Am I a virgin?

Last night and today, the Lord opened an opportunity to talk to Lytha about that. By her example, she strengthed my heart to wait until marriage, no matter how tempting and difficult it may be.
Elissa asked me today a private question, "Are you a virgin?" Her only desire was to give me a warning that it might hurt on my wedding day; but as a matter of fact, God is communicating to me.

Open door to my life,
no more secrets or private life.
God is my witness,
I want peace.
His mighty presence
Filling all my days.
To those who wished me bad
God turned things right for me
Outpouring blessings
Reassuring greatness,
I am in Him who is light,
in me there is no darkness any more.
By light I walk and love all.

I thank God for this new day. Last night I took a communion, today the Lord extended His blessings through the finances that my parents sent and also a lunch with Hellen. She has been undergoing similar things that I do.
But right now, I want to bring to your attention what I 've noticed God is showing and speaking to us. He is our Healer. He also is the one who knows what we are feeling. The pain we feel is not strange to Jesus, He shared in our humanity and He knows how to pray and help us.

Two close people in my life are having a very painful emotional time. The pain of suffering is bitter, but deliverance of healing is already in our midst. Tommy Tenney came to the Faith Assembly in Anderson, and this man of God preached to us about the feelings and the pain we are going through and about Jesus, the High Priest who know what we feel.
This is a season we're in. I think that God is going to change things: what seemed really big, he is going to heal that pain and we will move closer to GOd.

There is nothing truly most important than our relationship with God. It is a difficult at times becuase the enemy wants us to be distracted, deceived, etc. May Jesus shine brightly in our hearts and May His word reign in our midst.

Needy of Christ!!!!

COLOSSIANS 3:12-14
THEREFORE, AS GOD'S CHOSEN PEOPLE, HOLY AND DEARLY LOVED, CLOTHE YOURSELVES WITH COMPASSION, KINDNESS, HUMILITY, GENTELENESS AND PATIENCE. BEAR WITH EACH OTHER AND FORGIVE WHATEVER GRIEVENCES YOU MAY HAVE AGAINST ONE ANOTHER. FORGIVE AS THE LORD FORGAVE YOU. AND OVER ALL THESE VIRTUES PUT ON LOVE, WHICH BINDS THEM ALL TOGETHER IN PERFECT UNITY.

my reflections

This blogger helps me to review the history and what God has been doing. I am currently in America, came here by the obedience of the Lord, through His choice. Four years of underground and my last third year in seminary, grad school. Throughout my adult life I was surrounded by prophetic words into my life. On the other hand, I feel the most weak, ordinary, strange and the least among the society. There are times when God fuzes my life with His presence so much, teaching His word and let me hear his voice, but in the society that I live I have been struggling to live. It is almost like it is one or the other. SOmetimes I thought why can't I like other girls combine typical social things with God things. I live when I live in God and do His activities. But because of that, I appear akward before people. It is hard because the experience at seminary left me very wounded, but God is truly healing those wounds. Right now I am discovering that God is a healer, Jesus was wounded and by His wound we are healed.

Jesus, no matter what people see in me, help me to be with You. Father, one day, there will be an assignment (a dance) which will be fulfilled through the Holy Spirit.
God, I am longing!
No one is around at the community of SOT. Thank you for the faithful family and Sam, Judy and her community, Vika, Jenny and some others.

It is interesting that one day, God, You will take us to other countries for Your purposes. Jesus, let Your hands touch my heart. Can You rlove fill my weary soul. Jesus, I love you, You have done so much for me and all the people. Thank you for sacrificing Your life. You are great! Jesus, am I wrong or what I do is in Your will? Please, Jesus, stay with me throughout life. I pray.
Amen


ISAIAH 55: 1-3
Come, all you who are thirsty, come to the waters; and you who have no money, come, buy and eat! Come, buy wine and milk without money and without cost. Why spend money on what is not bread, and your labor on what does not satisfy? Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good, and your soul will delight in the richest of fare. Give ear and come to Me; hear Me, that your soul may live.

I came with a bottle of water, specifically without money but only water.

Native Americans

Hello my dear readers. I great you in the name of Jesus, our Sweet and Faithful Lord.

Yesterday during our Unified meeting at Park Place, the Lord spoke the words to me, since I was really down, sleepy, non functional at all. The men gahtered around me , prayed and prophesied. Mike, for example, isntructed me that the enemy led me into out of allignment. So , we praed for the allighnemnt and balance.
Phil, prophesied to me and mamochka that God will give us homemeal and heal our wounds. AS a matter of fact, we all went to Judy, she made cheese qusadias and we enjoyed fellowship.


That day, in the afternoon, Sam and I shared lunch at Perkins. It is our date place. He looked at my face and adored its features for awhile. Then, he said that God made me in a unique ways, that different nations are represented in my face. He espeacially pointed Native Americans in me. I was so sure that not that, cause they are native to America. However, in the antique store, I bought a tile with an artistic image of a Native woman at the waterfall. And finally in our meeting at Judy's upper room, the Lord instructed to pray forgiveness of sins for both Indians and Americans and bless both too. WOW! WOW! WOW!!!!!!!


Looking forward for a greater understanding and knowledge in this area.
Blessed be the name of the LORD, who is worthy to be praised.

I talked to mamochka and Olegenka on skype. Wonderful!
In mama's dream she talked to Bill Gaither in English.

Jenny emailed me sharing that he likes Ryan.

Here is a new month dawned upon us- March.

I want to express a deep thanksgiving for the previous month -February. It was a small revival in my life during that particular month. Right now, there is a wave of increased responsibilities that want to rob my intimate time with the Lord in prayer.

Last night, I rearranged the room in a more feminine way. The rest was good but the dream was not. Sam arrived in the library during my work hours. He stayed 30 min and went to the church where he is going to have a concert. I am concerned about the pride, btu believe that God will be with Sam during that concert, enabling him to do it very well. Sam has done a lot of prep work and diligently worked on his assignments. Sam will be travelling back to Bloomington, leaving here at 4pm and then on Wednesday evening he will be back until Thursday to rehearse with Dianne, his accompanist.

Another struggle of this world was my worship class. It truly shaked me a little and I continue to trust God to pull me through this class. This Sunday we need to travel to different churches, but also that evening is Sam's concert that starts at 7 till 8 pm. Only the Lord can make it happen, but I cannot miss neither one.

I think Father knows my circumstances an dstill desires me to press in through prayers. Please, dear Holy Spirit help me to do just that- to desire and to know my Lord Jesus and the Father.
I thank you Daddy for the answer with my roommate. Lately, we felt peace and comfort to talk to each other and had several opportunities to bless one another. Rejoice!!!!

This Friday, Tommy Tenney will be speaking at Faith Church. Oh, how I long to attend that meeiting and to be encouraged in the relationship with God. May I learn something new and reminded of something crucial and important.

I bless Your Holy Name, Lord.
Please, forgive my worries, griefs, cares of the world. May there will be peace and the river of joy in my heart. In Jesus Name

prophetic news

Yesterday was such a wonderful prayer meeting ("Night and Day"). Once again, there was a powerful presence of the Lord among us and we all were ministered to and edified. For me, I was reassured about the FATHER. Mike said that I head the Father' s heart and take it very seriously what he says. He mentioned an annointing and blessings. Phil prphesied that God wants to bless me so much, but he knows that it may overwhelm me. God is gentle and will not push me into anything, but there is freedom to go as deep as I would like. He also said a reminder/warning not to gave in to cares of this world (money). That the Lord will bless financially from different sources. The annointing and blessings were repeated. POPCORN, Phil said that those people who will be near me with harden heart will pop like popocorn, whose hearts will become softer.

Judy received a word from the Lord: "I love you and am pleased with you. Do not drive ahead but be led. Symbolism of a dance. God is the best dance partner."

P.S. My roommate received a blessing last night. Praise the Lord.


TODAY, after some hard and unease conversation with my mom, the Lord opened a door to truly connect. She has a deep concern/wound of being used without appreaciated and known for who she is. Somehow, the Holy Spirit called her to attend to the American church in st.pet that I went once. May the Lord give her courage to go and receive healing. Father, may Your love washes all the sorrow and deep wounds from her tender heart. Bless her, Almighty God.


Dear Father, thank you for proving hours to work in the library. I thank you for Your grace and presence. You are ever near and I love you. Thank you for loving us so much. Thank you for Sam. May You guide him in all truth and by Your Holy Spirit. Fill us more with You .


*** A season of pleasure in sin is finished, now is the season of righteousness****


((((( A symbol of a new green sprout.))))))

ethics exam

I had an exam today for ETHICS class. My feelings told me that I was not prepared, but my faith spoke "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." Surprisignly, the exam was great. Praise God through Christ who gave me strength.

Our lecture was partly about temptations. It was amazing. We need to pray to die to our own evil desires and to live a new life in Christ Jesus. Temptations reveal what's in us, it is an opportunity to lay them down to the altar.
Thank you Lord Jesus!!!!

P.S. Talked to Vika a little bit.

faith

We traveled to Ohio: Sam's grandma Lois Green passed away and now is with the Lord in heaven. It was such a wonderful time with the family. We talked with many people and shared good time together. Praise the Lord for the answer to our prayers

Reflection on James

testing of your faith produces perseverance

those that are poor in the eyes of the world are rich in faith

no good to claim to have faith without deeds

faith by itself without deeds is dead

show you my faith by what I do

faith without deeds is useless

Abrahams' faith and deeds worked together

faith made complete by deeds

person justified by what he does and not by faith alone

faith wihtout deeds is dead

prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well

Where are we now?

For the last week, there has been so much happening that it is amazing!

The trip to Bloomington on Firday till Saturday, where Xen and Sarah joined us. It was a very stressful and painful event for both Sam and I. WE had to struggle with its resolutions for few days. In a mean time, we draw nearer to God through prayer, becuase He calls us in. I have seen the faithful hand of GOD pursuing his people here on campus. LAst night, Judy and I joined a prayer group at the Prayer room with two Claires. After that, we rejoined a nother group 10:07 for worship. From that evening starting at 11 pm the students agreed to offer 24 hours prayer and intercession. The Lord put into my heart the same purpose, love and goal, so I joined their prayer vigil at 6:45 am to 7:29am, from there I went to work.

The scriptures God gave were Philippians 2 and Malachi 2.

We love You dear LORD, our Father in heaven. Purge us from inner sins of our hearts and lead us in Your path surrounded by Your light.

I pray for peace and instruction to be present in our hearts, so that we may walk faithfully with you and people. I love You, Lord.

waiting

The Holy Spirit is guiding to WAIT on the LORD.

Waiting on Jesus produces an everlasting fruit, perseverance and thus HE prepares us for His service.

What can be so good about waiting, esp. in the culture that we live?
David called himself and his audience to wait upon the Lord, so did Isaiah.
Amazing!!!!

Lamentations 3:24-26

I say to myself, "The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for Him." The Lord is good to those whose hope is in Him, to the one who seeks Him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.

Isaiah 30:18 - Blessed are all who wait for Him!

two dreams, prayer

Two dreams: yesterday and today.

Dream 1:
Tara prophesied, "God wants you to have intimate relationship with Him." In the dream this phrase repeated over and over again.


Dream 2:
On the back stage, a person came to Sam and kissed my forehead. Then the person declared, "The Lord said- Kiss her for she is my handywork (or a tool) for the future." On which I replied, 'I am in preparation." Then my time came to do a performance and I dance in the freedom ( almost in the air). it was so freeing and I loved it.

PRAYER!!!!!

Dear Holy Spirit,

I know that You are near. The Holy Scripture declares,

"The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything,

but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with

thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And

the peace of God, which transcends all understanding,

will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

So, may my heart will become a place of worship and

prayer to the Most Holy God through Jesus and

by Your help, Holy Spirit. May the words I offer in prayers

will be in union with Thy Word. May there will be unity

even between me and Sam, as both of us, continue to seek

Your face, Lord. Draw us nearer and nearer to You.

In Christ' name.

Amen.

Eagle and Big Bird

Hello readers,

Few updates: Since Monday, we had an ice storm event. Sam came to visit me on Sunday and is still here due to the weather challenges to travel to Bloomington. It is Friday. I had a dream last night. Before I share about the dream, let me say that yesterday in my mind I was struglling to come to terms with Patience. I worried whether she is upset with me; why she does not talk to me and things like that. I tried not to think negatively toward her, but it was hard. Even int eh evening, I found a Candle holder put in my room from the living room, since Patience did not like it there. I don't mind so much that, but that's just waht it is. It is probably the same thing: Sam is staying with me since Sunday (she arrived on Monday), and she does not know how long will he stay here. Knowing that it is the Lord who blessed Sam's coming, I believe He will help to figure it out. What concerns me is that she does not talk to Sam or me, but just hi. I might be wrong about all of that. Let me share the dream



Sam and I stood outside of my grandma's apartment in Kopeysk. She is looking down on us, we run to the neighbor's apratment from her. She is after us, we are up the stairs, opened the door (looked like my blue and white plate). In it, there were two girls, (like 9 or 10 years old). I was reminded of myself playign with my girlfriend. They did not mind us being there. We go outside, there is their father (nice person). Soon, Patience comes in. Now, she is after me and I am running from her. The place was surrouned by fence, so I could not get out but, the white dog was chasing me. It jumped behind the fense, while I remained inside. In returning to the house, I greeted Patience and and we all went inside. Patience came with her girlfriends, I sat by Patience and she shared her opinion about Jesus' coming soon. I understood her, whereas others did not.

Extra part in the dream:
Sam and I were walking and saw a huge bird flying with her big wings. There were three birds. They landed 1 feet from us on a bush. We went walking and the two birds were up in the air. The big bird was motionlessly stll, while Eagle was sitting on the big bird's tail and flying forward.

Deuteronomy 28:13 The Lord will make you the head, not the tail. If you pay attentin to the commands of the Lord your God that I give you this day and carefully follow them, you will always be at the top, never at the bottom.

First gathering at Park Place and the movie

I watched a very interesting movie, called Children on Their Birthdays.
It teaches about respect, friendship, romance, compassion, feminine role, Christian love and much more. I would like to see it again, or read a book.

Last night was a first prayer/worship meeting this year. We gathered at Park Place Church of God. Three women and four men. God has been with us in Glory! We were encouraged to be COURAGEOUS, not timid.

Jesus reminded me that He laid down his life for us, so are we to lay down our lives for others. It means to be the sacrifice.

Bless the Lord, oh my soul.

Phil prayed over us as well, intercedeing for peace, healing, mantle of authority, and others.

THANK YOU!

great weekend at Bloomington, freedom from hurt

What a great weekend Sam and I celebrated in Bloomington and in Anderson. We both felt encouraged, uplifted, nourished in our soul and spirit. The Lord worked in mighty ways. Walk around the IU campus on Saturday morning, when stillness and sun created a wonderful experience; stopping by the Cafe that was Christian. We felt greatly blessed by being there that Saturday morning; visiting an Art store and chatting with workers, who were so helpful in finding ways to let Sam to have an ART show.

On Sunday morning, I experienced a very negative, dramatic feeling in relation to being at church. What seemed to be an issue of all inclusiveness, tolerance to the point of excaping the name of God, after an honest conversation with Sam at the food place, I was able to look into the situation with more imput. Sam shared how he views people from the Temple point of view. Jewish understanding of the Temple descibed in the Holy Scriptures as having three parts: the Court, the Holy and the Holy of Holies. People are on the different stages in their lives, and Sam allows to interact with them accordingly, whereas I preferred to connect only on the Holy and Holy of Holies level (meaning let's just focus on the glory of God, who awesoem our Jesus is). In the court, there are issues that may or may not be related to God necessarily (earthly things, so to say).
But God worked even deeper into my soul and understanding concerning that situation. He helped me to see the HURT within my temle, an area where I have been wounded so bad by a certain Christian community, that left a bitter root of betrayal, distrust to a Christian community. And there are many people who are in that place still. However, in teh bathroom of the Theater, I approached the Cross where Jesus Died in my prayer and laid that hurt and asked Jesus to wash it off, so that I could love and forgive. Immediately I saw a huge difference to people around me and that particular community of faith. People do say, "We hurt others, when we are hurt."

So, glory to God for the liberting power of the Cross.

In my dream tonight, I verbally spoke the words to somebody, "You (we all) have our own will. But Jesus prayed, not my will be done, but Yours." Sam lifted a prayer on my behalf using the same words, "Let Your will be done."
In the worship class, we looked into the Temple and Jesus. Oh, it was so engaging. Jesus is the Temple!!!!

strange dream

First, there was drowning, and an empty building where people were hiding from the danger and war. Then, we came down from the bus and met the main guy. The very first thing that he said, was "since you lost the war, all of you must die." I was an intercessor, pleading with the main guy that he would change the verdict. He was reluctant to change anything. A group of youth ran away while hte main guy talked to a girl, when he came back there were flowers planted by the cafeteria, he wondered why they did that. I said, it is in memory of htem. What if you were killed and there was your flower there. He rebuked me. then I said, I do not understand; he replied, You are cute. I'll make sure you'll get the flower.

Then some parents wanted to die with their children. So I saw a line of women (lined in front of Market Place valley). They took a gun and shot. A first lady fell down and most of them fell. But then nobody died, but were only injured. They could even walk. So They all lined up and headed toward Reardon. I walked beside a young girl, extending my hand, so she could lean on it. Sh asked me, where are we going? I told her, probably to the dorms. (I thought that since they did not die, the turture had finished). We turned from them and started to walk away, but the girl insisted to follow. So we walked. Came to a shakkel house. There we met a multitude of people dressed in shining white. The group of women (esp. young) that came, were taking off from themselves jelwery and other things. I was inside looking and supervising a little what to put away from their stuff. Then I decided to speak. I had a sense of joy, hope and faith. I told them about the Father who loves them and Jesus who is crazy about them. I told them how sometimes I think about heaven. (I have not seen how they were killed, but kind of new that they were hanged).
The guard had a gun and a huge dog. The dog was the meanest creature, with sharp teeth and super big anger. So I stayed inside, protected from that dog.

new haircut

Hello my dear friends!!!!!!

I am happy to announce that since yesterday I have a new hairstyle. It took me some research to do before I decided on shpe and form. Apparently, I have diamond-trangle face (with wider cheakbones), therefore, the bang created a nice oval face and made it look really pretty.

My roommate like it (since she was the first one), the next day three people complimented me on a hairstyle (Ethleen-housekeeper, JAckie-my boss, and Becky- librarian).

Thank you dear Lord,

for allowing your daughter to be beautiful and feel happy about it.

Sincerely,

Katya

KNOW your BIBLE

A clear warning and appeal to read the BIBLE. Dennis Cramer wrote an article on ELIJAHLIST.com that I found so true. He spoke about the Church that is biblically ignorant; our Biblies are dust-covered and unused.

This morning, the Holy Spirit guided me to take the Bible to work and there he spore, "You study My Word and I will bless you."

We need Bible classes and seminars, where we read the Bible and not the books about the Bible with different theologies and interpretation in it. The danger of deception!

Thank you Lord.!

Now, we are to put it into practice by reading the Word!

2011

KEYS

SABBATH, DAY OF REST

But the Lord answered, "To say you are too busy to rest on the Sabbath is like saying you are too poot to tithe. It means you have not learned My ability to provide. If I tell you to rest, you CAN rest."
Wayne Muller described Sabbath activity as "Time consecrated to enjoy and celebrate what it beautiful and good- time to light candles, sing songs, worship, tell stories, bless our children and loved ones, give thanks, share meals, nap, walk, and even make love. It is a time to be nourished and refreshed as we let our work, our chors and our important projects lie fallow, trusting that there are larger forces at work taking care of the world when we are at rest."

You wisper a prayer in the child's ear while gently holding his head.

May the Lord make you like Sarah, Rebecca, Rachel, and Lean; like Ephraim and Menasseh.

May the Lord bless you and watch over you.

May the Lord cause the Divine face to shine upon you and be gracious to you.

May the Lord lift up the Divine face toward you and bring you peace. Amen.