searching for the answer

Well, let's learn from the opposite example given in MAtthew 12:43-45

"But when the unclean spirit has gone out of man, he roams through dry places in search of rest, but he does not find any. Then he says, I will go back to my house from which I came out. ANd when he arrives he finds the plae unoccupied, swept, put in order and decorated. Then he goes and brings with him seven other spirits more wicked than himself, and they go in and make their home there. And the last condition of that man becomes worse than the first."

Let's come back to the scripture in Matthew 12:35 "The good man from his inner good treasure flings forth good things, and the evil man out of his inner evil storehouse flings forth evil things."

Question

And now I have a question: how can God come and live in theinner man of a person when that person is nothing, beggar, poor?

Would glory come in to that undeserved place of a body of a mere men?

Where is the wisdom here?
Teach me Lord, I pray.

Amen

Treasure in the man

Matthew 12:35

The good man from his inner good treasure flings forth good things, and the evil man out of his inner evil storehouse flings forth evil things.

How deep this message, yet a little that I copmrehend. Help me Lord!

I noticed that this scripture realtes to the Epesians 3:16, 19. It talks about God's rich treasure in the inner being of a man.

I prayed to God: "Make me rich in the heavenly. Do not give me the riches earthly. Let me store the riches in heaven. But Now there is a new dimension to that prayer:

"Dear Lord, I pray and ask you to grant me the riches of Your presence within my spirit an dinner man. Make me rich in my inner being. Amen."

God is good.
Where God is in the inner being of a man, that man becomes a good man.

Hunger

"His disciples were hungry"... Matthew 12:1
We are hungry, we are hungry, we are hungry for You (the song)

His disciples were hungry
and we will be hungry as well.
Fill me and flood me with Yourself, Your Spirit and Love!

"the Pharisees saw it, they said to Him, See there! Your disciples are doing what is unlawful and not permitted on the Sabbath. He said to them, Have you not even read what David did when he was hungry, and those who accompanied him? (1 Sam 21:1-6; Lev.24:9) How he went into the house of God and ate the loaves of the showbread, which it was not lawful for him to eat nor for the men who accompanied him, but for the priests only?"... Matthew 12:2-4

God allows through Christ to hunger for Him no matter if you are a priest or a mere disciple. Hunger is good and you can come to the house of God and eat His bread. Hunger is good, remeber that. That will always allow you to come into the house of God!

Dream

The desires:

To buy an Amplified Bible (especially New Testament)
To have a printed machine
To write on the CD the songs God gave me

Farther Dreams:
To raise the dead
To dance for Christ
Do mighty works for GOD the Father
Proclaim the Kindom of God

Ephesians 3:16,19

Ephesians 3:16

May He grant you out of the rich treasury of His glory to be strengthened and reinforced with mighty power in the inner man by the Holy Spirit Himself-indwelling your innermost being and personality.

Ephesians 3:19

That you may be filled through all your being unto all the fullness of God- that is may have the richest measure of the divine Presence, and become a body wholly filled and flooded with God Himself!

Fast meeting at Prayer Room on campus

Voila!
I attended a fast meeting at our prayer room on campus. At first I felt out of place and uneasy to share, but our leader the lady started speaking, the presence of God filled the room. At that moment I did not care about who is around. GOD was the Center of it all!

After a great time,

I have talked to her personally, rahter crying and flooding with tears. This is what she said: "God is going to use you mightily." She said that all the people whom God uses mightily go through this dark testing time "the shadow of death". I felt hope and faith that God will do something through me. Yeah

But when I left that precious room, I cried intensively and shaked so desperately. I could not stop. Then I came to my beloved "secreat room" in Morison and prayed...

I love God and His ways!!!!

Love Him!!!!

the Gospel

I feel HUNGER for the GOSPEL>>>>>

I just want to read THE NEW TESTAMENT to see and witness about JESUS and the HOLY SPIRIT>>>>>

Father, I glorify You for sending Your dear BElOVED SON to save sinners.

James 1:22

"Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says." James 1:22


The Bible Study:


Read the passage from the Bible and then intentionally seek the ways how to do what it says.


I think it is a helpful way to build your Christian walk with Christ.





There are so many different ways for Bible Study: memorize the scriptures, confess the word, word study, etc.


I think that reading the Bible with an intention to get out of it things to do is a great way.


Lord, help me to do as You instruct.





I am a forgetful and deceived person, because I listen to the Word of God a lot, yet little that I do.

Prophetic words on April 23, 2008

Chuck Pierce:
" This is the perfect time for self-reflection. It is the perfect time to do a "spring-cleaning" of your emotions and mind."

Kathy:

"I say that He is King od kings and Lord of lords. I say that He is faithful and true, even when we don't understand. I say that He is the God who keeps His promises, the God who gives us victory, and the God who heals our wounds"

Amen and Amen.

Commitment

Commitment is to be dedicated to a specific purpose, activity, assingment or a person.

It is a pledge or promise.

What is the value of commitment?

What does it do to a person wellbeing?

Is it important to a Christian faith?

What are the examples of commitment?

Where am I with commitments?

My friend Rhyse asked me to participate in a Bible Study, and I have a hard time to commit myself to it.

I had a difficulty to commit myslef in the past to a person for the future mariage becuase I tried to change him or give up when the tough times came.

Sometimes I fail to be where I suposed to be for school... (classes, meetings, etc)

For a long time (while I am being in America) I did not dedicate myself to a specific church.

I used to think that I like changes and new things, but maybe underline reason for that

is my unwillingness to commit for a long time.

Commitment to God

Commitment to people

Commitment to work and study

Commitment to goals

Commitment to church

How does my lack of commitment effect?

There is a dissapointment and unsure feelings about future.

There is lack of trust to people

There is a fear of unknown

Commitment sounds boring to people who like adventure and new experiences, but a true life cannot exist without commitment. Look, Jesus asked people to follow Him. He cannot intrust the Kingdom of God to those who wanted to escape and return to their previous life.

Commitment is a constant choice to wait and prevail in patience.

Commitment is inconvinience in our worldview

Commitment is the bond that is not easily broken

Но я к Богу обратился бы, предал бы дело мое Богу,
Который творит дела великие и неисследимые, чудные без
числа,
дает дождь на лице земли и посылает воды на лице
полей;
униженных поставляет на высоту, и сетующие возносятся во
спасение.
Он разрушает замыслы коварных, и руки их не довершают
предприятия.
Он уловляет мудрецов их же лукавством, и совет хитрых
становится
тщетным:
днем они встречают тьму и в полдень ходят ощупью,
как
ночью.
Он
спасает бедного от меча, от уст их и от руки
сильного.
И
есть несчастному
надежда, и неправда затворяет уста
свои.
Блажен человек,
которого вразумляет Бог, и потому
наказания
Вседержителева не отвергай,
ибо
Он причиняет раны и Сам
обвязывает их; Он
поражает, и Его же руки
врачуют.
В шести
бедах спасет тебя, и в
седьмой не коснется тебя
зло.
Во время
голода
избавит тебя от смерти, и
на войне – от руки меча.
От
бича
языка
укроешь себя и не убоишься
опустошения, когда оно придет.
Опустошению и голоду посмеешься и
зверей земли не убоишься,
ибо с
камнями полевыми у тебя союз, и звери
полевые в мире с тобою.
И
узнаешь, что
шатер твой в безопасности, и
будешь смотреть за домом
твоим, и не
согрешишь.
И увидишь, что семя твое
многочисленно,
и отрасли твои, как
трава на земле.
Войдешь
во гроб
в зрелости, как
укладываются снопы пшеницы в
свое
время.

Proverbs 1:23
Обратитесь к моему обличению: вот, я изолью на вас дух мой, возвещу вам слова мои.


Proverbs 19:20
Слушайся совета и принимай обличение, чтобы сделаться тебе впоследствии мудрым.


Proverbs 15:12
Не любит распутный обличающих его, и к мудрым не пойдет.

Hebrews 12:1-13

1.
свергнем с себя всякое бремя и запинающий нас грех ис терпением будем проходить предлежащее нампоприще,
2.
взирая на начальника и совершителя веры Иисуса, Который, вместо предлежавшей Ему радости, претерпел крест, пренебрегши посрамление, и воссел одесную престола Божия.
3.
Помыслите о Претерпевшем такое над Собою поругание отгрешников, чтобы вам не изнемочь и не ослабеть душами вашими.
4.
Вы еще не до крови сражались, подвизаясьпротив греха,
5.
и забыли утешение, которое предлагается вам, как сынам: сын мой! не пренебрегай наказания Господня, и не унывай, когда Он обличает тебя.
6.
Ибо Господь, кого любит, того наказывает; бьет же всякого сына, которого принимает.
7.
Если вы терпите наказание, то Бог поступает с вами, как с сынами. Ибо есть ли какой сын, которого бы не наказывал отец?
8.
Если же остаетесь без наказания, которое всем обще,то вы незаконные дети, а не сыны.
9.
Притом, если мы, будучи наказываемы плотскими родителями нашими, боялись их, то не гораздо ли более должны покориться Отцу духов, чтобы жить?
10.
Те наказывали нас по своему произволу для немногихдней; а Сей – для пользы, чтобы нам иметь участие в святости Его.
11.
Всякое наказание в настоящее времякажется не радостью, а печалью; но после наученным через него доставляет мирный плод праведности.
12.
Итак укрепите опустившиеся руки и ослабевшие колени
13.
и ходите прямо ногами вашими, дабы хромлющее не совратилось, а лучше исправилось.

Dynamic Semester

This is the most dynamic semster I've ever had!

• walked through the valley of the shadow of death


• was afraid to be in Hell


• suffered silence


• was in poverty and in need


• fasted


• sinned a lot and repented often


• worried about future ways


• felt homesick


• created 4 songs

What things did I learn about God through all of these?

He is with me. (Ps. 23:4)

The Lord is longsuffering and merciful. (Ps. 103:8-13)

As for God, His way is perfect.

Psalm 18:30

Knock and it will be opened to you.

Matthew 7:7

Long Hair

I had a dream that after I woke up my hair were long! t was so wonderufl feeling! MY hair were dark, staright, smooth and most important long!!!!

"If a woman has long hair, it is a glory to her" 1 Cor. 11:15

Interesting enough, that two days I am studying and reading about glory of God. he promised me to glorify me with His glory. So, I thank Jesus for the wonderful dream and Hid glory.

Reject all discouragement that is attempting to rob you of your momentum! This past week while we were worshipping, it was as if the Lord gave me supernatural vision and I saw our emotions. I could see that the enemy had made ploys against God's saints to block feelings in us, to stop us from gaining new zeal in the Lord. I saw satan and his forces had erected hidden snares and were creating offenses to wound our wellbeing and capture our soul expressions, causing us to stumble and lose momentum.
Our longing comes from the power of our desire, locked in our emotions. While the Spirit of God is creating a desire for the NEW, the enemy is attempting to ensnare us with old patterns, remove our creative unction, and bring many distractions into our lives. We must rise up now and say, "I've got to have You to help me press through into this new place. Reorder my focus so I can pinpoint the enemy's movement around me!"

Indeed, i had experienced an atack from the enemy for my emotions. Nikolai spoke again his nice words to capture me into the old pattern. Honestly, because of this enemy attack, I could not concentrate on school work. It was a battle over my emotional well being.
I refuse to come back to an old pattern through Nikolai. Lord, rise up in me like a lion that Your roar will scar the enemy.
Lord, jesus, I repent for allowing myself to got caught in the enemy illusion. Thank you so much for revealing me again the danger related to Nikolai' situation. Blessed be your name.

In Jesus Christ, Katya

Galatians 2:20

I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.

But many who are first will be last, and the last first. Matthew 19:30


Therefore what God has joined together, let no man separete. Matthew 19:6

Hello my friends,
Today is Saturday. Yesterday Danielle, Tori, Kevin and me went to the Italian restaurant "Bravo", We all were dressed up as for the formal. It was a good time and good food. Then I came home and immediately the phone call from Nikolai. Because I was in a way emotionally thirsty for affection and affirmation, I let our conversation continue. We talked hours and hours. He brought up questions, I brought up questions, We laughed, discussed our disagreement, etc. it became clear that he is not giving up on me. It was weird because I enjoyed our conversation but I also told him that "no" there is not going to be anything more.

Then I had a dream which is not very important but just because it happened after our conversation I thought it impotant to write it down.
We were in the classroom with Dr. Mbito. The group asked me to be thier leader for the project. There were a lot of assignments and I knew that I am not a leader but I would like to take a position. So we agreed. Then I see myself waling with another girl to a building but nobody from our class is there. So I wondered how am I a leader if I don't know where we are supposed to be. So we turned back from there and on our way back the people were coming toward that place two by two holding hands. I wonered but we just were there. Then it appeared "the last will be frist and the first will be last". Then somewhere in the middle I joined the group of people and we went to the police office. there were stairs. So I am walking up and see a lady sitting with closed eyes worshipping God by singing about the kingdom of God.I knew I had to show her my document to pass. When I passed her there was a music on TV : "Where you go I 'll go". I immediately started to dance and sing. Everybody was surprised including my sister but it was because of that song.

When I woke up I wondered about leadership....
But on one hand, Nikolai talked about the leadership that he received on his new job. We also talked about me being last instead of first on his list.


So I pray that God's wisdom will be with me in the name of Jesus.