Glory be to God in the name of Jesus. Yesterday the enemy tried to put me down again (exactly a week) and made me feel lonely. However, the Holy Spirit whispered in my heart to write "I LOVE YOU." I am on a journey of healing from rejection. Not only the prayers have been lifted about it, but I became more open and do research on it.

Yesterday, we had a great meeting at Wellspring and after Judy and I went to Wendy. Holy Spirit just put upon my heart to go Wendy. There, we met a group of young girls to whom I ministered and she was relieved from a rejected situation. To God be the glory. It was amazing to help someone in the area I experienced.

The encouraging thoughts are God has a future for Sam and I. He has great plans for us, way beyond what we can dream or imagine, that's how much better it will be. Right now, as the process of healing from the rejection, I need to trust Jesus and let the Holy Spirit take charge, believing God's grace and love.

It has been a good journey of recovery so far, I want more freedom in order to be who God wants me to be and prepare for ministry with people.

This morning I thought when is my periods coming and imagine what if I am pregnant. It was funny that mamochka told me of her dream. That I was pregnant, theh mama held a baby and fed it from the bottle. Then it grew up quickly to the age of 4. What does that mean? Over the weekends, the Lord gave joy and strength. The prophet Lori Becker prayed for me. It it so awesome.

Therefore, laying aside all malice, all deceit, hypocrisy, envy, and all evil speaking, as newborn babes, desire the pure milk of the word, that you may grow thereby; if indeed you have tasted that the Lord is gracious. 1 Peter 2:1-3

And I , brethren, could not speak to you as to spiritual people but as to carnal, as to babes in Christ. I fed you with milk and not with solid food; for until now you were not able to receive it, and even now you are still not able; for you are still carnal. For where there are envy, strife, and divisions among you, are you not carnal and behaving like mere men? 1 Corinthians 3:1-3

For though by this time you ought to be teachers, you need someone to teach you again the first principles of the oracles of God; and you have come to need milk and not solid food. For everyone who partakes only of milk is unskilled in the word of righteousness, for he is a babe. But solid food belongs to those who are of full age, that is, those who by reason of use have their senses exercised to discern both good and evil. Hebrews 5:12-14.

Yesterday, esp. last night, an enemy attacked me really bad through temptation. Sam had a dream in which he battled evil spirits from hell. A church sent out bombs, missels to shot the target, cities, etc.

God the Father, Son and the Holy Spirit,
Shielf us from all powers of evil. Let the Blood of the Lamb be upon us and let Your light shine all around us and in us. Amen.

Persecution in Ethiopia

Today, to my greatest amazement, I found out that the Muslim extremests burned down 59 churches, killed few and injured Christians, around10,000 fled for refuge. Ethiopia, may God come to you for refuge and help in time of need.

You are in my heart.

Ethiopia

What a surprizing turn the converswation with Alyssa on facebook turned.
Ethiopia is located on eastern part of Africa.
So, tomorrow we will do some research about it. She strongly recommended me to go there. She believed that I will go to Africa one day. (So do I)

How amazing that is!!!!
Thank you Lord

Dream about Muslims?

Travelling with a group of ladies and Dr.Hawkins to Eastern Africa. There we see the public place with lots of young Muslim boys. Then, on the bus, I see my cousin who passed away. He was Muslim too :)

We need to reach hose who are outside with Jesus

few visions in the circle of prayer

Last evening, during our Unifeid gathering, the Lord showed to me when we were in a circle, holding hands. First, behind me and Claire I somewhat felt or seen an angel, and then the Holy Spirit filled my mouth with words to pray for campus. After that, I saw a vision, of a person walking with the torch of light. after a while, I saw another person with an open extended hand with a living bread. Light and Bread

Last evening was my second night of partaking communion at home. With that comes more freedom, healing and joy. How wonderful the Lord's blood and body!!!! What grace and price!

With love to my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ

Am I a virgin?

Last night and today, the Lord opened an opportunity to talk to Lytha about that. By her example, she strengthed my heart to wait until marriage, no matter how tempting and difficult it may be.
Elissa asked me today a private question, "Are you a virgin?" Her only desire was to give me a warning that it might hurt on my wedding day; but as a matter of fact, God is communicating to me.

Open door to my life,
no more secrets or private life.
God is my witness,
I want peace.
His mighty presence
Filling all my days.
To those who wished me bad
God turned things right for me
Outpouring blessings
Reassuring greatness,
I am in Him who is light,
in me there is no darkness any more.
By light I walk and love all.

I thank God for this new day. Last night I took a communion, today the Lord extended His blessings through the finances that my parents sent and also a lunch with Hellen. She has been undergoing similar things that I do.
But right now, I want to bring to your attention what I 've noticed God is showing and speaking to us. He is our Healer. He also is the one who knows what we are feeling. The pain we feel is not strange to Jesus, He shared in our humanity and He knows how to pray and help us.

Two close people in my life are having a very painful emotional time. The pain of suffering is bitter, but deliverance of healing is already in our midst. Tommy Tenney came to the Faith Assembly in Anderson, and this man of God preached to us about the feelings and the pain we are going through and about Jesus, the High Priest who know what we feel.
This is a season we're in. I think that God is going to change things: what seemed really big, he is going to heal that pain and we will move closer to GOd.

There is nothing truly most important than our relationship with God. It is a difficult at times becuase the enemy wants us to be distracted, deceived, etc. May Jesus shine brightly in our hearts and May His word reign in our midst.

Needy of Christ!!!!

COLOSSIANS 3:12-14
THEREFORE, AS GOD'S CHOSEN PEOPLE, HOLY AND DEARLY LOVED, CLOTHE YOURSELVES WITH COMPASSION, KINDNESS, HUMILITY, GENTELENESS AND PATIENCE. BEAR WITH EACH OTHER AND FORGIVE WHATEVER GRIEVENCES YOU MAY HAVE AGAINST ONE ANOTHER. FORGIVE AS THE LORD FORGAVE YOU. AND OVER ALL THESE VIRTUES PUT ON LOVE, WHICH BINDS THEM ALL TOGETHER IN PERFECT UNITY.

my reflections

This blogger helps me to review the history and what God has been doing. I am currently in America, came here by the obedience of the Lord, through His choice. Four years of underground and my last third year in seminary, grad school. Throughout my adult life I was surrounded by prophetic words into my life. On the other hand, I feel the most weak, ordinary, strange and the least among the society. There are times when God fuzes my life with His presence so much, teaching His word and let me hear his voice, but in the society that I live I have been struggling to live. It is almost like it is one or the other. SOmetimes I thought why can't I like other girls combine typical social things with God things. I live when I live in God and do His activities. But because of that, I appear akward before people. It is hard because the experience at seminary left me very wounded, but God is truly healing those wounds. Right now I am discovering that God is a healer, Jesus was wounded and by His wound we are healed.

Jesus, no matter what people see in me, help me to be with You. Father, one day, there will be an assignment (a dance) which will be fulfilled through the Holy Spirit.
God, I am longing!
No one is around at the community of SOT. Thank you for the faithful family and Sam, Judy and her community, Vika, Jenny and some others.

It is interesting that one day, God, You will take us to other countries for Your purposes. Jesus, let Your hands touch my heart. Can You rlove fill my weary soul. Jesus, I love you, You have done so much for me and all the people. Thank you for sacrificing Your life. You are great! Jesus, am I wrong or what I do is in Your will? Please, Jesus, stay with me throughout life. I pray.
Amen


ISAIAH 55: 1-3
Come, all you who are thirsty, come to the waters; and you who have no money, come, buy and eat! Come, buy wine and milk without money and without cost. Why spend money on what is not bread, and your labor on what does not satisfy? Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good, and your soul will delight in the richest of fare. Give ear and come to Me; hear Me, that your soul may live.

I came with a bottle of water, specifically without money but only water.

Native Americans

Hello my dear readers. I great you in the name of Jesus, our Sweet and Faithful Lord.

Yesterday during our Unified meeting at Park Place, the Lord spoke the words to me, since I was really down, sleepy, non functional at all. The men gahtered around me , prayed and prophesied. Mike, for example, isntructed me that the enemy led me into out of allignment. So , we praed for the allighnemnt and balance.
Phil, prophesied to me and mamochka that God will give us homemeal and heal our wounds. AS a matter of fact, we all went to Judy, she made cheese qusadias and we enjoyed fellowship.


That day, in the afternoon, Sam and I shared lunch at Perkins. It is our date place. He looked at my face and adored its features for awhile. Then, he said that God made me in a unique ways, that different nations are represented in my face. He espeacially pointed Native Americans in me. I was so sure that not that, cause they are native to America. However, in the antique store, I bought a tile with an artistic image of a Native woman at the waterfall. And finally in our meeting at Judy's upper room, the Lord instructed to pray forgiveness of sins for both Indians and Americans and bless both too. WOW! WOW! WOW!!!!!!!


Looking forward for a greater understanding and knowledge in this area.
Blessed be the name of the LORD, who is worthy to be praised.

I talked to mamochka and Olegenka on skype. Wonderful!
In mama's dream she talked to Bill Gaither in English.

Jenny emailed me sharing that he likes Ryan.

Here is a new month dawned upon us- March.

I want to express a deep thanksgiving for the previous month -February. It was a small revival in my life during that particular month. Right now, there is a wave of increased responsibilities that want to rob my intimate time with the Lord in prayer.

Last night, I rearranged the room in a more feminine way. The rest was good but the dream was not. Sam arrived in the library during my work hours. He stayed 30 min and went to the church where he is going to have a concert. I am concerned about the pride, btu believe that God will be with Sam during that concert, enabling him to do it very well. Sam has done a lot of prep work and diligently worked on his assignments. Sam will be travelling back to Bloomington, leaving here at 4pm and then on Wednesday evening he will be back until Thursday to rehearse with Dianne, his accompanist.

Another struggle of this world was my worship class. It truly shaked me a little and I continue to trust God to pull me through this class. This Sunday we need to travel to different churches, but also that evening is Sam's concert that starts at 7 till 8 pm. Only the Lord can make it happen, but I cannot miss neither one.

I think Father knows my circumstances an dstill desires me to press in through prayers. Please, dear Holy Spirit help me to do just that- to desire and to know my Lord Jesus and the Father.
I thank you Daddy for the answer with my roommate. Lately, we felt peace and comfort to talk to each other and had several opportunities to bless one another. Rejoice!!!!

This Friday, Tommy Tenney will be speaking at Faith Church. Oh, how I long to attend that meeiting and to be encouraged in the relationship with God. May I learn something new and reminded of something crucial and important.

I bless Your Holy Name, Lord.
Please, forgive my worries, griefs, cares of the world. May there will be peace and the river of joy in my heart. In Jesus Name

prophetic news

Yesterday was such a wonderful prayer meeting ("Night and Day"). Once again, there was a powerful presence of the Lord among us and we all were ministered to and edified. For me, I was reassured about the FATHER. Mike said that I head the Father' s heart and take it very seriously what he says. He mentioned an annointing and blessings. Phil prphesied that God wants to bless me so much, but he knows that it may overwhelm me. God is gentle and will not push me into anything, but there is freedom to go as deep as I would like. He also said a reminder/warning not to gave in to cares of this world (money). That the Lord will bless financially from different sources. The annointing and blessings were repeated. POPCORN, Phil said that those people who will be near me with harden heart will pop like popocorn, whose hearts will become softer.

Judy received a word from the Lord: "I love you and am pleased with you. Do not drive ahead but be led. Symbolism of a dance. God is the best dance partner."

P.S. My roommate received a blessing last night. Praise the Lord.


TODAY, after some hard and unease conversation with my mom, the Lord opened a door to truly connect. She has a deep concern/wound of being used without appreaciated and known for who she is. Somehow, the Holy Spirit called her to attend to the American church in st.pet that I went once. May the Lord give her courage to go and receive healing. Father, may Your love washes all the sorrow and deep wounds from her tender heart. Bless her, Almighty God.


Dear Father, thank you for proving hours to work in the library. I thank you for Your grace and presence. You are ever near and I love you. Thank you for loving us so much. Thank you for Sam. May You guide him in all truth and by Your Holy Spirit. Fill us more with You .


*** A season of pleasure in sin is finished, now is the season of righteousness****


((((( A symbol of a new green sprout.))))))

ethics exam

I had an exam today for ETHICS class. My feelings told me that I was not prepared, but my faith spoke "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." Surprisignly, the exam was great. Praise God through Christ who gave me strength.

Our lecture was partly about temptations. It was amazing. We need to pray to die to our own evil desires and to live a new life in Christ Jesus. Temptations reveal what's in us, it is an opportunity to lay them down to the altar.
Thank you Lord Jesus!!!!

P.S. Talked to Vika a little bit.

faith

We traveled to Ohio: Sam's grandma Lois Green passed away and now is with the Lord in heaven. It was such a wonderful time with the family. We talked with many people and shared good time together. Praise the Lord for the answer to our prayers

Reflection on James

testing of your faith produces perseverance

those that are poor in the eyes of the world are rich in faith

no good to claim to have faith without deeds

faith by itself without deeds is dead

show you my faith by what I do

faith without deeds is useless

Abrahams' faith and deeds worked together

faith made complete by deeds

person justified by what he does and not by faith alone

faith wihtout deeds is dead

prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well

Where are we now?

For the last week, there has been so much happening that it is amazing!

The trip to Bloomington on Firday till Saturday, where Xen and Sarah joined us. It was a very stressful and painful event for both Sam and I. WE had to struggle with its resolutions for few days. In a mean time, we draw nearer to God through prayer, becuase He calls us in. I have seen the faithful hand of GOD pursuing his people here on campus. LAst night, Judy and I joined a prayer group at the Prayer room with two Claires. After that, we rejoined a nother group 10:07 for worship. From that evening starting at 11 pm the students agreed to offer 24 hours prayer and intercession. The Lord put into my heart the same purpose, love and goal, so I joined their prayer vigil at 6:45 am to 7:29am, from there I went to work.

The scriptures God gave were Philippians 2 and Malachi 2.

We love You dear LORD, our Father in heaven. Purge us from inner sins of our hearts and lead us in Your path surrounded by Your light.

I pray for peace and instruction to be present in our hearts, so that we may walk faithfully with you and people. I love You, Lord.

waiting

The Holy Spirit is guiding to WAIT on the LORD.

Waiting on Jesus produces an everlasting fruit, perseverance and thus HE prepares us for His service.

What can be so good about waiting, esp. in the culture that we live?
David called himself and his audience to wait upon the Lord, so did Isaiah.
Amazing!!!!

Lamentations 3:24-26

I say to myself, "The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for Him." The Lord is good to those whose hope is in Him, to the one who seeks Him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.

Isaiah 30:18 - Blessed are all who wait for Him!

two dreams, prayer

Two dreams: yesterday and today.

Dream 1:
Tara prophesied, "God wants you to have intimate relationship with Him." In the dream this phrase repeated over and over again.


Dream 2:
On the back stage, a person came to Sam and kissed my forehead. Then the person declared, "The Lord said- Kiss her for she is my handywork (or a tool) for the future." On which I replied, 'I am in preparation." Then my time came to do a performance and I dance in the freedom ( almost in the air). it was so freeing and I loved it.

PRAYER!!!!!

Dear Holy Spirit,

I know that You are near. The Holy Scripture declares,

"The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything,

but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with

thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And

the peace of God, which transcends all understanding,

will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

So, may my heart will become a place of worship and

prayer to the Most Holy God through Jesus and

by Your help, Holy Spirit. May the words I offer in prayers

will be in union with Thy Word. May there will be unity

even between me and Sam, as both of us, continue to seek

Your face, Lord. Draw us nearer and nearer to You.

In Christ' name.

Amen.

Eagle and Big Bird

Hello readers,

Few updates: Since Monday, we had an ice storm event. Sam came to visit me on Sunday and is still here due to the weather challenges to travel to Bloomington. It is Friday. I had a dream last night. Before I share about the dream, let me say that yesterday in my mind I was struglling to come to terms with Patience. I worried whether she is upset with me; why she does not talk to me and things like that. I tried not to think negatively toward her, but it was hard. Even int eh evening, I found a Candle holder put in my room from the living room, since Patience did not like it there. I don't mind so much that, but that's just waht it is. It is probably the same thing: Sam is staying with me since Sunday (she arrived on Monday), and she does not know how long will he stay here. Knowing that it is the Lord who blessed Sam's coming, I believe He will help to figure it out. What concerns me is that she does not talk to Sam or me, but just hi. I might be wrong about all of that. Let me share the dream



Sam and I stood outside of my grandma's apartment in Kopeysk. She is looking down on us, we run to the neighbor's apratment from her. She is after us, we are up the stairs, opened the door (looked like my blue and white plate). In it, there were two girls, (like 9 or 10 years old). I was reminded of myself playign with my girlfriend. They did not mind us being there. We go outside, there is their father (nice person). Soon, Patience comes in. Now, she is after me and I am running from her. The place was surrouned by fence, so I could not get out but, the white dog was chasing me. It jumped behind the fense, while I remained inside. In returning to the house, I greeted Patience and and we all went inside. Patience came with her girlfriends, I sat by Patience and she shared her opinion about Jesus' coming soon. I understood her, whereas others did not.

Extra part in the dream:
Sam and I were walking and saw a huge bird flying with her big wings. There were three birds. They landed 1 feet from us on a bush. We went walking and the two birds were up in the air. The big bird was motionlessly stll, while Eagle was sitting on the big bird's tail and flying forward.

Deuteronomy 28:13 The Lord will make you the head, not the tail. If you pay attentin to the commands of the Lord your God that I give you this day and carefully follow them, you will always be at the top, never at the bottom.