshed. Well, those two things Shawn fulfilled even without me asking. It might seems insignificant, but I found great joy to walk with Shawn, get some coffee at Mocha and knowing that she woudl go to pray at Park Place.

Another siginifcant piece of the early morning and afternoon: in my converstaion with mom, I felt so drowsy and sleepy, but I decided to cite a scripture to her by memory. She said to me that as soon as I spoke the scripture my emotions changed and the voice became happier and lighter. Praise the Lord!!!

My mom and Hellen both encouraged in the Lord.

I shall continue to be in the Word and cite it with my mouth.

be ready with Word

1). Yesterday I had an intense attack from the enemy. The evil one had planned a day before to make a scheme for its evil trap. The reason for an attack is obvious. First of all, on Sunday *Easter* at Judy's house we held the Bible study "Facing Your Giants", after which Shawn voiced her concern that the demons are bothering her with my presence in the apartment. So we had a prayer and that evening at the house, we both prayed over the apartment with Anointin goil, the blood of Jesus and the Lord's Prayer in our lips, and with the Word Bible. Shawn got rid off some ocultic jewelry that she had from a Muslim man. That night she said that demons wanted to do something bad to me the next day. I did not take it seriously because I believe in teh victory of the Lord!!!! However, the enemy attacked Sam's car that was broken several tiems throughout the day. In addition, because of the car situation and some other reasons, we stayed together at Shawn's place. We were given to the intimacy that lasted five hours. It is not appropriate for our friendship and relationship, yet we were given to the temptation and desires of our flesh. I do not condemn neither myself nor Samuel, because I know the root fo problem behind it. But as a result, the Lord put on my heart a word of encourgament: that I need to speak His Word!!!!

2) Chuck Pierce's prophetic word is on "Be Ready!" It speaks about the strategy we need in this season when deliverance is coming.

• Know and rehearse my Word
• Move in the dark structure around you with My Word
• Be ready with my Word
• Sanctify yourself
• My Word is very near to your mouth
• My Word is coming alive again
• I sent My Word and healed them
• My Word is very near to you
• Your deliverance is near
• The next 5 months will be intense! Ready yourself with the Word at all times.

These are the few scriptures I started to meditate on...

1 John 2:14 "You are strong, and the word of God lives in you, and you have overcome the evil one."

Ephesians 6:17 "Take... the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God."

Ephesians 5:25-27 "Christ loved the church adn gave himself up for her to make her holy, cleansing her by the washing with water through the word, and to present her to himself as a radiant church, without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless."

Abraham into a new place

Genesis 12:1-3

12:1 Now the Lord said to Abram, “Go from your country and your kindred and your father's house to the land that I will show you. 2 And I will make of you a great nation, and I will bless you and make your name great, so that you will be a blessing. 3 I will bless those who bless you, and him who dishonors you I will curse, and in you all the families of the earth shall be blessed.”

My dear Holy Spirit guided me to live with Shawn for the rest of the month April. I see it as a very significant event. I wish I moved in today, but Sam will take me tomorrow.

Father, I agree with Your word concerning Your desire for me (like Abraham) to move to a new place. I pray that Your provision and blessing will spread around many people. Bless others through me, I pray... Let Your communication adn Your presence be strong with us there.

In addition to that, let us see what the prophetic word says in Elijahlist.

"Living in the Blessing Zone! We are Called to Live in the Fullness of Covenant Blessings"

In the beginning, God created man in His own image and likeness, and He blessed them (see Genesis 1:26–29). We were created for blessing and, as a result, we have expectation for it. Through Christ's finished work on the Cross, the effects of sin have been removed so that we can once again live in the fullness of all the blessings of God. We, like Abraham, are called to be blessed and to be a blessing.

We have been blessed "with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ" (Ephesians 1:3). We are called to live in the blessings of God's exceeding great and precious promises.

We do not live by mammon! Believers in Christ do not live by mammon (or money). We live by blessings. We live in our inheritance. We were never called to live by mammon but by every word (promise) that proceeds from the mouth of God. When we posture ourselves to live by every promise, then money will follow us. "But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you" (Matthew 6:33).

We are called to live in the blessing zone! While in prayer a number of years ago, the Lord showed me that we, His children, have been called to live in a blessing zone – an environment of blessings. He instructed me to only receive blessings. If a circumstance came into my life that didn't appear to be a blessing, I was to command it to turn into a blessing. Even the worst of circumstances were eventually to be turned into that which would bless me.

When Job was assaulted with adverse circumstances, he kept his focus on God and did not turn from Him. He kept the faith. As a result, when the trial was over, Job was more blessed than ever before.
This is how we are to live in these days. Lock in to the promises of God by faith, and do not waver. Trust the Lord in these times, no matter what your circumstances look like. Choose to live in the blessing zone!

A Prophetic Word of Encouragement for You - Live in the Blessing Zone
"Child, do not fear! You are called to live in the inheritance that I have prepared for you in My Son. You are called to live in the blessings of your inheritance now, for you have truly been blessed with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ. I have freely given you all things. I have chosen gladly to give you the Kingdom. Live in the reality of My Kingdom.
"Know that you are blessed. Blessings shall come upon you and overtake you. Blessings will look for you and find you if you only believe. Do not fear the shakings in the world around you for, though you live in the world, you are not of the world. You belong to My heavenly Kingdom and you live under My rule and by My economy!
"Expect blessings each and every day and you will attract blessings. Call forth My blessings and they will come to you. My goodness and mercy shall follow you all the days of your life as you trust in Me. Do not look to the right or to the left. Live in the blessing of My faithful promises, for I have withheld nothing from you.
"You are blessed when you come in and you are blessed when you go out. You are blessed in your home and blessed in your workplace. You are blessed when you shop and you are blessed in every place you go. You are blessed when you pay your bills and when you make bank deposits.
"You are blessed in relationships and you are blessed in health and strength. You are blessed with wisdom, insight, and knowledge of witty inventions. You are blessed in all that you put your hands to do. Everything pertaining to your life is blessed.
"When you see circumstances that do not look like a blessing, command them to turn into a blessing. Do not lose sight of this. Endure in the truth and even what looks like devastation to you will turn into a testimony of blessing.
"I am good. You are created to know My goodness. Explore My goodness. I have called you to be extremely blessed. I have called you to be an extreme blessing in these extreme times. Live in the blessing zone!"
Patricia King

set me in a large place

Last night I stayed awake and read the book "Rees Howells Intercessor" by Norman Grubb. The Lord taught me through it and the Holy Spirit gave also directions to what I need to do.

Right now I would like to come back to the dream and the Bible verse from Psalm 118.
In that dream, after intercession, we were taken into a different city (larger) and also were inside of a secure large house.
The prophet Sandie Freed from the Elijahlist, speaks about it.

"Pressing Through! Do Not Allow Your Vision or Hope to be Stuck in the Narrow Place"

The Narrow Place
"Out of my distress I called upon the Lord; the Lord answered me and set me free and in a large place."-Psalm 118:5

The word distress comes from a Hebrew word, metsar and means "something tight (narrow), trouble, pain and strait (like a narrow place)" (Strong's #4712). In the narrow place, David experienced pain and bondage, just as many of us do—therefore we cry out to God for deliverance.

I use the narrow place as a point of reference when I refer to the birth canal. When a baby is birthed, it passes through a very narrow place before it is birthed into enlargement. It is the same spiritually when we are pregnant with purpose, potential and vision—all of it has to first pass through the narrow place.

The word narrow in this passage is similar to the Old Testament usage. It is the Greek word thlibo, which also means narrow, trouble and affliction of some type. Used as an adjective, Jesus used this word to describe the entrance or gateway to eternal life. He described it as a way to receive life. However, when thlibo is used as a verb, it means to press. This is referring to one having to press into the narrow place so that one may pass through the constricted place.

When studying the meaning of the narrow place, we also realize that it represents a place of trauma (Strong's #2346, 5147).

The narrow place is:
• A place of distress

• A place of stress

• A place to press and endure pressure

• A place of trauma

And if we cry out to God, He promises to:
• Deliver us from trauma, distress and affliction

• Set us free

• Place us in an enlarged place of freedom and increase!

Therefore any new revelation God speaks needs to be received by our hearts.
As we seek His Kingdom revelation, we must press into it! Luke 16:16 says this: "The law and the prophets were until John. Since that time the Kingdom of God has been preached, and everyone is pressing into it." Therefore we realize that the revelation that John had concerning the Good News and his fresh revelation of the Kingdom must all be "pressed into." We cannot receive present truth revelation without enduring the press.

I know I'm pounding this in a bit, but I need for you to understand that the lying, seductive snake sits at the threshold of your breakthrough. Its plan is to apply so much pressure that you are pressed, stressed, depressed and at the point of giving up.

Samson was pressed by his wife for seven days until he finally told her the riddle concerning the lion and honey. His wife used her seductive words to pry out Samson's secrets. Delilah did the same. Scripture says that Delilah "pressed him daily" for his secret. Samson gave in to the wiles of the enemy.

At your threshold, apply the Blood of Jesus and break forth into enlargement. Remember your covenant promises, and go through the gate of increase!

Prophetic Word and Prayer
I hear the Lord say to you that, "This is your month to receive great faith. Do not focus on the darkness about you, nor on the narrow place. I am revealing mysteries in this hour. These mysteries and revelations will challenge your mindsets and your thinking processes. Your heart will be challenged during this season. Do not allow your hearts to become hardened. Do not be confused and question My desires. I will empower you to keep pressing for victory and for your future. I am your Redeemer and I desire to redeem you from your past. Do not allow your vision or hope to be stuck in the narrow place. Press through and you will find yourself in a place of enlargement and great fulfillment."
Allow me to pray for you: Father, I pray for each reader today. I know that it is Your will to bring Heaven to Earth. As Heaven gets closer and miracles become more tangible, the devil gets angrier. I bind the seductive plans of the enemy from every reader. I take authority over his evil words and plans. I bind distress, stress, trauma and pressure which would attempt to hold His children captive. I come into agreement with every Believer and agree that Jezebel, Athaliah and Delilah will not be able to press them out of their destiny. I loose each person into joy and enlargement. In the mighty name of Jesus. Amen.
Sandie Freed

satan is defeated by the name of the Lord and our prayers.

The Lord is Good! Blessed be the Name of the Lord!!! He is the Lord above all! His name is examleted over every name. Jesus Christ- the Living Word!!!!

I exalt His name today for He is worthy!!!

Praise be to His Name. Let every house say, "Blessed be the Name of the Lord."

Psalm 118:

I will look in triumph on my enemies.

They surrounded me on every side, but in the name of the Lord I cut them off.

They swarmed around me like bees, but they died out as quickly as burning thorns;

in the name of the Lord I cut them off.

Shouts of joy and victory resound in teh tents of the righteous.

Today I had a dream.

I was with a young boy, we were riding bycicle. However, something happened that we bothered satan. So he decided to attend us in a coming time- Easter. There was like an assigned paper of sending satan troops against us (particularly that boy).

In our camp (the house) I talked to Mary Lou and said about the plan of satan to attend us. Becuase that city was a place where satan lived, I asked Mary Lou to talk to the boy (intercede) and encourage him to go to another city for refuge. So we went.

Being inside a house in another city... It was a big house. There were big windows that were secure. I started to close the blinds so the enemy would not know about us. The people that were with us were planning to leave. I prayed that God would protect us and that the enemy not even come close to this place. I pondered about whether the enemy will plan to come or they will be left ignorant where we went.

As I woke up, I shared that dream with my mom. Then we read Psalm 118. This morning I was emotionally down and unpleasant. But praise be to God, I Believe In His victory.

In Elijah list, I found a prophetic word about "Future Battle- Victory Belongs to the Lord!". I have been encouraged.

Gina Shaner wrote a letter that alsoe encouraged me. At this time prior to satanic invasion, we need to shield ourselves with prayers and intercession.

Blessed be the Name of the Lord,

Blessed is He for the Victory!

to Sam

I just want to express my thoughts and write something to Sam. What my thoughts are, so am I... What are my thoughts about Sam? How do I think about our relationship? Where would I like to be and what ways should I think?

Samuel L. Green is a person who likes to work hard and wholehearted. He puts his whole concentration on the subject and especially in the area of his interest.

He appreciates cursiosity that has always been with him. He likes to learn new things and seeks something to learn daily.
His grandpa and grandma were people who left an amazing impact on him. His grandpa Lewis was an achiever with excellent grades. His grandma put a passion in him to love music. It was her that thaught Sam "Holy Night" in black keys when he was a child.
His mother is another person of great influence in his life. He remembers countless times of her teaching and instruction in the ways of the Lord. She would make sure that her children follow the Lord. SHe would have Bible studies, prayers daily.

Sam loves people and likes to be around them. In his childhood and growing years, he was the quiet boy. He spent times playing with his borthers and sisters.
He has a best friend Nathan.
He loves his cousin Cherekey.

He loves food: to eat and to cook.

He remembers very well his teachers and friends.

He has an excellent memory of the events from the past.

His style of playing the piano is very melodic and reflective.

He worshippes the Lord through guitar and songs.

He lets people to be his friends easily.

He treats people with repsect.

He is really funny.

I just love to observe him and listen when he speaks from his heart.
I love to see how handsome he is. I love to look at his eyes and his face, his shoulders, his arms, his hair.

I appreaciate that he gave me gifts and tok me places.

I appreaciate that he calls and writes messages.

I appreciate that he trusts the Lord and prays at all times.

I am thankful that he does not speak negative to me or other people, his speach is seasoned with salt and grace.

I love that he has creativity.

He is a planner!!!! But he accepts spontaneuty with dignity.

He walks and meditates.

He notices the nature around and glorifies God for its beauty.

One of my favorite memories with him:

Dancing... During the summer of 2008, we danced on the street just across our house on west 6th. We danced and expected Rhyse to come with her parents. My mom took some picture. We both look so elegant and happy.

We also danced in his room and at Nate's house.

I love to sit on the couch and have conversations with him.

Beside his ability to share the stories, his posture is so calm and inviting for converstaion.

I love to the very end the way he holds or plays with my hands.

He is a fan of hands. He likes to draw hands and look at them.

I love to see other people who were deply touched by Sam.

You cannot notice what a positive impact he has on other people.

I thank the Lord for that.

I love to be the one who can hold him and just be near.

Coming back to my description of him:

He is mature. I mean his image and the way he speaks.

He is a child. You should see how innocent and beautiful his smile becomes when he laughs and enjoys the moment.

He is romantic. Music, the stars, letters, prayers, walks, etc ...

He is responsible. Responsible in how he spends money, in his attendance of classes and work. Responsible to the commitments with people.

He can be honest with his thoughts and feelings if you provide an environment, otherwise his thoughts (though an honest or any other) maybe laid deep inside of him.

P.S. Today is a significant day for him. He receives an honor from the Music AWard in excellent achievement in voice performance. My mom is present at Park Place and she would see that. I, on the other hand, is working in the library, but my heart has been rejoicing for him during several days. Blessings to the man after God's heart.

In Jesus

So was it just a discipline from the Lord?

I woke up to day and my first thought was "You need to eat well today." How strange! But actually, the Lord knows better what our bodies need.

Sam was sick this morning and did not go to work. After his extra hours of sleping he felt better. We are hoping to get together today to watch a movie.

I spent some time with Hellen today and learned about her perspective on relationships. She is a great friend, and I am happy to be her friend rafiki.

Then I went to the Wellness center and run 3 circles. It was good!!! ( not to be so spiritual or supersticious, but I walked the circles with Sam and read abut Joshua marchining around the city of Jericho. Anyway)

It has been good to read some newspaper about alcohol and smoking issues in Anderson, In.

Now, let me write this scripture:

"Endure hardship as discipline.
No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful.
Later on, however, it produces a harvest
of righteousness and peace
for those who have been trained by it."

Hebrews 12: 7, 11

The Lord disciplines those He loves. (It could be a great topic for yound adults at Judy's).

Tommorow

Tomorrow, on March 25, I decree a fast. May the Lord help me to persever and be filled with His power. I ned His help so much in many areas and this is one of the crucial weapons that we fight against the enemy- fasting.

The enemy is raging like a lion against me, but I will not give up in the name of Jesus.

Fast for:
1) not complain or argue when timess are difficult. Philippians 2:14-15 "Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure"
2)change of a degree to Master of Divinity
3)friendship with Sam
4) do not give up relationship with Samuel
5) pray for Bruce (Larisa's husband). He needs salvation and transformation of his heart.


Praise the Lord!

Father, I thank You that since th ebeginning of times, You knew about this moment. You redeemed a lot of hard things in my life and thank You for the best that You prepared for me. I praise You for all that You have done, especially the seen changes this new year. You, however, have been always at work even when I was unaware. Forgive me for going my ways, instead of listening to the voice of the Holy Spirit. Thank You for lovin gme just as You loved Jesus, Your Son. I anticipate Your work in greater degree. May Your enemies flee and be scattered, may we win this battle together.
I love You,
in You I put my trust.

Amen.

Part II

Then I had a conversation with Sam. We talked about friendship. It was painful to admit that his friends were closer to him than I am. We talked about the boundaries for our relationship.

Jael has helped me with a dance giving her best ideas about the plan and praying over me.

I talked to my family. My mom is planning to come to U.S. in April and she encouraged me int eh Lord. She urged me to call grandma. I bought a phone card to Russia.

During the work, a friend of mine returned a DVD called "The Rape of Europe". So I asked him: "Is it about Hitler?" He said, "Yes." I told him about my dream, he was surprized.

I am planning to change my degree from Intercultural Service to Master of Divinity.

Part I

Deuteronomy 20:1-4
When you go to war against your enemies and see horses and chariots and an army greater than yours, do not be afraid of them, because the Lord your God, who brought you out of Egypt, will be with you. When you are about to go into battle, the priest shall come forward and address the army. He shall say: "Hear, Israel: Today you are going into battle against your enemies. Do not be frightened or afraid; do not be terrified or give way to panic before them. For the Lord your God is the one who goes with you to fight for you against your enemies to give you victory.

On March 12, 2009, I heard the Holy Spirit say: "Now, get ready for another intake of adversity." (Adversity means distress, a narrow place)It did not mean anything to me. I had no clue or understanding of what it could mean. But slowly the Lord revealed that the Spring Break will be my time in Gilgal (Read Joshua 5 adn 6). I knew that during that weak, th enemy will not attack me because "their hearts melted in fear and they no longer had the courage to face the Israelites." (5:1) It says that "Now the gates of Jericho were securely barred because of the Israelites. No one went out and no one came in." (6:1).
So during the Break I was in Florida (camping trip) and Michigan (worship service). In between of those trips I encouted a battle with flesh, where the flush took over. But after I cam home from Michigan, the adversity took place.

My dream:
Masses of people were running away from the troops of a political army or just an enemy with weapons. I remember that at one point everyone was supposed to run to the right, but I saw my sister with another girl running straight. So I decided to run along with my sister. But there was a young fellow who not only pursued us, but who also shouted: "Weapons on them!" So we kept running and behind us were many armed troops. They had nacist hats and long weapons. When we saw ahead that there were innocent people standing in line and some of the armed troop was already there, we realized that we need to submit and stay in line too. At first we grouped together, clinging closer to each other: four, then two people in line. Then we all in one line, some people behind us. I saw three main figures in front of me. Starting on the left: an influencial woman, a priest, and Hitler.
After that woman spoke, now was the priest's turn to pray. He prayed a good prayer. Then he sarted reading the Bible and with words: "Hitler... oh it's not good", he stopped. Hitler became immediately furious and ordered to kill him. In seconds, the priest was put on ear phones and was killed.
People stood in line with heads down because of fear and sorrow. Hitler said, "Lift your faces." I turned my face up to heaven with closed eyes. I had peace over and inside of me. He stopped at my and said that I would go. I came forward, they put earphones on me and I WOKE UP.

Then the scripture came to my mind from Isaiah 53:7 "He was led like a lamb to the slaughter..."


This is part I to the story about Adversity.

random facts

Last night we came back from the camping trip. On the way back, my mom called and the presence of the Lord filled me. But then the rest of the trip I just thought about pleasures and embraces with Sam. (Seducing spirit in time of distress)It led me to totally refocus my eye from Jesus to sin. So I repent and desire to fix my thought and eyes on Jesus again.

It is a contunious walk with Christ, it is not one time event. It is daily perseverance until we reach the end of the race.

Anyway, Sam called and he shared his experiences with a Choral. I got to share some of mine expriences on the trip.

And today in the evening we have a rehearsal with Zen and Armando.


Lord, Jesus, Perfector of our fatith,

lead me in a way of everlasting, passing by the traps of evil and leaping forward to your destiny.

Bless those who mourn and hunger for You.
Send us peace.

Psalm 18

Psalm 18

• He shot His arrows and scattered the enemy, with great olts of lightening He routed them. The valleys of the sea were exposed and the foundations of the earth laid bare at your rebuke, Lord, at the last of breath from Your nostrils. (14-15).
• With Your help I can advance against a troop (or can run through a barricade); with my God I can scale a wall. (29)
• It is God who arms me with strength and keeps my way secure. He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; He causes me to stand on the heights. He trains my hands for battle; my arms can bend a bow of bronze. (32-34)
• I pursued my enemies and overtook them; I did not turn back till they were destroyed. I crushed them so that they could not rise; they fell beneath my feet. You armed me with strength for attle; you humbled my adversaries before me. You made my enemies tuen their backs in flight, and I destroyed my foes. (37-40)
• I beat them as fine as windblown dust; I trampled them like mud in the streets. You have delivered me from the attacks of people; You have made me the head of nations. (42-43)

An Enemy is Exposed!

Flee satan, you are exposed, your hidden schemes are seen by the Spirit of God.

My face today received a terrible sickness. It has been before once. That time I felt that something was wrong with the cream... Today Hellen told me that the cream is wrong. So I checked the product. The website is www.straightfromtheroot.com , their main webpage says:

"Pamper: treat (someone) with great indulgence...spoil." Then it gives 10 main products, five of those have the title: "plant magic".

Now, you can see the readers, that the root of the product is satan. He was hidding himself under the innocent title "straightfromtheroot". It is a product from England. Lord, I pray that you will expose the demonic activity that has a stronghold in the Great Britan. What is it and how can we pray against it?

The Holy Spirit told me to call Hellen and she will let me know what to do. I called her and she prayed long, casting out the demonic activity into the fire of hell. Praise God! I cried and prayed in tongues druing the prayer.

Glory be to God!


The second event of the day: was a letter from Yrij Kim. He is among the friends on www.vkontakte.ru . He wrote a message saying, "Hi Ekaterina! Visit the site gcoa.ru It was during the break and again I was with Hellen. Just as the website was downloading, I saw the word "porno". Immediately, I closed the site and was shocked!!! He has all these Christian things on the main page. So, I wrote him back by the advice of Hellen.

"Yrij. You need to repent for the website you sent me. I so not condemn you, may the Loving Lord bless you. And do not write to me anymore." As I was sitting and writing this, the thought came to me, 'maybe somebody took an access underhis name and wrote it." So, I investigated his website on www.vkontakte.ru . It appeared that he had a link toward another site, when I opened that, it was the same evil site "porno", under the different title.

Lord, I pray that You do justly with that man. I hope that he will repent but i he is not willing to repent, I ask You, Father, to stop him from doing this evil. Hellen said that he is a wolf in a sheep clothe. Amen.

Today was the day of battle. Praise the Lord! Halleluja!!!
Thank you Lord for my friend Hellen and a partner in Your name, Jesus.

Do you wanna be used by God?

1) To be used by God, we need to be clean vessels.

• In the tabernacle, all the items were clean, holy and devoted for the Lord.
• Holiness comes from the Lord. "I will make him/ her holy" (Lev. 21:8)
• "Therefore, since we have these promises, dear friends, let us purify ourselves from everything that contaminates body and spirit, perfecting holiness out of revernace for God." 2 Corinthians 7:1)

2) To be used by God is to experience resistance from authority.

• Do you wanna be used by God or have authority and honor from men?
• Jesus submitted to the will of God. Authorities did not accept him. Did He do the will of God? Yes. "My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death. ... he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, "My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will." (Matthew 26:38, 39)
• It will brings tears; you would feel abandoned from the help of men

Meeting at the Paramaunt Theater.

The Lord provided money to go in. It costed $25, I had only 13, so Tara took 10 dollars and payed for the ticket. By the end of the meeting, Judy came to me and said, "Can I pay for your ticket?" I told her that Tara paid for part of my ticket. So she gave $10. I believe this is an abundance coming from the throne of the Father to my willingness to give money from cheking account. So, Lord, I pray and invite the work of the Holy Spirit to do things that are beautiful and pleasing before You.

Thank You, Father, (I acknowledge Your presence) for the way You had this meeting. Thank you for the dry and difficult period I've been for several days. To know that You are protecting me with Your embrace! Your are my shield against any deception or seducing spirits. In You I put my wholy life in trust.

Father, I ask You to speak to me concerning the past. Please teach me why things happen and the results of it... Please, bring Your heavenly wholeness to my being that You created.

i love you fanatically. you are my all!

Thank You, Sweet Holy Spirit for teaching about love increasing. I repent even now for the grieving Your presence in my life by anger, bitterness, offenses, etc. Now, I invite You Gentle holy Spirit and create that love circle flow into the full measure of the fullness of God (Ephesians 3).


The person spoke that You put your fingers on my heart concerning the Cross. A revelation about the Cross! Then, You gave the word through that person about discipleship heart to heart. Thank You, Father, for abilities to remember. I ask You in the name of Jesus to remember the things You have done, Your presence, Your word, all about You, I want to remember!!!!!!

Thank you for Tara, mama.
Thank You, bless her so much. Thank you for great things flowing and Your love for her is astonishingly great.

I think there is a significance to what has happened and the fact that we move one hour ahead on our watch. We are advanving in our knowledge of the Lord and His desire for relationship.

Thank you for Lisa, praying over Iana and Michael. Thank You, Father for the miracle of deliverance.

Sweet Holy Spirit stay with me from now on. Reveal and teach the Word of God and everything You have to teach me. I am Yours an donly Your eternally. I ask Your wisdom in how I spend the realtionship with people. Take away the fear, but also give me a discerning heart to know that which is pleasing before You. I break any soul ties in Jesus name. Father, I do not want to act in my ignorance or own understanding, I ask You to pour out Your presence and understanding what You want me to do about it. Remember, I am Your forever. You are my Father for ever and ever. Amen!

I love You Jesus.

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prayer

This is a day for prayer!!!!

Fill us with the Holy Spirit!!!!!

strange dreams

Hello dear readers and praise be to our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Thanks be to Him fro His grace and unfailing love.

I would like to share the dream that I had last night. It is a long and dynamic dream with a good ending.

First of all, I was travelling to the church and inside I was having lunch with my girld friends. I just talked on the phone with Sam and was upset that he forgot my birthday. He said that he is going to a party or a meeting that he planned. I was sad because I though he forgot my birthday. But he said over th ephone that he sent me mails and his love. As I continued to eat my lkunch, I noticed on my left infront a table, where Sam was eating his lunch. He finished and I went downstairs with him.

Then I see us swimming in the pool. There were three of us. We had talked and swimmed harmoniousliy in the water.

Then, my favorite part, was his phone call. He waked me up and said: "Oh, when you lay down the phone I want you to pray. Jesus said, "A new commandment I give to you that you love one another." Then I woke up.

Then I went to slepp again and my dream was not very good. There were some dangerous fighting with guns. One of the person took a bullet and was about to shoot me, but I asked not to. So he agreed and shoot into the glass. I covered myself with a paper against the broken pieces of glass. Then, we went inside of that small room. People started cleaning... Sam and I stood outside hugging each other for a short brief moment.

I also saw my father Albert, when Sam and I stopped by the house. he was a little bit drunk, so I had to tell that we were just for a moment ( I needed to change or take something with me)... I saw the blood in the house.

Well, this were my dreams...

I am thankful that my laptop is working. Last night I wished to listen to some sermons that are MP3. The only way I could do that was through computer. I tried and it worked, praise the Lord. Thus, I started listening to S. Shidlovskiy right away.

Father,
I want to cry... because of the tragic reality of marriages and families in the world.
Yes, Lord, I know that Your desire is Unity! You are for families and marriages, but satan is agianst!
We need Your direction and restoration!





















Please, Holy Father,
Start a global revival of marriages.








I cry because of my friends' families: many divorced.
Jesus, I no longer view divorce as normal reality, it is awful!

Father, I am deeply concerned with the marriage of my family. I have questions to why mama does not live with papa Oleg in Chelyabinsk. Is St. Petersburg, apartement or even church more importnat that the love and commitment to her husband? Why does she travel abroad on vocations, while papa Oleg is alone working out finances and other issues? I do not see justice.

But Beloved Father, forgive me Your daughter for such a contempt. I do not want to regret Your heart with my hardness. I just ask Your grace on marriages and families.

Especially, the topic is dear to my heart becaue of my sister's marriage. Did she receive any help from church? Or rather did the church bring condmenation and abandonment? Forgive, Father, I pray for whatever went wrong. We have sinned agianst Your laws and desires of love one another.

Holy Spirit, come and comfort my weary soul.

Amen

Hebrews 13:4 "Marriage should be honored by all..."

Restoration of marriages

This is an encouraging word from the Lord that not only brings to light the issue of many marriages under attack, but it also motivates to BELIEVE for full restoration of marriages!

I have been praying for Misha and Iaha, my dear friends! They had been under a very demonic assalut in their marriage. They suffered, cried, mourned, regret and many other emotions filled their hearts, but now is the TIME FOR BREAKTHROUGH- FOR FULL RESTORATION! AMEN.

Patricia King:
"MARRIAGES UNDER ATTACK!


They were deeply threatened by the potential of such unity – if one can put a thousand to flight, two can put ten thousand to flight.

Last summer, the Lord revealed that a demonic floodgate had been opened and many marriages would be assaulted and destroyed if we did not rise and fight. He said that many would easily give up on relationships. I was made aware by the Lord that the bar had now been lowered on covenant relationships, specifically marriage relationships.
We are in a massive battle for marriage and family, and we must win.

Large battles bring large victories when finally won, and we CAN win if we persist in love and faith.

They were committed to their marriage vows: for better or worse; for richer or poorer; in sickness and in health.

Breakthrough is on its way! All things are possible to those who believe. Let us believe for miracles of restoration!

This is your time to sow love, and you WILL reap...beyond your wildest dreams. This is your personal opportunity to go deep into understanding "love" as Jesus loved.
During this season, you will be perfected in love and in faith. Do not allow love or faith to weaken, but strengthen that which remains. Love perfectly now. Sow love bountifully now and you will reap bountifully, and you will be loved perfectly by MANY, not just a few, in the days to come.

A Locked Garden? Why?

Last night, I had an interesting visual imagination with interpretation...

I saw a gate of a garden, it was locked in the dark hour of early morning.

I knew if I open the locker and sneak into the garden, it would be considered as stealing.

Then, I had an understanding that the gate to the garden will be opened on the day of my marriage.

Another understanding came: It is not simply stealing privately in the dark hour of the morning, it also serves as a magnet or a trigger for Samual to join me in stealing.

Therefore, the Lord put on my heart and in my mind an understainding of waiting, for the sake of us both!!!

Why I feel the way I do and what about the dream?

Today I feel very drowsy...But it's all right, my God is my Lord and He is my strength!

I woke up from a very disturbing dream. On one hand, I want to totally ignore it, on the other hand, I want to knwo why I dreamed about it.

There was a lady that was tortured by denomic forces. She shared that she had visions (which were not heavenly visions). Then the peope were interested and dollowed her. As I went to see her, she ran away from me. I would pursue her with songs in Hebrew language. Then the last thing in the dream was I was singing in Hebrew language and dancing. Other adult women were in teh circle learning frome me. I remember my concious thoughts: how shall I dance to mae it more easier and understandable for them, as well as keep up with the battle!"

As I woke up, I could not identify who that lady was. She had long dark hair and that is about it.

I also think that there might be a connection to how I feel in the natural to what has been in the dream- the battle and soem evil/ demonic presence that does not stand near of worship and dance, our Hebrew inheritance.

Iana and Michael

This is a very personal letter to my sister. The reason I post it here, becuase I see significance in what it happening right now. The Lord is going to bring revival to Iana's family.

Дорогая Яночка, славная и любимая,приветствую тебя во Христе и передаю приветы от Джени, которая тебя очень крепко любит. Вчера я молилась за тебя и испытала сильную. жгучую боль, так что я даже позвонила Сэму, чтобы успокоиться. Я подумала о том, что каково же твоя боль (длительная), в сравнении с моим минутным испытанием. Сегодня, Господь подарил встречу с Джени. Через ее уста в любви и кротости, Бог дал надежду и веру о тебе и Мише.
Во-первых, она думает, что это из-за страха (когда у человека нет ничего, то ему особенно хочется найти статус и уважение другим путем). Оне его не обвиняла, но поняла.
Во-вторых, она подбадривает тебя дарить ему добрые слова восхиещния, даже если они не соответствуют реалности. А все по вере!!!! Она также показала важность того, что тебе нужно попытаться быть чуть более открытой- делиться прямолинейно! (Не высказывать обиды, но просто делиться чем- нибудь).
И В-третьих, Джени сказала, что мне нужно верить и молиться!!! Верить!!!!!!!! Главное верить!!!!
А сейчас я вспомнила о том откровении, которому меня научили во время летней практики с детьми бедными или не успешными. Главное- строить свое предлочение не в отрицательной форме, а в позитивной. Нас учили, что такие дети столко много раз слушали негативного, что самый лучший подход к ним это через воодушевление. Например, вместо того, чтобы сказать: "Нет, ты не правильно делаешь, можно сказать, "А ты пробовал делать это по-другому?" В каком то смысле слова, мы все дети- нуждаемся в постоянной ласке и в словаз ободрения, утешения и принятия.
Люби Мишу сильно, как Христос возлюбил тебя. Люби его еше сильнее, чем ты когда либо его любила!Да пребудет с товой мудрусть Божия!Люблю, Катя.
П.С. яночка, а еше одно предложение на твое усмотрение: ты всегда говорила со мной и обо мне с великим восхищением, побробуй сделать тоже самое для Майкла. Говори о нем, как если бы ты говорила обо мне. Однажды Дух Святой научил меня этому, кода мне было трудно принять одну женшину, а нам предстояла длительная поездка вместе. Дух Святой зказал: "люби ее так, как ты любишь свое маму." Меня это освободило; я подошкла к ней и сказала: "Ты- моя мама, Я тебя люблю. Она до сих пор есть моя Мама Та."Яна, ты все сможешь с Иисусом. Он даст тебе нужную силу и благодать. Победа в твоей семье обязательно грядет!!!Аминь.

My Day Continues...

As I continued in this wonderful day of rest, the Lord allowed me to see the programm on TV about TBN and "Smile of the Child" by Russian representatives in America. It was wonderufl! I tried to call TBN several times with a decision to thank and donate, but nobody picked up the phone. However, there is one thing that I truly noticed through that programm: the need for the interpreters!!!! As I listened to the Russian man translating from English to Russian and the other way around, I saw how miscommunicated things were! It was sad! But I also saw my limitations in that area, even though I was asked to translated for a Russian lady during this coming summer. So, Lord Jesus, I raise to You this concern that You will send and maek Your people able to translate each other words correctly from one language to another. I believe in Your power to display that grace upon the ministry.

Secondly, as I met with Jenny, Sam saw us on a way. It was very great to see him. We talked briefly about many things. Thank you, Lord for that.

Jenny, treated me with medicine for my face because it was severely dry. Then we talked about papa Oleg and she felt such love and appreciation for him. So we decided to write and send a package fro my family on Wednesday. She alse gavea beautiful blue dress for my sister.

I just left her place and came to study more on the book. So, Lord Jesus send Your blessings on Your people. Display Your salvation and grace upon Alison. Recieve all the praise!

Today it is a fast day. God has enabled me and Shawn for this activity by His grace. We both have been led to it because of either a bondage in some areas or limited power to overcome it.

Praise be to God!

By faith I decree that through this graceful fast, the Lord would create an atmosphere of self-control and respect between Samuel and myself.

Father, I bring to you our lives and bodies and ask You to make them a living sacrifice for You.

Secondly, I believe for the freedom and deliverance in Shawn's life today. I pray Lord Jesus that You show Yourself powerful by setting her free from addictions, illness or any other destructive ways. Recieve all the glory for it.

I am thankful for seeing my sister Iana through the internet website.

It's wonderufl to be able to contact with her.

Today also, I need to work on reading the book "Cry of the ubrban poor" and then write a book review about it.

Glory be to God!

February 9

Hello dear beloved readers and friends,

God is good all the time. Our Lord Jesus Christ is forever!!!

"How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God!" 1 John 3: 1

I am thankful for today is February 9, 2009. It is a Samuel's birthday. This day I gave the present to Sam, studied "intro to the Bible" with Jenny, received a graded paper back (95% of 100%)-Glory to God! and talked to different wonderufl people: from India, America, Singapour.

How great is our God. Thanks be for His mercy and great love. For the wisdom and the presence of the Holy Spirit.

My prayer, Lord, for the welbeing of my family. Please, por out your blessings upon them (I feel like I need to sow a financial seed for them). Encourage them in the walk of love in Christ Jesus. Strengthened their hearts and make them strong. In Jesus Name.

Let Your love heal their wounds and trials. May You pour out Your goodness and mercy.
Please with papa Oleg as he travels to St. Petersburg. Give him the time for good fellowship and refreshment.

I love you, Lord.

In Christ name I prayed.

P.S. Oh, one of the important news- Zen and Sarah are in the relationship. We are all happy for them. Praise to the Lord Almighty who led them this way. Halleluja.

Gospel and testimony

Friday... I woke at 4 30 am, dressed up an dcame to help Sam at work. We were done at 8 am. Then I spent from 1 till 3pm with Jenny, going to two of her classes: Bible an Ethics. After that it was like boredom, even though I tried to do homework (reading) and practice the song for Tuesday chapel. Then, I called Judy and hoped to be encouraged trough our prayer time.

But what interesting is that God joined many people. Donny with his friend Isaiah, Shawn, Judy and me had dinner which the Lord Jesus provided. Then Jamie, Phil, Jody came over and spent some time praying and worshipping Jesus with us.

Amazing thing happened again through Donny's confession. He said that he feels like he is going to hell and he does not want to be there. Well, we listened to his concerns, shared our testimonies with him and then the Lord did an amazing thing. We had a Bible study. We all read the scriptures and then the GOSPEL. It was so amazing and wonderful how simple and clear the Lord Jesus explained to them the gospel.

We read Ephisians 2:4-10 "But because of His great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions- it is by grace you have been saved. And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus, in order that in the coming ages of His grace, expressed in His kindness to us in Christ Jesus. For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith- and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God- not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do."

Another testimony happened this evening is Shawn. I remember meeting her before an dhow she struggled with the demons. This evening she was in her right mind. More than that, she read the Word with hunger, she spoke the scriptures and explained passages. She was so happy and encouraged the guys in the walk with Christ. It was so wonderful to see the transformation that God did in her life. Praise for the great work of Christ in her life.

The Word of God is very true and God is faithful. We encouraged Donny to read the Bible. Thanks be to God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! halleluja.

P.S. But when I came home< I analyzed, reflected onwhat has happened. It is still astoninshing to me- the work of Christ through the gospel. After that I danced before Jesus and went to the computer lab in my pijamas.

I love You, Lord Jesus.
Thank You, Father for allowing us to be alife through Your Son Jesus Christ. We are all One in You.

do not worry

The voice of the LORD spoke to me this evening through His beloved people: "Do not worry"

Praise God for the situation you are in. Devil wants you to worry, but you are to bring praises and thanks to God for it.

Lord, in the name of Jesus, I bring to you my heart with praise and thanksgiving for the fellowship and all that is going on. You are the Master. I could never make it here unless You made a way, and You did made a miracle by bringing me here to the United States in 2004. Then, Sam and I both trusted about each other to You and You brought us back togheter: glory be to You. Therefore, I refuse to worry about our relationship. It's gonna be all right with every day!

We trust You, our God.

Thank You so much for Your desire to free us from worries. I bless You tonight with praises and thankfulness.

Katya

Repetition and Reminder

Psalm 91:4 He will cover you with His feathers, and under His wings you will find refuge.

Psalm 40:11 May Your love and Your truth always protect me.

Revelation 1:18 I am the Living One; I was dead, and behold I am alive for ever and ever!

John 2:24 See that what you have heard from the beginning remains in you. If it does, you also will remain in the Son and in the Father.

1 Corinthians 15:57 But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.

Romans 6:13 Do not offer the parts of your body to sin, as instruments of wickedness, but rather offer yourselves to God, as those who have been brought from death to life; and offer the parts of your body to Him, as instruments of righteousness.

Ephesians 2:18 For through Him we both have access to the Father by one Spirit.

interests of Jesus

I am totally amazed about the richness of GOD's word and the enlightment that comes with it. Let me illustrate the scipture and the new depth of meaning to it.

For everyone looks out for his own interests, not those of Jesus Christ. But you know that Timothy has proved himself, because as a son with his father he has served with me in the work of the gospel. Philippians 2:21-22

So, as you see, Jesus Christ has interests of His hearts. When people are interested in how to become rich and successful in this world, Jesus' interests are about the spreading the Gospel to people.

Thank You, dear Lord and the Father, for letting us know Your heart and Your interests. I want to join and choose to be about the interest of my master- Jesus Christ, thus to bring the gospel to others.

The prayer

I just discovered with the help of the Holy Spirit in the Word the type of a prayer :

let me write the scripture first and then internalize it to my life in prayer.

And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge anmd depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes from Jesus Christ- to the glory and praise of God. Philippians 1:9-11

Papa, our Heavenly Father, in the Name of Your Beloved Son Jesus, I ask You to make me/us be able to discern what is best and be pure and blameless until Lord Jesus returns. I pray that You will work all of these by increasing Your love in us and through us and also by filling us up with the righteousness through Jesus and not from our own efforts. We praise You!!! Amen


As I read further in Phillipians there is an explanation of how to be pure and blameless:

Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure... Philippians 2:14

So, this is a guideline for us from God, an answer to our prayer: remain peaceful and even in times of difficulties and trials, do not complain. With all that you do: do it without complaying or arguing. How many times have you seen yourselves arguing with others? How many times did we complain today? Let us trust God to help us to be pure and blameless before Jesus Christ returns. God bless you all and me including.

Mission and the Urban Church

Good evening, dear people.

Today is my first day of classes. It has been wonderful!!!

The first class was "Mission and the Urban Church" by Dr. MaryAnn Hawkins.

Seek the peace and prosperity of the city to which I have carried you into exile. Pray to the Lord for it, because if it prospers, you too will prosper. Jeremiah 29:7

Our focus will be on thinking about the city as a place for ministry. And how can we connect the urban, suburban and rural areas, so there will be equalization. Urbanization process is tightly connected to industrialization, health improvements and some other factors. The good thing that we want to see happening is the partenrship between the suburban and urban churches.

"Moving Mountains: Lessons in Bold Faith from Great Evangelical Leaders" by Paul L. King.

I would like to quote from his book about George Muller:
"George Muller never prayed for a thing just because he wanted it, or even just because he felt it was greatly needed for God's work. When it was laid upon George Muller's heart to pray for anything, he would search the Scriptures to find if there was some promise that covered the case. Sometimes... for days before he presented his petition to God. And when he found the promise, with his open Bible before him and his finger upon that promise, he would plead that promise and so he received what he asked." (p. 28).

Yesterday evening we had a powerful Helaing/Glory meeting.

There were many people and few guests. Xen also came and we did a song "take me in".



What was significant about that meeting is that there was a special anointing over Xen when they prayed for him. We all felt God's glory. They also prayed for me and I fell backward and laid a little bit there.

Xen and I had a good conversation after the meeting and if the Lord wills we will go to the IHOP today.




But I still feel anxious about Sam, my dear
one. The word that I hear realted to us is "Surrender".



God bless you and make His face shines upon you.

"May your love and your truth always protect me" Psalm 40:11

"I am the Living One. I was dead, and behold, I am alive for ever and ever!" Revelation 1:18.

Last night I stayed at Shawn's apartment. We clened the house, prayed, read the Word.
It was so smoky in the apartment, so that I looked for many ways to erase that smell.
She went already to bed, but I remained awake, reading the Word. Sometimes after 2 am, I fell asleep. And I had a dream after 5am and before 9am. It was an interesting dream, that I would like to mention.

My sister and I were standing outside waiting for the van to come with workers. Then Track comes: it was white in the front and it was very big that I did not see the end of it. Then we were inside like a garage or ground floor somewhere. It was dark. My sister and I saw people started walking passing us. We were standing and watching them marsh in the rows from the right to the left. At first there were men, after them I heard unison sayings/song in Spanish. I saw that they were immigrants or other nationalities. There were women now and young children (girls mosty). They all looked sad, depressed, dark, suffered, etc. There were Indians and the raw continued, but suddenly there was a lady. She looked familiar to me. She was completely different from those people: fat and well dress in bright colors, and she had turqouise/blue eyes. She looked at me, stopping the procession and said: "You are into prophetic" (I nodded). "Many prophesied in your eyes" (I nodded), "You are a traveller" (I nodded) and then she said something that it is even hard to express in words, something divine. She said that God's something special will be in my body ( in me). ANd we both looked at my sister. Then she touched my hand and said: " There was Nick. "Bye" That's it." Then I woke up.

By the way, Shawn and I are fasting. Mostly it is for her sake: deliverance from demons and good health. Amen.

Overall review

This is the time I want to remind myslef about certain subjects:

God has loved us and His love covers all sins. The cross where Jesus died was the illustration of God's love for us, His people. The reason He loved us at the first place was His faithfulness_ the promise of the covenant with His people.

After we realize about His love for us and the faithfulness of His love, then we can embrace the life that is in Christ Jesus. Jesus has come that we may have the abundant life. The life in Christ involves using the gifts and talents God has given to us.
Before the coming of Jesus Christ, we were all bound to death, because of sin. But Jesus took away the sin and the death by the ressurection from the dead, thus giving life to everyone who belives.

Therefore, we move to the Faith subject. No promise or life is available apart from the faith. The Word says, "the rightous shall live by faith." The way we have the life of Jesus Christ is by faith. Faith works through love, confession and has the victory.

The summary of it all:
"The life I live in the body. I live by faith in te Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." Galatians 2:20

Hello readers,

For the last 5 days I have been awakening at 5 am in the morning. I wonder why and what is the reason for such an hour to be awake. Instantenously, I start praying but somehow I am going back to sleep.

Lord, in the name of Jesus,
I want to ask you reveal to me the purpose of wakening up and how can I use this time better for prayer and talk with You, my God.

Thank you so much,

Lord, pour over the passion for prayer again. New fresh wave of prayer!!!!!

Love You,

Katya

P.S. Another interesting moment is the reading of the Psalm 45. It is a wedding song about King Jesus and His bride. Lord, teach me Your word.

by Holy Spirit

It is worth saying the most precious words in life: "I love you, O Lord, my strength!"
I think people need to say this to You more often (including myself) that You will be always praised on our lips and in our hearts.
Thank You so much, my Jesus that You ordained for me a blessed life through You. Thank You that You came and rescued me from my sins and troubles. I bless You!


You are the One!

To give you pirase and honor in the thing You have established: Samuel and Katya are still together. We are are happy to be one through Christ our Lord who filled our hearts with hope, faith and love.

But I also wanted to write a testimony. I woke up this morning and the very first thing I did was going on my knees and saying a very brief prayer: "Lord, filled me with the Holy Spirit. Not by might, not by power, but by My Spirit." Then I went to the library to work, and it is still amazes me the strength and sweet presence of His Spirit around me. I am drawn to love Jesus more!!! Praise be to God the Father.

It does not matter if you say long or short prayers but what matters is our dependency on his Spirit throughout the day. May God richly bless you my friends. May the Spirit of Christ reigns in Samuel's heart as he successfully practices his opera in Michigan.

I love you all

Reasons

It is Sunday in America. My mother had stayed for the night and we both went to the church. I came burdened and empty in my soul. There was no desire to greet people or even rejoice. This emotional condition stayed with me until the evenening. During the day, my mum and I ate a lot of different delicous food, but it did not relive us both from feeling alone and sad.

When she left home, to her apartment, I prayed and waited on the Lord. After reading few scriptures, the understanding came to me about the sutuation.

Let me tell you. Last night I was awakened by the dream. I saw Sam and there was another girl who did not notice him, but he followed after her. I, on the other hand, noticing Sam, pursueded some Christian activity. It was a group of young people who did something for the Lord. I remember thinking that I do my choice in pursuing Jesus and His activites, but it felt pain concerning Sam. Whe I awoke around 5 am, there was already feeling of discourgament and grief.

I remember going to church speaking ooutloud: It's been so long since we separated and you still concern about him. I counted months: It was about September, and not it is December: more than 3 months.

I analyzed and pondered about the other day: candles and carols night. I saw him at Reardon singing and feeling glad for him. However, it is when I saw him leaving the auditorium with anoth young lady. He gave us double hugs for both my mum and me and left. I wanted him to leave and just ignore the situation. So I waited to think about it and cast it aside and it came over me this Sunday.

Lord,
Thank You so much that even this situation are all redeamable. I thank you tha tby Your great mercy and plan You did not let me be int eh relationahip with Nick cause I will never be where I am other wise. Thank you that You, Jesus Are the One and Best. Give us courage to face the truth and despise the lost and Run after You.
You knwo that it is painful to me because at times I get hopeful and then experience a wave of hopeless days, etc. But You are my Victory and Together we will find stregnth. You are for me.
SO I pray that You would richly bless Samuel with Your presence and guidance. Forgive me for any offenses and griefs related to him. Let him live the way You ordanied for him and make him successful in all he does. I bless the relationships he chooses to engage in. May he be happy and restored to the fullness in Jesus Name.
God bless you.

Father, Thank you for Your Son Jesus. For Your precious free gift to believe and live in Christ.

In love, Katya

List

Chuck Pierce in the prophetic word spoke this phrase: "make a list of things you want to know and I will not limit My revelation to you this hour."

1. Love of God
2. Faith
3. The Gospel
4. The Family
5. the Dance
6. Commune with Jesus face to face
7. Death and Life in Christ
8. Words
9. God's knowledge about us before our birth and His plans for the future.

My goal is to learn from Jesus, because He is my Best teacher. I also rely on te work of th Holy Spirit in me. May the ocean of love and the faith of God be near me day after day.

I want to be focused on one thing, or in other words, on important purposes in Christ. I see the main goal right now is to commune with Jesus face to face and learn the Word from Him. Then I want to be sent to preach the Gospel to people. My next desire is that passion for romance, sexual desires and longings for a relationship will go to sleep and rest but only the LOVE for Jesus be ACTIVATED daily.

I could already sayt that the work of Christ in me had started. He vistited me and taught about the love. Continue...

Lord, dear Jesus Christ,

the Life in the Spirit is very important. We need to be aware the way we talk and live by faith in the Son of God. Most important is to commune with You face to face.

I want to repent for the words speaking about myself in unbelief. Here I would like to speak the words of building up toward myself through You and Your Word.

Thank you so much that You gave me life through Jesus. I am a new creature who lives a life not in the flesh but by faith.
Thank You for displaying Your strength and power in the areas of the weakness or limits. However, May You perform miracles through the dances and songs that I do. May You display anointing that sets captive free, Touch people through this vessel.

Thank You very much for the LOVE, God!!!! Thank YOU For the LOVE and Your FAITHFULNESS!

On Saturday nights right after the prayer meeting, I had a dream. There was a beautiful long dress (bage or sand color) on me. At first it covered by very unatractice coat (dark blue) as to cover the dress. But as I came into the classroom and found a place to seat, the professor asked me to tell my story, so I stood up and the first thing I did was to uncover my dark coat. I said, "You probably surprised that I am wearing this dress, but let me take this coat off." People were laughing. So I was in the dess, feeling very beautiful and gorgeous. The very next day, on Sunday I wore something new and beutiful and tried to experience the same feeling of worth that I had in my dream. It was awesome!!!!

Today the Holy Spirit reminded me to go back to the prophecy given by Chuck Pierce on www.elijahlist.com . And there the Lord let me understand that He has given a mantle to wear of freedom and glory for the next 14 months. Our goal is to stay and abide in His presence and worship!!!!!!!! This is exactly what has been going on.

I bless the Lord, my Father in HEvaen, His SOn Jesus Christ and beloved Holy SPirit.

Katya

Blessed be the Name of Jesus,

This posting is about searching and struggling. I feel warning in my spirit and yearning not to forsake the presence of God. Despte the fact of intense and enjoyable time spent with Samuel (Gabriel) for the last two or three days, my soul is deeply yearning not to be escaped from the love and the presence of God. I hunger to go to the prayer meeting with Judy. I see the needs of things to pray for, such as Zimbabwe, Sam's needs, etc.

The interesting fact that I already received three letters from N., and of course, I did not reply to any of them. Sharing this with my mom, she noticed the pattern that whenever I and Sam are doing well N. appears on the page.

So, my prayer is to be in tune with the Holy Spirit and remian ALERT in this time. Lord, may you awake my soul from slumber and help me to stand in prayer with brothers and sisters in Your Holy Presence. You are still entroned in Heven and praised by Your people.
May Your name be glorified.

I ask Your Protection over Your people across the nations.
May the fire of God come down to purge us from sins and faults
May Your love covers us like the wings.
May You seal us in the covenant of the Blood of Jesus Christ.

In Jesus Name, Amen

Crossroad

I had a dream today and right after the dream I was awake. The only part I remember is seeing the library and suddenly Sam looked at me: his face was so beautiful adn shone like an angel. And I heard the word "crossroad". I know this dream is from the Lord, because it was so bivid and thelook of Sam's eyes were like of angel piercing. And I have to say that all that was like in a moment, instant.

I went online and searched for meaning.
1. intersection: a place where two or more roads meet or cross each other, especially in a rural or quiet area
2. rural community: a small town or community located at a crossroads ( takes a singular verb )
3. meeting place: a central meeting place that has a lot of activity ( takes a singular verb )
4. decisive moment: a time when an important decision must be made

In my heart, even in the dream I knew it was about the decision or choice that Sam is facing concerning me. He had three dreams of similar account a month ago. Three days in a dream God would bring me to him and let Sam decide whether he wanted or not to be with me. But everytime Sam would wake up without making a decision in his dream.

By the way, we have met yesterday. It went very well and there are some sweet things he said and I felt satisfied. But I know that he is in the season of a crossroad: last year at college, planning his stay for a month in Italy and other things.

Is there a word for him, Lord? Is there a way you want him to be encouraged during this time?

May You be near him and guide him to the choices that will glorify Your name.

Water why?

This maybe a long posting but it is very fresh and important.

First of all, I will try to recall the dreams that I had recently that were tighly connected to the water. Several days I pondered about the meaning of seeing and beeing in a water.

For example, today I was in a pool and made deep jumps into the water and out. It was wonderful and colorful dream. The jumps were more sure, quick and confident.

My first dream was several days ago. I was behind the window and observed the see and the sheap that was in the process of building. I asked what it was and there were several workers standing with their feet on the water. I was surprised in my dream. In the same dream right outside of the place I observed the sea and the sheap, I saw a car, I opened the door and the water came inside of the right seat.

The very next dream on the following night was involved with water too. This time it was a river. A friend of mine walked with her ankles in the water and on a thin line. I also was surprised.


Today I hvae received a revelation that the Lord is moving me into a new and unfamiliar place. That is why I was surprised in all my dreams. In addition to that, I have encountered several temptations and attacks from satan, but the Holy Spirit taught me this word: "you need perseverance... do not shrink away...".

I am in awe of the Lord!!!!!

"my soul thirst for You.
My body longs for You"

You need Perseverance

Hellod dear readers of my blog,

I greet you today in the name of the Lord.

Last night I had an experience that led me to evaluate some things. I did not resist the temptations and after that I prayed about the reason for that. The holy Spirit pointed out the scriptured in Hebrews that illuminate the problem. I NEED PERSEVERANCE IN TIMES OF PRESSURE.

35So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. 36You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. 37For in just a very little while, "He who is coming will come and will not delay. 38But my righteous one[f] will live by faith. And if he shrinks back, I will not be pleased with him."[g] 39But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who believe and are saved. (Hebrews 10: 35-39)

Temptations are overcome even during the pressure when we master perseverance.

Then I sensed the Holy Spirit's direction: Take your time and effort deliberately finish your own and someone else's job. For example, wash the dishes.
I was still writing this phrase and stood up and went to the kitchen and washed all the dirty dishes in the sink. I wrote a letter to a friend with whom I am required of patience and perseverance.

Today during the work, I deliberately studied the material on perseverance and practicaly acted it out. I send emails to people who waited my responses or certain actions. I thought of continuing woorking on dancing and singing with the "Dust", abotu my long term papers and others.

And Thank You Blooger for allowing me to use this cite to continuosly write the path I am walking and the lessons I am learning.

God bless you!

enjoying my present time

I really enjoy this day and this hour. The present moment is around me like a blanket, it covers me from anxiety and haste. I love bein gat this moment and doing the things I need with love and extra time.

Today, I have spent almost an hour seraching and looking through different books on dance. The printed copies of the exercises and certain moves added to my bag. The worship leader from Parl Place emailed me to notify about the preparation for the dance cantata "Breath of Heaven".

Then Papa Oleg called several times, Iana gave a call too. It is a very lovely day, where I enjoy the present moment.

T H A N K Y O U L O R D !

People have things to say

HELLO dear friends,

I would like to share with you abou ttwo meaningful conversations that I had recently.

To keep their names private, I will identify them as:

October 28, AN ELDERLY FEMALE SEMINARY STUDENT who said: "Do your best to honor God".
October 29, AN ELEDERLY MALE SEMINARY STUDENT who said: "Build precious memories with your mom. Enjoy every single day with her."

I think it is important to stop and to listen to what people say to you. I have been told and instructed to honor God and to build precious memories with my mom.


P.S. Would it be a great idea to have a blog of the things people say to you that are meaningful and special?