Psalm 18

Psalm 18

• He shot His arrows and scattered the enemy, with great olts of lightening He routed them. The valleys of the sea were exposed and the foundations of the earth laid bare at your rebuke, Lord, at the last of breath from Your nostrils. (14-15).
• With Your help I can advance against a troop (or can run through a barricade); with my God I can scale a wall. (29)
• It is God who arms me with strength and keeps my way secure. He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; He causes me to stand on the heights. He trains my hands for battle; my arms can bend a bow of bronze. (32-34)
• I pursued my enemies and overtook them; I did not turn back till they were destroyed. I crushed them so that they could not rise; they fell beneath my feet. You armed me with strength for attle; you humbled my adversaries before me. You made my enemies tuen their backs in flight, and I destroyed my foes. (37-40)
• I beat them as fine as windblown dust; I trampled them like mud in the streets. You have delivered me from the attacks of people; You have made me the head of nations. (42-43)

An Enemy is Exposed!

Flee satan, you are exposed, your hidden schemes are seen by the Spirit of God.

My face today received a terrible sickness. It has been before once. That time I felt that something was wrong with the cream... Today Hellen told me that the cream is wrong. So I checked the product. The website is www.straightfromtheroot.com , their main webpage says:

"Pamper: treat (someone) with great indulgence...spoil." Then it gives 10 main products, five of those have the title: "plant magic".

Now, you can see the readers, that the root of the product is satan. He was hidding himself under the innocent title "straightfromtheroot". It is a product from England. Lord, I pray that you will expose the demonic activity that has a stronghold in the Great Britan. What is it and how can we pray against it?

The Holy Spirit told me to call Hellen and she will let me know what to do. I called her and she prayed long, casting out the demonic activity into the fire of hell. Praise God! I cried and prayed in tongues druing the prayer.

Glory be to God!


The second event of the day: was a letter from Yrij Kim. He is among the friends on www.vkontakte.ru . He wrote a message saying, "Hi Ekaterina! Visit the site gcoa.ru It was during the break and again I was with Hellen. Just as the website was downloading, I saw the word "porno". Immediately, I closed the site and was shocked!!! He has all these Christian things on the main page. So, I wrote him back by the advice of Hellen.

"Yrij. You need to repent for the website you sent me. I so not condemn you, may the Loving Lord bless you. And do not write to me anymore." As I was sitting and writing this, the thought came to me, 'maybe somebody took an access underhis name and wrote it." So, I investigated his website on www.vkontakte.ru . It appeared that he had a link toward another site, when I opened that, it was the same evil site "porno", under the different title.

Lord, I pray that You do justly with that man. I hope that he will repent but i he is not willing to repent, I ask You, Father, to stop him from doing this evil. Hellen said that he is a wolf in a sheep clothe. Amen.

Today was the day of battle. Praise the Lord! Halleluja!!!
Thank you Lord for my friend Hellen and a partner in Your name, Jesus.

Do you wanna be used by God?

1) To be used by God, we need to be clean vessels.

• In the tabernacle, all the items were clean, holy and devoted for the Lord.
• Holiness comes from the Lord. "I will make him/ her holy" (Lev. 21:8)
• "Therefore, since we have these promises, dear friends, let us purify ourselves from everything that contaminates body and spirit, perfecting holiness out of revernace for God." 2 Corinthians 7:1)

2) To be used by God is to experience resistance from authority.

• Do you wanna be used by God or have authority and honor from men?
• Jesus submitted to the will of God. Authorities did not accept him. Did He do the will of God? Yes. "My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death. ... he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, "My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will." (Matthew 26:38, 39)
• It will brings tears; you would feel abandoned from the help of men

Meeting at the Paramaunt Theater.

The Lord provided money to go in. It costed $25, I had only 13, so Tara took 10 dollars and payed for the ticket. By the end of the meeting, Judy came to me and said, "Can I pay for your ticket?" I told her that Tara paid for part of my ticket. So she gave $10. I believe this is an abundance coming from the throne of the Father to my willingness to give money from cheking account. So, Lord, I pray and invite the work of the Holy Spirit to do things that are beautiful and pleasing before You.

Thank You, Father, (I acknowledge Your presence) for the way You had this meeting. Thank you for the dry and difficult period I've been for several days. To know that You are protecting me with Your embrace! Your are my shield against any deception or seducing spirits. In You I put my wholy life in trust.

Father, I ask You to speak to me concerning the past. Please teach me why things happen and the results of it... Please, bring Your heavenly wholeness to my being that You created.

i love you fanatically. you are my all!

Thank You, Sweet Holy Spirit for teaching about love increasing. I repent even now for the grieving Your presence in my life by anger, bitterness, offenses, etc. Now, I invite You Gentle holy Spirit and create that love circle flow into the full measure of the fullness of God (Ephesians 3).


The person spoke that You put your fingers on my heart concerning the Cross. A revelation about the Cross! Then, You gave the word through that person about discipleship heart to heart. Thank You, Father, for abilities to remember. I ask You in the name of Jesus to remember the things You have done, Your presence, Your word, all about You, I want to remember!!!!!!

Thank you for Tara, mama.
Thank You, bless her so much. Thank you for great things flowing and Your love for her is astonishingly great.

I think there is a significance to what has happened and the fact that we move one hour ahead on our watch. We are advanving in our knowledge of the Lord and His desire for relationship.

Thank you for Lisa, praying over Iana and Michael. Thank You, Father for the miracle of deliverance.

Sweet Holy Spirit stay with me from now on. Reveal and teach the Word of God and everything You have to teach me. I am Yours an donly Your eternally. I ask Your wisdom in how I spend the realtionship with people. Take away the fear, but also give me a discerning heart to know that which is pleasing before You. I break any soul ties in Jesus name. Father, I do not want to act in my ignorance or own understanding, I ask You to pour out Your presence and understanding what You want me to do about it. Remember, I am Your forever. You are my Father for ever and ever. Amen!

I love You Jesus.

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prayer

This is a day for prayer!!!!

Fill us with the Holy Spirit!!!!!

strange dreams

Hello dear readers and praise be to our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Thanks be to Him fro His grace and unfailing love.

I would like to share the dream that I had last night. It is a long and dynamic dream with a good ending.

First of all, I was travelling to the church and inside I was having lunch with my girld friends. I just talked on the phone with Sam and was upset that he forgot my birthday. He said that he is going to a party or a meeting that he planned. I was sad because I though he forgot my birthday. But he said over th ephone that he sent me mails and his love. As I continued to eat my lkunch, I noticed on my left infront a table, where Sam was eating his lunch. He finished and I went downstairs with him.

Then I see us swimming in the pool. There were three of us. We had talked and swimmed harmoniousliy in the water.

Then, my favorite part, was his phone call. He waked me up and said: "Oh, when you lay down the phone I want you to pray. Jesus said, "A new commandment I give to you that you love one another." Then I woke up.

Then I went to slepp again and my dream was not very good. There were some dangerous fighting with guns. One of the person took a bullet and was about to shoot me, but I asked not to. So he agreed and shoot into the glass. I covered myself with a paper against the broken pieces of glass. Then, we went inside of that small room. People started cleaning... Sam and I stood outside hugging each other for a short brief moment.

I also saw my father Albert, when Sam and I stopped by the house. he was a little bit drunk, so I had to tell that we were just for a moment ( I needed to change or take something with me)... I saw the blood in the house.

Well, this were my dreams...

I am thankful that my laptop is working. Last night I wished to listen to some sermons that are MP3. The only way I could do that was through computer. I tried and it worked, praise the Lord. Thus, I started listening to S. Shidlovskiy right away.

Father,
I want to cry... because of the tragic reality of marriages and families in the world.
Yes, Lord, I know that Your desire is Unity! You are for families and marriages, but satan is agianst!
We need Your direction and restoration!





















Please, Holy Father,
Start a global revival of marriages.








I cry because of my friends' families: many divorced.
Jesus, I no longer view divorce as normal reality, it is awful!

Father, I am deeply concerned with the marriage of my family. I have questions to why mama does not live with papa Oleg in Chelyabinsk. Is St. Petersburg, apartement or even church more importnat that the love and commitment to her husband? Why does she travel abroad on vocations, while papa Oleg is alone working out finances and other issues? I do not see justice.

But Beloved Father, forgive me Your daughter for such a contempt. I do not want to regret Your heart with my hardness. I just ask Your grace on marriages and families.

Especially, the topic is dear to my heart becaue of my sister's marriage. Did she receive any help from church? Or rather did the church bring condmenation and abandonment? Forgive, Father, I pray for whatever went wrong. We have sinned agianst Your laws and desires of love one another.

Holy Spirit, come and comfort my weary soul.

Amen

Hebrews 13:4 "Marriage should be honored by all..."

Restoration of marriages

This is an encouraging word from the Lord that not only brings to light the issue of many marriages under attack, but it also motivates to BELIEVE for full restoration of marriages!

I have been praying for Misha and Iaha, my dear friends! They had been under a very demonic assalut in their marriage. They suffered, cried, mourned, regret and many other emotions filled their hearts, but now is the TIME FOR BREAKTHROUGH- FOR FULL RESTORATION! AMEN.

Patricia King:
"MARRIAGES UNDER ATTACK!


They were deeply threatened by the potential of such unity – if one can put a thousand to flight, two can put ten thousand to flight.

Last summer, the Lord revealed that a demonic floodgate had been opened and many marriages would be assaulted and destroyed if we did not rise and fight. He said that many would easily give up on relationships. I was made aware by the Lord that the bar had now been lowered on covenant relationships, specifically marriage relationships.
We are in a massive battle for marriage and family, and we must win.

Large battles bring large victories when finally won, and we CAN win if we persist in love and faith.

They were committed to their marriage vows: for better or worse; for richer or poorer; in sickness and in health.

Breakthrough is on its way! All things are possible to those who believe. Let us believe for miracles of restoration!

This is your time to sow love, and you WILL reap...beyond your wildest dreams. This is your personal opportunity to go deep into understanding "love" as Jesus loved.
During this season, you will be perfected in love and in faith. Do not allow love or faith to weaken, but strengthen that which remains. Love perfectly now. Sow love bountifully now and you will reap bountifully, and you will be loved perfectly by MANY, not just a few, in the days to come.

A Locked Garden? Why?

Last night, I had an interesting visual imagination with interpretation...

I saw a gate of a garden, it was locked in the dark hour of early morning.

I knew if I open the locker and sneak into the garden, it would be considered as stealing.

Then, I had an understanding that the gate to the garden will be opened on the day of my marriage.

Another understanding came: It is not simply stealing privately in the dark hour of the morning, it also serves as a magnet or a trigger for Samual to join me in stealing.

Therefore, the Lord put on my heart and in my mind an understainding of waiting, for the sake of us both!!!

Why I feel the way I do and what about the dream?

Today I feel very drowsy...But it's all right, my God is my Lord and He is my strength!

I woke up from a very disturbing dream. On one hand, I want to totally ignore it, on the other hand, I want to knwo why I dreamed about it.

There was a lady that was tortured by denomic forces. She shared that she had visions (which were not heavenly visions). Then the peope were interested and dollowed her. As I went to see her, she ran away from me. I would pursue her with songs in Hebrew language. Then the last thing in the dream was I was singing in Hebrew language and dancing. Other adult women were in teh circle learning frome me. I remember my concious thoughts: how shall I dance to mae it more easier and understandable for them, as well as keep up with the battle!"

As I woke up, I could not identify who that lady was. She had long dark hair and that is about it.

I also think that there might be a connection to how I feel in the natural to what has been in the dream- the battle and soem evil/ demonic presence that does not stand near of worship and dance, our Hebrew inheritance.

Iana and Michael

This is a very personal letter to my sister. The reason I post it here, becuase I see significance in what it happening right now. The Lord is going to bring revival to Iana's family.

Дорогая Яночка, славная и любимая,приветствую тебя во Христе и передаю приветы от Джени, которая тебя очень крепко любит. Вчера я молилась за тебя и испытала сильную. жгучую боль, так что я даже позвонила Сэму, чтобы успокоиться. Я подумала о том, что каково же твоя боль (длительная), в сравнении с моим минутным испытанием. Сегодня, Господь подарил встречу с Джени. Через ее уста в любви и кротости, Бог дал надежду и веру о тебе и Мише.
Во-первых, она думает, что это из-за страха (когда у человека нет ничего, то ему особенно хочется найти статус и уважение другим путем). Оне его не обвиняла, но поняла.
Во-вторых, она подбадривает тебя дарить ему добрые слова восхиещния, даже если они не соответствуют реалности. А все по вере!!!! Она также показала важность того, что тебе нужно попытаться быть чуть более открытой- делиться прямолинейно! (Не высказывать обиды, но просто делиться чем- нибудь).
И В-третьих, Джени сказала, что мне нужно верить и молиться!!! Верить!!!!!!!! Главное верить!!!!
А сейчас я вспомнила о том откровении, которому меня научили во время летней практики с детьми бедными или не успешными. Главное- строить свое предлочение не в отрицательной форме, а в позитивной. Нас учили, что такие дети столко много раз слушали негативного, что самый лучший подход к ним это через воодушевление. Например, вместо того, чтобы сказать: "Нет, ты не правильно делаешь, можно сказать, "А ты пробовал делать это по-другому?" В каком то смысле слова, мы все дети- нуждаемся в постоянной ласке и в словаз ободрения, утешения и принятия.
Люби Мишу сильно, как Христос возлюбил тебя. Люби его еше сильнее, чем ты когда либо его любила!Да пребудет с товой мудрусть Божия!Люблю, Катя.
П.С. яночка, а еше одно предложение на твое усмотрение: ты всегда говорила со мной и обо мне с великим восхищением, побробуй сделать тоже самое для Майкла. Говори о нем, как если бы ты говорила обо мне. Однажды Дух Святой научил меня этому, кода мне было трудно принять одну женшину, а нам предстояла длительная поездка вместе. Дух Святой зказал: "люби ее так, как ты любишь свое маму." Меня это освободило; я подошкла к ней и сказала: "Ты- моя мама, Я тебя люблю. Она до сих пор есть моя Мама Та."Яна, ты все сможешь с Иисусом. Он даст тебе нужную силу и благодать. Победа в твоей семье обязательно грядет!!!Аминь.

My Day Continues...

As I continued in this wonderful day of rest, the Lord allowed me to see the programm on TV about TBN and "Smile of the Child" by Russian representatives in America. It was wonderufl! I tried to call TBN several times with a decision to thank and donate, but nobody picked up the phone. However, there is one thing that I truly noticed through that programm: the need for the interpreters!!!! As I listened to the Russian man translating from English to Russian and the other way around, I saw how miscommunicated things were! It was sad! But I also saw my limitations in that area, even though I was asked to translated for a Russian lady during this coming summer. So, Lord Jesus, I raise to You this concern that You will send and maek Your people able to translate each other words correctly from one language to another. I believe in Your power to display that grace upon the ministry.

Secondly, as I met with Jenny, Sam saw us on a way. It was very great to see him. We talked briefly about many things. Thank you, Lord for that.

Jenny, treated me with medicine for my face because it was severely dry. Then we talked about papa Oleg and she felt such love and appreciation for him. So we decided to write and send a package fro my family on Wednesday. She alse gavea beautiful blue dress for my sister.

I just left her place and came to study more on the book. So, Lord Jesus send Your blessings on Your people. Display Your salvation and grace upon Alison. Recieve all the praise!

Today it is a fast day. God has enabled me and Shawn for this activity by His grace. We both have been led to it because of either a bondage in some areas or limited power to overcome it.

Praise be to God!

By faith I decree that through this graceful fast, the Lord would create an atmosphere of self-control and respect between Samuel and myself.

Father, I bring to you our lives and bodies and ask You to make them a living sacrifice for You.

Secondly, I believe for the freedom and deliverance in Shawn's life today. I pray Lord Jesus that You show Yourself powerful by setting her free from addictions, illness or any other destructive ways. Recieve all the glory for it.

I am thankful for seeing my sister Iana through the internet website.

It's wonderufl to be able to contact with her.

Today also, I need to work on reading the book "Cry of the ubrban poor" and then write a book review about it.

Glory be to God!

February 9

Hello dear beloved readers and friends,

God is good all the time. Our Lord Jesus Christ is forever!!!

"How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God!" 1 John 3: 1

I am thankful for today is February 9, 2009. It is a Samuel's birthday. This day I gave the present to Sam, studied "intro to the Bible" with Jenny, received a graded paper back (95% of 100%)-Glory to God! and talked to different wonderufl people: from India, America, Singapour.

How great is our God. Thanks be for His mercy and great love. For the wisdom and the presence of the Holy Spirit.

My prayer, Lord, for the welbeing of my family. Please, por out your blessings upon them (I feel like I need to sow a financial seed for them). Encourage them in the walk of love in Christ Jesus. Strengthened their hearts and make them strong. In Jesus Name.

Let Your love heal their wounds and trials. May You pour out Your goodness and mercy.
Please with papa Oleg as he travels to St. Petersburg. Give him the time for good fellowship and refreshment.

I love you, Lord.

In Christ name I prayed.

P.S. Oh, one of the important news- Zen and Sarah are in the relationship. We are all happy for them. Praise to the Lord Almighty who led them this way. Halleluja.

Gospel and testimony

Friday... I woke at 4 30 am, dressed up an dcame to help Sam at work. We were done at 8 am. Then I spent from 1 till 3pm with Jenny, going to two of her classes: Bible an Ethics. After that it was like boredom, even though I tried to do homework (reading) and practice the song for Tuesday chapel. Then, I called Judy and hoped to be encouraged trough our prayer time.

But what interesting is that God joined many people. Donny with his friend Isaiah, Shawn, Judy and me had dinner which the Lord Jesus provided. Then Jamie, Phil, Jody came over and spent some time praying and worshipping Jesus with us.

Amazing thing happened again through Donny's confession. He said that he feels like he is going to hell and he does not want to be there. Well, we listened to his concerns, shared our testimonies with him and then the Lord did an amazing thing. We had a Bible study. We all read the scriptures and then the GOSPEL. It was so amazing and wonderful how simple and clear the Lord Jesus explained to them the gospel.

We read Ephisians 2:4-10 "But because of His great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions- it is by grace you have been saved. And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus, in order that in the coming ages of His grace, expressed in His kindness to us in Christ Jesus. For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith- and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God- not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do."

Another testimony happened this evening is Shawn. I remember meeting her before an dhow she struggled with the demons. This evening she was in her right mind. More than that, she read the Word with hunger, she spoke the scriptures and explained passages. She was so happy and encouraged the guys in the walk with Christ. It was so wonderful to see the transformation that God did in her life. Praise for the great work of Christ in her life.

The Word of God is very true and God is faithful. We encouraged Donny to read the Bible. Thanks be to God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! halleluja.

P.S. But when I came home< I analyzed, reflected onwhat has happened. It is still astoninshing to me- the work of Christ through the gospel. After that I danced before Jesus and went to the computer lab in my pijamas.

I love You, Lord Jesus.
Thank You, Father for allowing us to be alife through Your Son Jesus Christ. We are all One in You.

do not worry

The voice of the LORD spoke to me this evening through His beloved people: "Do not worry"

Praise God for the situation you are in. Devil wants you to worry, but you are to bring praises and thanks to God for it.

Lord, in the name of Jesus, I bring to you my heart with praise and thanksgiving for the fellowship and all that is going on. You are the Master. I could never make it here unless You made a way, and You did made a miracle by bringing me here to the United States in 2004. Then, Sam and I both trusted about each other to You and You brought us back togheter: glory be to You. Therefore, I refuse to worry about our relationship. It's gonna be all right with every day!

We trust You, our God.

Thank You so much for Your desire to free us from worries. I bless You tonight with praises and thankfulness.

Katya

Repetition and Reminder

Psalm 91:4 He will cover you with His feathers, and under His wings you will find refuge.

Psalm 40:11 May Your love and Your truth always protect me.

Revelation 1:18 I am the Living One; I was dead, and behold I am alive for ever and ever!

John 2:24 See that what you have heard from the beginning remains in you. If it does, you also will remain in the Son and in the Father.

1 Corinthians 15:57 But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.

Romans 6:13 Do not offer the parts of your body to sin, as instruments of wickedness, but rather offer yourselves to God, as those who have been brought from death to life; and offer the parts of your body to Him, as instruments of righteousness.

Ephesians 2:18 For through Him we both have access to the Father by one Spirit.

interests of Jesus

I am totally amazed about the richness of GOD's word and the enlightment that comes with it. Let me illustrate the scipture and the new depth of meaning to it.

For everyone looks out for his own interests, not those of Jesus Christ. But you know that Timothy has proved himself, because as a son with his father he has served with me in the work of the gospel. Philippians 2:21-22

So, as you see, Jesus Christ has interests of His hearts. When people are interested in how to become rich and successful in this world, Jesus' interests are about the spreading the Gospel to people.

Thank You, dear Lord and the Father, for letting us know Your heart and Your interests. I want to join and choose to be about the interest of my master- Jesus Christ, thus to bring the gospel to others.

The prayer

I just discovered with the help of the Holy Spirit in the Word the type of a prayer :

let me write the scripture first and then internalize it to my life in prayer.

And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge anmd depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes from Jesus Christ- to the glory and praise of God. Philippians 1:9-11

Papa, our Heavenly Father, in the Name of Your Beloved Son Jesus, I ask You to make me/us be able to discern what is best and be pure and blameless until Lord Jesus returns. I pray that You will work all of these by increasing Your love in us and through us and also by filling us up with the righteousness through Jesus and not from our own efforts. We praise You!!! Amen


As I read further in Phillipians there is an explanation of how to be pure and blameless:

Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure... Philippians 2:14

So, this is a guideline for us from God, an answer to our prayer: remain peaceful and even in times of difficulties and trials, do not complain. With all that you do: do it without complaying or arguing. How many times have you seen yourselves arguing with others? How many times did we complain today? Let us trust God to help us to be pure and blameless before Jesus Christ returns. God bless you all and me including.

Mission and the Urban Church

Good evening, dear people.

Today is my first day of classes. It has been wonderful!!!

The first class was "Mission and the Urban Church" by Dr. MaryAnn Hawkins.

Seek the peace and prosperity of the city to which I have carried you into exile. Pray to the Lord for it, because if it prospers, you too will prosper. Jeremiah 29:7

Our focus will be on thinking about the city as a place for ministry. And how can we connect the urban, suburban and rural areas, so there will be equalization. Urbanization process is tightly connected to industrialization, health improvements and some other factors. The good thing that we want to see happening is the partenrship between the suburban and urban churches.

"Moving Mountains: Lessons in Bold Faith from Great Evangelical Leaders" by Paul L. King.

I would like to quote from his book about George Muller:
"George Muller never prayed for a thing just because he wanted it, or even just because he felt it was greatly needed for God's work. When it was laid upon George Muller's heart to pray for anything, he would search the Scriptures to find if there was some promise that covered the case. Sometimes... for days before he presented his petition to God. And when he found the promise, with his open Bible before him and his finger upon that promise, he would plead that promise and so he received what he asked." (p. 28).

Yesterday evening we had a powerful Helaing/Glory meeting.

There were many people and few guests. Xen also came and we did a song "take me in".



What was significant about that meeting is that there was a special anointing over Xen when they prayed for him. We all felt God's glory. They also prayed for me and I fell backward and laid a little bit there.

Xen and I had a good conversation after the meeting and if the Lord wills we will go to the IHOP today.




But I still feel anxious about Sam, my dear
one. The word that I hear realted to us is "Surrender".



God bless you and make His face shines upon you.

"May your love and your truth always protect me" Psalm 40:11

"I am the Living One. I was dead, and behold, I am alive for ever and ever!" Revelation 1:18.

Last night I stayed at Shawn's apartment. We clened the house, prayed, read the Word.
It was so smoky in the apartment, so that I looked for many ways to erase that smell.
She went already to bed, but I remained awake, reading the Word. Sometimes after 2 am, I fell asleep. And I had a dream after 5am and before 9am. It was an interesting dream, that I would like to mention.

My sister and I were standing outside waiting for the van to come with workers. Then Track comes: it was white in the front and it was very big that I did not see the end of it. Then we were inside like a garage or ground floor somewhere. It was dark. My sister and I saw people started walking passing us. We were standing and watching them marsh in the rows from the right to the left. At first there were men, after them I heard unison sayings/song in Spanish. I saw that they were immigrants or other nationalities. There were women now and young children (girls mosty). They all looked sad, depressed, dark, suffered, etc. There were Indians and the raw continued, but suddenly there was a lady. She looked familiar to me. She was completely different from those people: fat and well dress in bright colors, and she had turqouise/blue eyes. She looked at me, stopping the procession and said: "You are into prophetic" (I nodded). "Many prophesied in your eyes" (I nodded), "You are a traveller" (I nodded) and then she said something that it is even hard to express in words, something divine. She said that God's something special will be in my body ( in me). ANd we both looked at my sister. Then she touched my hand and said: " There was Nick. "Bye" That's it." Then I woke up.

By the way, Shawn and I are fasting. Mostly it is for her sake: deliverance from demons and good health. Amen.

Overall review

This is the time I want to remind myslef about certain subjects:

God has loved us and His love covers all sins. The cross where Jesus died was the illustration of God's love for us, His people. The reason He loved us at the first place was His faithfulness_ the promise of the covenant with His people.

After we realize about His love for us and the faithfulness of His love, then we can embrace the life that is in Christ Jesus. Jesus has come that we may have the abundant life. The life in Christ involves using the gifts and talents God has given to us.
Before the coming of Jesus Christ, we were all bound to death, because of sin. But Jesus took away the sin and the death by the ressurection from the dead, thus giving life to everyone who belives.

Therefore, we move to the Faith subject. No promise or life is available apart from the faith. The Word says, "the rightous shall live by faith." The way we have the life of Jesus Christ is by faith. Faith works through love, confession and has the victory.

The summary of it all:
"The life I live in the body. I live by faith in te Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." Galatians 2:20

Hello readers,

For the last 5 days I have been awakening at 5 am in the morning. I wonder why and what is the reason for such an hour to be awake. Instantenously, I start praying but somehow I am going back to sleep.

Lord, in the name of Jesus,
I want to ask you reveal to me the purpose of wakening up and how can I use this time better for prayer and talk with You, my God.

Thank you so much,

Lord, pour over the passion for prayer again. New fresh wave of prayer!!!!!

Love You,

Katya

P.S. Another interesting moment is the reading of the Psalm 45. It is a wedding song about King Jesus and His bride. Lord, teach me Your word.

by Holy Spirit

It is worth saying the most precious words in life: "I love you, O Lord, my strength!"
I think people need to say this to You more often (including myself) that You will be always praised on our lips and in our hearts.
Thank You so much, my Jesus that You ordained for me a blessed life through You. Thank You that You came and rescued me from my sins and troubles. I bless You!


You are the One!

To give you pirase and honor in the thing You have established: Samuel and Katya are still together. We are are happy to be one through Christ our Lord who filled our hearts with hope, faith and love.

But I also wanted to write a testimony. I woke up this morning and the very first thing I did was going on my knees and saying a very brief prayer: "Lord, filled me with the Holy Spirit. Not by might, not by power, but by My Spirit." Then I went to the library to work, and it is still amazes me the strength and sweet presence of His Spirit around me. I am drawn to love Jesus more!!! Praise be to God the Father.

It does not matter if you say long or short prayers but what matters is our dependency on his Spirit throughout the day. May God richly bless you my friends. May the Spirit of Christ reigns in Samuel's heart as he successfully practices his opera in Michigan.

I love you all

Reasons

It is Sunday in America. My mother had stayed for the night and we both went to the church. I came burdened and empty in my soul. There was no desire to greet people or even rejoice. This emotional condition stayed with me until the evenening. During the day, my mum and I ate a lot of different delicous food, but it did not relive us both from feeling alone and sad.

When she left home, to her apartment, I prayed and waited on the Lord. After reading few scriptures, the understanding came to me about the sutuation.

Let me tell you. Last night I was awakened by the dream. I saw Sam and there was another girl who did not notice him, but he followed after her. I, on the other hand, noticing Sam, pursueded some Christian activity. It was a group of young people who did something for the Lord. I remember thinking that I do my choice in pursuing Jesus and His activites, but it felt pain concerning Sam. Whe I awoke around 5 am, there was already feeling of discourgament and grief.

I remember going to church speaking ooutloud: It's been so long since we separated and you still concern about him. I counted months: It was about September, and not it is December: more than 3 months.

I analyzed and pondered about the other day: candles and carols night. I saw him at Reardon singing and feeling glad for him. However, it is when I saw him leaving the auditorium with anoth young lady. He gave us double hugs for both my mum and me and left. I wanted him to leave and just ignore the situation. So I waited to think about it and cast it aside and it came over me this Sunday.

Lord,
Thank You so much that even this situation are all redeamable. I thank you tha tby Your great mercy and plan You did not let me be int eh relationahip with Nick cause I will never be where I am other wise. Thank you that You, Jesus Are the One and Best. Give us courage to face the truth and despise the lost and Run after You.
You knwo that it is painful to me because at times I get hopeful and then experience a wave of hopeless days, etc. But You are my Victory and Together we will find stregnth. You are for me.
SO I pray that You would richly bless Samuel with Your presence and guidance. Forgive me for any offenses and griefs related to him. Let him live the way You ordanied for him and make him successful in all he does. I bless the relationships he chooses to engage in. May he be happy and restored to the fullness in Jesus Name.
God bless you.

Father, Thank you for Your Son Jesus. For Your precious free gift to believe and live in Christ.

In love, Katya

List

Chuck Pierce in the prophetic word spoke this phrase: "make a list of things you want to know and I will not limit My revelation to you this hour."

1. Love of God
2. Faith
3. The Gospel
4. The Family
5. the Dance
6. Commune with Jesus face to face
7. Death and Life in Christ
8. Words
9. God's knowledge about us before our birth and His plans for the future.

My goal is to learn from Jesus, because He is my Best teacher. I also rely on te work of th Holy Spirit in me. May the ocean of love and the faith of God be near me day after day.

I want to be focused on one thing, or in other words, on important purposes in Christ. I see the main goal right now is to commune with Jesus face to face and learn the Word from Him. Then I want to be sent to preach the Gospel to people. My next desire is that passion for romance, sexual desires and longings for a relationship will go to sleep and rest but only the LOVE for Jesus be ACTIVATED daily.

I could already sayt that the work of Christ in me had started. He vistited me and taught about the love. Continue...

Lord, dear Jesus Christ,

the Life in the Spirit is very important. We need to be aware the way we talk and live by faith in the Son of God. Most important is to commune with You face to face.

I want to repent for the words speaking about myself in unbelief. Here I would like to speak the words of building up toward myself through You and Your Word.

Thank you so much that You gave me life through Jesus. I am a new creature who lives a life not in the flesh but by faith.
Thank You for displaying Your strength and power in the areas of the weakness or limits. However, May You perform miracles through the dances and songs that I do. May You display anointing that sets captive free, Touch people through this vessel.

Thank You very much for the LOVE, God!!!! Thank YOU For the LOVE and Your FAITHFULNESS!

On Saturday nights right after the prayer meeting, I had a dream. There was a beautiful long dress (bage or sand color) on me. At first it covered by very unatractice coat (dark blue) as to cover the dress. But as I came into the classroom and found a place to seat, the professor asked me to tell my story, so I stood up and the first thing I did was to uncover my dark coat. I said, "You probably surprised that I am wearing this dress, but let me take this coat off." People were laughing. So I was in the dess, feeling very beautiful and gorgeous. The very next day, on Sunday I wore something new and beutiful and tried to experience the same feeling of worth that I had in my dream. It was awesome!!!!

Today the Holy Spirit reminded me to go back to the prophecy given by Chuck Pierce on www.elijahlist.com . And there the Lord let me understand that He has given a mantle to wear of freedom and glory for the next 14 months. Our goal is to stay and abide in His presence and worship!!!!!!!! This is exactly what has been going on.

I bless the Lord, my Father in HEvaen, His SOn Jesus Christ and beloved Holy SPirit.

Katya

Blessed be the Name of Jesus,

This posting is about searching and struggling. I feel warning in my spirit and yearning not to forsake the presence of God. Despte the fact of intense and enjoyable time spent with Samuel (Gabriel) for the last two or three days, my soul is deeply yearning not to be escaped from the love and the presence of God. I hunger to go to the prayer meeting with Judy. I see the needs of things to pray for, such as Zimbabwe, Sam's needs, etc.

The interesting fact that I already received three letters from N., and of course, I did not reply to any of them. Sharing this with my mom, she noticed the pattern that whenever I and Sam are doing well N. appears on the page.

So, my prayer is to be in tune with the Holy Spirit and remian ALERT in this time. Lord, may you awake my soul from slumber and help me to stand in prayer with brothers and sisters in Your Holy Presence. You are still entroned in Heven and praised by Your people.
May Your name be glorified.

I ask Your Protection over Your people across the nations.
May the fire of God come down to purge us from sins and faults
May Your love covers us like the wings.
May You seal us in the covenant of the Blood of Jesus Christ.

In Jesus Name, Amen

Crossroad

I had a dream today and right after the dream I was awake. The only part I remember is seeing the library and suddenly Sam looked at me: his face was so beautiful adn shone like an angel. And I heard the word "crossroad". I know this dream is from the Lord, because it was so bivid and thelook of Sam's eyes were like of angel piercing. And I have to say that all that was like in a moment, instant.

I went online and searched for meaning.
1. intersection: a place where two or more roads meet or cross each other, especially in a rural or quiet area
2. rural community: a small town or community located at a crossroads ( takes a singular verb )
3. meeting place: a central meeting place that has a lot of activity ( takes a singular verb )
4. decisive moment: a time when an important decision must be made

In my heart, even in the dream I knew it was about the decision or choice that Sam is facing concerning me. He had three dreams of similar account a month ago. Three days in a dream God would bring me to him and let Sam decide whether he wanted or not to be with me. But everytime Sam would wake up without making a decision in his dream.

By the way, we have met yesterday. It went very well and there are some sweet things he said and I felt satisfied. But I know that he is in the season of a crossroad: last year at college, planning his stay for a month in Italy and other things.

Is there a word for him, Lord? Is there a way you want him to be encouraged during this time?

May You be near him and guide him to the choices that will glorify Your name.

Water why?

This maybe a long posting but it is very fresh and important.

First of all, I will try to recall the dreams that I had recently that were tighly connected to the water. Several days I pondered about the meaning of seeing and beeing in a water.

For example, today I was in a pool and made deep jumps into the water and out. It was wonderful and colorful dream. The jumps were more sure, quick and confident.

My first dream was several days ago. I was behind the window and observed the see and the sheap that was in the process of building. I asked what it was and there were several workers standing with their feet on the water. I was surprised in my dream. In the same dream right outside of the place I observed the sea and the sheap, I saw a car, I opened the door and the water came inside of the right seat.

The very next dream on the following night was involved with water too. This time it was a river. A friend of mine walked with her ankles in the water and on a thin line. I also was surprised.


Today I hvae received a revelation that the Lord is moving me into a new and unfamiliar place. That is why I was surprised in all my dreams. In addition to that, I have encountered several temptations and attacks from satan, but the Holy Spirit taught me this word: "you need perseverance... do not shrink away...".

I am in awe of the Lord!!!!!

"my soul thirst for You.
My body longs for You"

You need Perseverance

Hellod dear readers of my blog,

I greet you today in the name of the Lord.

Last night I had an experience that led me to evaluate some things. I did not resist the temptations and after that I prayed about the reason for that. The holy Spirit pointed out the scriptured in Hebrews that illuminate the problem. I NEED PERSEVERANCE IN TIMES OF PRESSURE.

35So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. 36You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. 37For in just a very little while, "He who is coming will come and will not delay. 38But my righteous one[f] will live by faith. And if he shrinks back, I will not be pleased with him."[g] 39But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who believe and are saved. (Hebrews 10: 35-39)

Temptations are overcome even during the pressure when we master perseverance.

Then I sensed the Holy Spirit's direction: Take your time and effort deliberately finish your own and someone else's job. For example, wash the dishes.
I was still writing this phrase and stood up and went to the kitchen and washed all the dirty dishes in the sink. I wrote a letter to a friend with whom I am required of patience and perseverance.

Today during the work, I deliberately studied the material on perseverance and practicaly acted it out. I send emails to people who waited my responses or certain actions. I thought of continuing woorking on dancing and singing with the "Dust", abotu my long term papers and others.

And Thank You Blooger for allowing me to use this cite to continuosly write the path I am walking and the lessons I am learning.

God bless you!

enjoying my present time

I really enjoy this day and this hour. The present moment is around me like a blanket, it covers me from anxiety and haste. I love bein gat this moment and doing the things I need with love and extra time.

Today, I have spent almost an hour seraching and looking through different books on dance. The printed copies of the exercises and certain moves added to my bag. The worship leader from Parl Place emailed me to notify about the preparation for the dance cantata "Breath of Heaven".

Then Papa Oleg called several times, Iana gave a call too. It is a very lovely day, where I enjoy the present moment.

T H A N K Y O U L O R D !

People have things to say

HELLO dear friends,

I would like to share with you abou ttwo meaningful conversations that I had recently.

To keep their names private, I will identify them as:

October 28, AN ELDERLY FEMALE SEMINARY STUDENT who said: "Do your best to honor God".
October 29, AN ELEDERLY MALE SEMINARY STUDENT who said: "Build precious memories with your mom. Enjoy every single day with her."

I think it is important to stop and to listen to what people say to you. I have been told and instructed to honor God and to build precious memories with my mom.


P.S. Would it be a great idea to have a blog of the things people say to you that are meaningful and special?

eat and are satisfied

For the last few days, the Lord gave me so much food to eat. At some point I was even noticing how much food I eat. So I prayed honestly to God, hoping that food will not become something more important than God. THe same thing with the things I have in my room. There are so much stuff. WHat shall I do? I am thinking where and what to give away.

As I prayed, the Lord reminded me the scripture that it is not because of righteousness or what we have done that the Lord is good to us. But as I read this scripture from Deuteronomy, I found an answer to my wondering concerns.

Deuteronomy 8: 10
When you have eaten and are satisfied, praise the Lord your God for the good land He has given you.
Be careful that you do not forget the Lord your God...
Otherwise, when you eat and are satisfied, when you build fine houses and settle down, and when your herds and flocks grow large and your silver and gold increase and all you have is multiplied, then you heart will become proud an dyou will forget the Lord your God, who brought you out of the land of slavery.


Thank You Dear Lord,
I love you and THank You for Answering to my heart issues and concerns tonight.
You are great among all others. No one can take Your place, Holy One.

Who am I?

Today, I had issued some things in my mind and shared them with Rhyse.
The issue is whether I am a missionary or a preacher.

When we talk about missionary, I feel down and disinterested,
whereas when we talk about preaching, I feel passion and ignited.

Lord, what's the problem and dilema?

I hope to hear from You either confirmation or correction.

Katya

healing and the Redeemer

Today, I am meditating about two topics: healing and the Redeemer.

There is one article that I need to read "Navajo Medicine" and I want to compare the practice of healing in two cultures: Indian and Christian. In addition, yesterday my papa Oleg called and shared that he was very sick. That day the scripture that I read was James 5: 14-15.
As I was reading the materials, I saw that Christ always takes our sins, burdens to Himself; this is an act of redemption. We were brought with the price, the death of Christ on the cross was a redemption.

This is a wonderful Monday. Early in the morning I started doing my homework. The Lord provided the questions that I supposed to answer from the book. He Alone Knows my needs and provides everything. I praise Him!

It is a beautiful day: warm and breezy. Last night the Lord blessed with a great rehearsal of Arabic songs. Even though my whole day was of sadness and trial, the evening was so annointed!!! I praise Him! Rhyse and I stayed until midnight at Armanso, Zen and Rory's place and our band "Dust" had a great time in worship and practice.

I saw how God knows my needs and cares for them. It is obvious!

Oh, today I felt and anticipated to see Sam. Indeed, he came to the lab and sat next to me writing his paper. The thing is he looked completely strange to me, not like I knew him before. He did not speak with me much, even though I tried to engage a little in conversation. After I wrote my paper, I just left. It became clear that I am no longer of interest to him. It is ok. One day Job said something like this: "naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked I will depart. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised." (Job 1:21).

Dear Heavenly Father, I pray that my heart and all my life will be of worship to You alone.
P.S. The great two songs I discovered by God Chasers: "Will you worship" and "Hungry".

love and peace

My goal is to live every day with LOVE and PEACE. I think that other roles such as being a student, a mother (one day), a minister or any others are only additional species of who we are. But the life in the Spirit of God is of peace and love.

Romans 8: 6 "the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace"

The peace and love can be instruments of God's grace to touch other lives.

Galatians 5:22 "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindnes, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control." "let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other".

Phillipians 4:11-12 "I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry...

Rhyse said that love is equal to the fruit of the Spirit. Compare 1 Corinthians 13 and Galatians 5.

cooking food

It was such an ordinary morning. I did not feel inspired to pray or worship the Lord. So, I took a shower, read some chapters in Exodus and Numbers. Then I opened the Cook Book and came up with ideas of what I need to buy. I chose three dishes: fried rice, Greek salat and grilled cheese sandwich. Then I took my bike and rode to the Pay Less. I spent 42 dollars. In Pay Less I met Keth who is a Missionary.

It was a litlle bit tough to go home but the Lord helped me a lot. I came home with two heavy plastic bags and my purse-bag. Immediately I started cooking fried rice. It turned out so delicios that I thought Whome can I invite for lunch or dinner.

The point of this post is to show you that God cares of our needs. Yesterday I prayed that the Lord would provide food to eat, cause I did not have it here at the new apartment. ANd He did!

Praise the LORD

The dream

Hello friends,
I received a phone call from Phil, my papa in America who told me that he had adream about me.

It started out that Sam and I were in the balcony, then Phil came in and I bursted into crying, so Phil hugged me and comforted.
Then he saw me living with different people.
Then I was in a box and looked too skiny. I asked him to take my coat from me.
And finally, Phil met Sam in cafeteria in his dream. Phil asked Sam, "Where is Katya?" Sam answered, "She is not here."

This dream conforms the reality of what I am going through. I have started to pack my belonging to move into a new house to live with a new person.
Secondly, Sam and I are not together anymore, thus the words "She is not here" implies to me that I am no longer in his life or in his heart. Thirdly, balcony to me means as if it is something that is oradined by God in the spirit. We have not goned there but were put in that place.
I guess according to the dream, I experience pain more that Sam does. No matter what and how the degree of my feelings of pain, I know that God is good and it is all for His glory. I am where I need to be, period!



Corrections:

"But the hope does not disappoint us, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit." Lord, we were apart for a season, but by Your great love and mercy You led us to be together. Thank You So Much!!!! You Are So Good!!! Lord, may there be a separation from the sin, rather than from the wonderful relationship given by Your outstanding grace. Thank you again, my Lord Jesus.

A new house and scholarship

Dear friends, I have good news.

The Lord provided the scholardship that reduces the price for tuition in 55%, THUS MAKING IT $3000 per semester. In addition, there is one openning in a Seminary House ($215 per month), thus this is an answer to the prayer if I could live somewhere but not in the house I am right now. Praise the Lord!

This morning I read from 2 Kings 8: 1-6 which pictures so well the situation I am in. The Lord speaks and conforms the plan and direction for me to go.

Now Elisha had said to the woman whose son he had restored to life, "Go away with your family and stay for a while wherever you can, because the Lord has decreed a famine in the land that wil alst seven years." The woman proceeded to do as the man of God said. She and her famile went away and stayed in the land of the Philistines seven years.
At the end of the seven years she came back from the land of the Philistines and went to the king to beg for her house and land. The king was talking to Gehazi, the servant of the man of God, and had said, "Tell me about all the great things Elisha has done." Just as Gehazi was telling the king how Elisha had restored teh dead to life, the woman whose son Elisha had brought ack to life came to beg the king for her house and land.
Gehazi said, "This is the woman, my lord the king, and this is her son whol Elisha restored to life." The king asked the woman about it, and she told him.
Then he assigned an official to her case and said to him, "Give back everything that belonged to her, including all the income from her land from the day she left the country until now."

A New Transition in Life

Hello dear friends and visitors!

I want to share with you an amazing journey that I have been walking.
On September 5, 2008 after an intimate and lon gprayer with My Maker,
I was riding the bycicle to campus and on my way this thought came to my heart:
SEMINARY. Let me also say that prior to that my summer has been great yet with a
determination to recieve an OPT (Optional Practicum Tranining ) to work coming year in teh area of my studies. However, that particular day, Friday, I had a life changing transition.

In addition, this summer I had expirienced a great friendship with Samuel Green. We had been a cute couple aslo until recently. Few days ago, we agreed that our goals and future destination differ from each other and therfore we have two different roads to walk. He is pursuing a perforamnce degree in opera and I am studying in the seminary to be a minister.

Corrections: Lord, You Are Above our thoughts and ways. I repent for judging so quickly Your divine plan. Now, as we are back together with Sam, forgive me for the words spoken in unbelief. Father, we are both want to be used by You the Way You destined us to do. Create and Shape by Your design. I hope that You will open a vision and a door for us both to be in a united vision and goal. May we be a team that edifies and fulfills Your desires across the nations. I Love You Father.

Because of this change in our relationship, I had been praying and seeking God's will about possibly moving out to a seminary housing. It appeared to me that it will be beneficial in many areas: from close proximity to school, to being a way from a constant seeing Sam at the house. Well, several people appraoched me with a question whether I will stay at the house. But today I made a decision based on the clear understanding of the will of God. So, I just say " Thank You Father". I will move to the housing that You prepared a place for me. There is only one opening in a female two room apartment.

So these three transitions in my life right now, cause me to ponder and concern a lot, yet the Lord speaks to me this scripture: "He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty." He also put a song in my heart and spirit that day when Sam and I agreed on stopping our dating. These are the words to the song:

Come and worship only
To the One you love (x 2)

He who dwells in the shadow of Most High,
will find refuge in the wings of God (x 2)

Joy and gladness shout inside,
You annoint with oil my darkest night (x2)

Augustine

Breathe in me, Holy Spirit,
that my thoughts may be holy.
Act in me, Holy Spirit,
that my work , too, may be holy.
Draw my heart, Holy Spirit,
That I may love only what is holy.
Strengthen me, Holy Spirit,
To defend all what is holy.
Guard me, Holy Spirit,
that I may always be holy.

Phillips Brooks

Do not pray for easy lives. Pray to be stroner men.

Do not pray for tasks equal to your powers.

Pray for powers equal to your tasks.

deep hunger

What I feel inside my being is a deep hunger for the Living Christ. I long for Him in hours and minutes of a day. I pray and I sign...

Have you ever being in a place of spiritual drought? I believe that even in the religion a person can become a spritual prisoner. Yet Christ is faithful and He is the only one I need.

Dear Lord,

I am so bad today. It is like a a torture in my soul to become annoyed, angry, upset and discouraged. My mum is sufering because of that. I feel powerless and exhausted.

What shall I do?

I know I need to repent and change, but I can't.

Have I become too much selfish?

RULE in me by the HOLY SPIRIT.

In Father,

Katya

Invited to the Feast

I had a dream where I said to somebody:"Today is a feast!". Well, I thought I had only 4 dollars left to get food, but decided to stop by ATM machine and check the money, and as I said before, there were $163 dollars. I thanked the Lord!

Then today was the day of great dinner with Phil and Tara. They invited Ziyod and Lani, JM and me. I told them that would come, but today I felt so uncomfotable to go there, that I was looking for reasons not to go. WEll, Rhyse called and asked to postpone our dance practice fom 4 pm till 5:15pm, I agreed. Anyway, after having a productive time, We finished at 7 pm. Then we went to Panera were I treated her with a dinner as a feast.

Here is the story in the Bible that I just read:

"The kingdom of heaven is like a king who gave a wedding banquet for his son, and sent his servants to summon those who had been invited to the wedding banquet, but they refused to come.Again he sent other servants, saying, 'Tell those who are invited, Behold, I have prepared my banquet... everything is prepared; come to the wedding feast. But they were not concerned and paid no attention- they ignored and made light of the summons, treating it with contempt- and they went away, one to his farm, another to his business, while the others seized his servants, treated them shamefully and put them to death.

Then he said to his servants, th ewedding feast is prepared, but those invited were not worthy. So go to the thoroughfares where they leave the city- where the main roads and those from the country end- and invite to the wedding feast as many as you find. And those servants went out on the crossroads and got together as many as they found, both bad and good, the room which the wedding feast was helf was filled with guests. But when the king came in to view the guests, he looked intently at a man there who had on no wedding garment; adn he said, Friend, how did you come in here without putting on the appropriate wedding garment? And he was speechless )muzzled, gagged).

For many are called (invited and sumoned), but few chosen." Matthew 22:2-14

give to the poor

"Go and sell what you have and give to the poor, and you will have the riches in heaven..." Matthew 19:21

Today, to my surprise I had $163.02 in my debit card. Praise the Lord! This is the last check from work on campus. I took off $20, 00 to get food and money for the laundry. Then I spent $50,00 for the Food of the poor (sorry, it should be in secret). And I have still $ 93.02 left. I know that it is aweful to live hungry and without money. There are some blessigns from that, but unless you receive some help, it's difficult.

Lord, I pray that you will change my mind and attitude toward poor, so that I will not remain wealthy on the earth but rich in heaven. Help me to be reminded to give to the poor everytime there is something to give. Oh Lord, help them soon!!!

Amen.
Another example that my friend just shared with me. At the grocery store, there was a man who at the counter did not have enough money to pay for the food and he asked the lady to take off some items. But the man behind him said, I will pay fo ryou whatever you have left.

Thank You Dear Lord!!!

Little children, you are of God- you belong to Him, ...

He Who is in you is greater (mightier) than he who is in the world.

1 John 4:4

I continue to pray and meditate about His presence inside me. I want to be a body, spirit and soul that contains the Holy Spirit, just as it is written in the New Testament.

you are living the life of the Spirit, if the Holy Spirit of God really dwells within you- directs and controls you. But if any one does not possess the Holy Sprit of Christ, he is none of His- he does not belong to Christ, is not truly a child of God. but if Christ lives in you, then although your natural body is dead by reason of sin and guilt, the spirit is alive because of the righteousness that He imputes to you. And if the Spirit of him Who raised up Jesus from the dead dwells in you, then He Who raised up Christ Jesus from te dead will also restore to life your mortal (short-lived, perishable) bodies through His Spirit Who dwells in you.

Romans 8:9-11

Poverty- source

I have wondered about an issue of poverty. Many times I heard and believed too that poverty is a demonic thing. So instead of having a compassion on people, we treat them as those possessed by devil. But when we ourselves become poor or step into their shoes, we discover how needy and unworthy we are, how desperate we are for God and mercy. When you are poor, you become to see the graces of God that in other times you take for granted. When you are poor, you feel low and humble, sometimes there is self-pity, but there is also a remorse. How can we say that poverty comes from devil? Why would God be so concerned for the poor and widowed, orphans and foreigners?

I want to look at the Word and search whether poverty is a demonic activity or whether it is not.
Help me the Holy Spirit to find the truth, so that my heart will not be wrong before God.

Amen.

Therefore the kigdom of heaven is like a human king who wished to settle accounts with his attendants. When he began the accounting, one was brought to him who owed him ten thousand talents (probably about $10,000,000), and becuase he could not pay, his master ordered him to be sold, with his wife and his children and everything that he possessed, and payment to be made. So the attendant fell on his knees, begging him, hHave patience with me and I will pay you everything. And his master;s heart was moved with compassion, and he released him and forgave him (cancelling) the debt. But that same attendant, as he went out, found one of his fellow attendants who owed him a hundred denarii (about twenty dollars); and he caught him by the throat and said, Pay what you owe! So his fellow attendant fell down and begged him earnestly, Give me time, and I will pay you all! But he was unwilling and went out and had him put in prison till he should pay the debt. When his fellow attendants saw what had happened, they were greatly distressed, and they went and told everything that had taken place to their master. Then his master called him and said to him, You contemptible and wicked attendant! I forgave you and cancelled al that great debt of yours because you begged me; and should you not have had pity and mercy on your fellow attendant, as I had pity and mercy on you? And in wrath his master turned him over to the torturers (the jailers), till he should pay all that he owed. So also My heavenly Father will deal with every one of you, if you do not freely forgive your brother from your heart his offenses. Matthew 18:23-35

There are at least two dimensions in this parable (that I am aware of )

1. Why do people not want to pay back the debt? Most likely they do not have money at that moment, but also I think that it is our selfishness. WE think of ourselves and our needs as more important than others. For example, in this story, the first attendant pleaded to give him mercy, like saying I know I need mercy, give me that. THe second one, probably was more sincere , he could not pay the debt at that moment but was willing to pay later. I noticed even in my heart this tendency. AS I received freely 100 dollars, I knew I had to pay back to Jenny, but immediately our thoughts came: Well, I would like to spend this money on my needs. Maybe I should pay her back of that sum of money. This is completely wrong! Jesus gives supernaturally to cover our debts (not only financial ut spiritual), yet we continue to serve our own needs and desires.
2. The point of this story is to be willing to forgive freely and not hold offenses against those who made us wrong. I feel that I am also in this category. It is so hard in my heart to let go and freely love with compassion my sister Tori. But no matter what I feel, God's word says to "freely forgive your sister from your heart her offenses".

tax for Me and for you

"In order not to give offense and cause them to stumle- that is, to judge unfavorably and unjustly- go down to the sea and throw in a hook; take the first fish that comes up, and when you open its mouth you will find there a shekel. Take it and give it to them to pay the temple tax for Me and for yourself." Matthew 17:27

We do have taxes and debts here on earth. I like how Jesus showed that He will provide money, but make sure that you give them to pay for tax and debt. It is an answer to my prayer what to do with $100 dollars I received today. I have a debt to pay to my friend Jenny Jung, because I borrowed $100 to cover my negative balance on the debit card. I was so thankful to her and now it is to pay it back with God's divine provision.

Lord, blessed are Your ways, Your Divine Ways!

p.s. Look at the words "take it and give it to them to pay the temple tax for Me and for yourself."

Jesus lives in me, so He is concern with everything I am in. He is a major part of me, I am the least of me...

my dear Erin, thank you

I just came to my room, there was an envolopw on the floor for me. I picked it up and went to the restroom with it. The card's envelope said "psalm 23". By the way, for this semseter I received two cards with Psalm 23 from Karen and this was from Erin Davis (from fast meeting yesterday). I still cry and feel unworthy to accept what was inside.

There was 100 dollars.
I can't explain it. I just know that it's so humbling and compassionate. Thank You Lord!
Thank You Lord! Thank You for dear Erin. I will not forget hear, my dear Erin. Thank you.

The presidency of the U.S.

George Washington was not the first President of the United States. He was the first President of the United States under the Constitution we follow today. And the first seven Presidents are forgotten in history.

In 1781, John Hanson was elected as the first president in the U.S. Six other presidents were elected after him - Elias Boudinot (1783), Thomas Mifflin (1784), Richard Henry Lee (1785), Nathan Gorman (1786), Arthur St. Clair (1787), and Cyrus Griffin (1788) - all prior to Washington taking office
George Washington (1789-1797)
John Adam (1797-1801)
Thomas Jefferson (1801-1809)
James Madison (1809-1817)
James Monroe (1817-1825)
John Q. Adams (1825-1829)
Andrew Jackson (1829-1837)
Martin Van Buren (1837-1841)
William Henry Harrison (1841)
John Tyler (1841-1845)
James K. Polk (1845-1849)
Zachary Taylor (1849-1850)
Millard Fillmore (1850-1853)
Franklin Pierce (1853-1857)
James Buchanan (1857-1861)
Abraham Lincoln (1861-1865)
Andrew Johnson (1865-1869)
Ulysses Grant (1869-1877)
Rutherford Hayes (1877-1881)
James Garfield (1881)
Chester Arthur (1881- 1885)
Grover Cleveland (1885-1889)
Benjamin Harrison (1889-1893)
Grover Cleveland (1893-1897)
William McKinley (1897-1901)

"The chief purposes of a fst are to clear our heads and hearts, to practice the discipline of detachment from what we suppose to be our needs, and to focus on hearing God rather than lobbying of our own compromised sinfulness..." (p, 83).

Relating to the war in Iraq, I think that many Christians (including myself) consider that what 's going on there is what supposed to be happening. However, I do consider that violence and war is not God's way but it also could be his wrath on the nation... AS you see, I am not very familiar on this topic just as it seemed to me that's what it supposed to be. However, in this world there are so much bad going on, that we do need to take "spiritual " weapons to fight the enemy.

The spiritual weapons are fsting, prayer, worship, th Word of God, evangelism, healing, deliverance, discipleship and missionary. So may our hearts turn to God with these weapons, so that God could bestow grace upon the nations instead of wrath.

Amen

"And let us call the church to fasting and prayer in repentance for the destrauction our nation has influenced upon the people of Iraq" (qt. in Jim Wallis, p. 79).

"This military action has killed at least 10,000 Iraqis, about 900 American soldiers have died in Iraq." (p. 80)

"At no time has he or any other national leader, of either political part, called the notaion to apologize or repent for these volent abd highnanded acts." (p.81).

"As Christians, what shall we say to these things? We are called to serve a Lord whotaught his followers to turn the other cheek when attacked and to love their enemies. We should aslo recall the passionate exhortation of St. Paul, "Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave room for the wrath of God... Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good." (p.81).

The newspaper "The Chronicle" for April 2008:

Has an article "'Adopt a Terrorist for Prayer' movement begins"

-The new web-based ministry, Adopt a Terrorist for Prayer (ATFP), helps Christians follow Jesus' instructions to love and pray for their enemies.

-The founder of ATFP is Dr. Thomas Bruce

-"It's all about connecting these prayer warriors to each other to see how others are praying, to encourage each other, to spread the word, and fight this Ward on Terrorism in a powerful and spiritual way."

- go to their website : http://www.myatfp.com/

SOME WAYS TO PRAY FOR TERRORIST:

• For heart changes


• For dreams and visions


• For irresistable pursuit by God's Spirit


• For inescapable proclamation of God's word


• For demonstration of God's grace


• For conviction of sins


• For freedom to respond


• Against spiritual blindness and bondage

Today most of the wolrd's people are poor-1.2 billion earn less than $1;

854 million are hungry.

• "The poor becoming hungrier while the appetites of the rich show little sich of subsiding. " (Jim Wallis p.73)

• "When we see a church that has fallen into accumulation and affluence, a church that is being consumed by its own consumption, we are witnessing a church that has fallen into idolatry." (Jim Wallis p.73).

My next comment is not relating to the poverty issue but just about colllege studying. I have thought that we spent so much time writing the papers (from 4 to 6 pages), yet the only thing we get back is the grade. The teacher is not discussing with us what our issues and point of view are. Do we grow if we just soak in our own thoughts? No response, no communication about what we write, why we write. I think that every student take an effort to put something valuable and meaningful in each paper (even if it it a sentence). It will be great if after spending so much time and energy in our papers, to be able to meet and talk with teachers and professors and hear their comments. WE need to grow and hear the responses from the older generation. The only time we hear their response is the group discussion. But have you noticed that not all people are comfortable to share and open in front of others? What is the purpose of writing all those papers, anyway? I love writing and searching the information, but after 4 years of college I question the fruitfullness of its approach.

Thanks

This morning I have been asked by Tori: "Can we live the rest 1,5 weeks in peace?" I asked her: "What does it require?" SHe said: "Just be kind to each otehr, but do not expact anything..." I told her: "I will try". WHen I came back to the room , the sorrow and diapoinment came on me: "Did she care for her convenience last weeks of finals or did she truly care for our relationship?" Becaue I thought it was her selfish desire to experience the last weeks of finals without anxiety and so forth, I was sad.

By the way, at around 11 am (still the morning), but I felt like the whole day run through and I was tired and exhuasted. So, I went to Haven and the Lord provided a meal for me for free.
My next class it at 2pm and before that time I am reading the book for another class.

By the way, when yesterday I was crying in my secret room, Danielle came and hugged me. She said : "Do you wanna talk?" I nodded No. I also did not feel trusty to share with her my feelings and what God was doing in me. TOday I met her on the way, she hugged me again, asked ferw questions. I do not feel the same toward her, but it could be just my bitterness and uneasy with the whole situation with Tori.

Thank you Lord,
for letting me go through this. I thought yeasterday that it is my lesson so that in future I would be able to keep silence in the group or public resistence.

I wonder how my mom is doing, probably busy. May the Lord with His angels guard her in all the ways and bring her safely to the U.S. I am looking forward to show her that "secret room", give her the pillow, feed her on campus, and cry in her shoulders.

It feels very lonely here. But I ahve Sarah and Rhyse who are a great support, as well as Phil and Tara. Of course the Lord is my help and support.

I will wait on Him,
He will console me. Praise to Him!