Worship Leader

Dear friends,

Let me share with you my thoughts about worship.

I have been a worship leader two times in two different churches and was a member of a worship team in four churches.

1) Being a worship leader does not mean that you are an outstanding musician necessarily. Rather, your heart does not stop singing and praising God daily.

2) Worship leader is not responsible for everything, he or she can delegate different areas to people in a team. Freedom, creativity, enthusiam, joy and delight are important avenues in worship.

3) Holy Spirit is the only true leader of worship. The Gospel of John says that the true worshipers are in Spirit and truth. We are not to grieve the Holy Spirit and listens to His guidance.

4) If it were possibly, I would change the title 'worship leader' into 'a servant of worship' or something like that. Just like the word "Christian" today means so many things that lost its true meaning, so I believe the word "worship leader."

5) Humility is so crucial to every member of worship team, because "God opposes the proud, but gives grace to the humble." We praise the name of the Lord Jesus and give glory to the Father in the Spirit, and it requires humility.

Being on the Rock

I had a dream yesterday that I shared with Sam.

I saw a brown bear, he was going after me. So I ran from it.
It was not that long till I found a rock and started climbing. Finally, I reached the top with some efforts!!! There was a group with me and we were definately secure on the top of the rock. I looked to the side and there was another rock, but it was not steady. The people on it were swang side to side.

Sam and I talked about our relationship being on the steady rock. Praise the Lord, Jesus is our Rock!!!!

Memory

Hello Dear Readers,

I greet you in the name of Jesus.

Let me spend some time remembering facts, events of my life.

I lived in Starokomishinsk, with grandparents in Kopeisk (st. Tomilova 5) and two other apartments. I lived in Chellyabinsk in two places; in St. Petersburg (St. Budapesht) plus liceum; in America I lived in Anderson (dorms Martin, Fair Commons, and Morrison), apartment on East 7 th, house West 6th, Walnut 628 C, and now on East 6th.

It is so great!

I wonder where God will guide me (and Sam) to live in the future.

a thought from academic world

Magazine "The Social Studies"
Article: "Using Children's Literature to Promote Critical Georgaphic Awareness in Elementary Classrooms"

Children's literature has been found to be a powerful tool in both the presentation and understanding of seminal geographical consepts, paticularly for younger students. Using rich children's literature bridges the gap between geographically disparate worlds and provides younger learners with a more insightful understanding of other lives and other experiences.

News and Overview

Praise the Lord!

His Name is Worhty to Be Praised!
It is more than a cliche: God is indeed worthy of praise!

I had a talk with a person from the Physical Plant, who allowed me to move out from the Seminary Village. That is an exciting news, which means that I will be living in a new place starting February. Praise God!!!!!!

Samushka and I are doing great. He is so loving and suportive toward me. He told me of the gifts he purchased for the coming Valentine's Day. His opera is on February 6 and 12. Most likely, Xen, Sarah and I will come on Friday, February 12.

I love learning more about ministry at FGA.

The month of January has been an amazing experience so far: because of the corporate fast among the members of the Church at FGA. Secondly, I decided to study and take notes in such a way, so that I could review all the material for the month of January. It has been a month of struggle against loneliness. This month I spent quality time with Danielly B. This month I experienced intense longing to love the Lord. The Lord has blessed with musicians this month to our church, praise the Lord. It is the first month of 2010 and a new semester.

musical worship

I)Sunday Service: The Worship was so good, it took us way different. After the service the Lord brought many people who were interested musically in worship: Matthew, Tim, A.J., Linda. Priase the Lord. Lisa Hall said today, "The Lord is a gardener. He takes this and that and makes a bouquet." I agree that bouquet of worship and praise for His glory. As always, Phil has been a blessing, today he played violin and improvised musically and singing. It was wonderful. The church as a whole is getting involved with lots of things. Everyone wants to be a part of the service onw way or the other.

2) After the prayer this morning, Phil, Connie adn I had a onversation. It helped me to see that marriage is not that pretty roses. Phil said, "Think of something that annoys you in him. In the marriage it will only get bigger." Connie also shared her life experiences that shows the difficulties of marriage. So, it actually helped me to cool down in my outburst desire for marriage. I want to be married, but marriage is not the pedestal. The life for Jesus and all that He wants is what matters most.

Thanksgiving: Dear Daddy.
I thank You, the Lord Most High, for the wonderful opportunity You gave us today in meeting with You. I hope that Your weight and glory was ministering to all of us. You amaze me in how you bring musicians, I give You glory. You are the author. May all of us together be a pleasing, sweet aroma, so that You enjoy it and reveal Your glory in Jesus Christ. Thank You for the dance team and how You work through them mighty. Thank You for the pastor Clint, his message on budget and finances moved me to think critically. I put $5 into a saving and will try to pay off my debt to school along the way this semester. Father, may this day be all for YOur glory and praise. Please, be with Linda. You see her heart; that she desires to play keyboard for You. Would you make her available and healthy, so that she can come on Sundays to worship Your name in congregation.

Father, You made us so beautiful. I rejoice in that. Blessings on Pastor Shelly, may she rejoice in You. Blessings on Mike, Lisa, Janice, Scot, Barbara and others. Be with A.J. and make him ready for the worship. May the songs of his life bring deliverance and healing to his body. You are our Healer and Comforter. We are never alone, because You are near.

I Love You Lord Jesus.
Praise be to You forever and ever.
Help me to listen to Your voice and be obedient.

Continuing with a story

Remember, I wrote about my concerned heart in relation to Sam.

Well, my silence was a motivational key to Sam, apparently. He called me twice, left a voice mail, message with a picture, a gift on facebook (a rose) and a message on facebook.

It is surprising to me all of that, my heart is still concerned. Don't take me wrong, I love Samushka very much. He is the best of all the men! He is my love! I just wanted to be chased after and attempted to be asked in marriage. It is like in the movie, Danielle and I watched, called "Here comes the groom." This guy was so busy with his work and travels that he unintentionally left this lady in waiting period for such a long time, that she was concerned! She sent him a recording of her intentions either to be pursued into marriage or she will find someone else. The guy was awakened from his slumber. He arranged all he could, but it seemed too late now, she found a man who offered her not only hand in marriage but lots of money. The movie showed that through struggle to win his girl back, they are happily united.

That's a similar feeling and thoughts I have. I am ready to be asked, but all I see is waiting and waiting. That's a great biblical thing to do, but I am a woman. So, here all these concerns.

Lord, I do not want to use You in my own manipulative ways, but I ask Your help to guide us in the relationship and the timing. I have been told by spiritual leaders of my life to get ready for the wedding, to set a date and so forth, which I submitted slowly, but I do not even have the engagement ring. So, thanks for listenning to my story for today and I hope I would learn something positive out of it and will be able to help another lady in her desire to be loved and bewedded.
God bless you!

my concerned heart

Dear Lord,

You know me so well. You rejoice when I live in peace, humility and love. But today, Oh Father, my thoughts toward Sam are tormentng me. I feel like not talking... What's wrong? I think the enemy is doing something, Lord, please help us.

Blessings to you Sam,
I love you dearly. See, I wanted to be married to you so much, but whenever we talk, I feel like it does not cross your mind. It is a conflict from being in a different mindsets. It is good to be in unity and on the same page...
I bless you today. Thank you so much for what you do and who you are. I trust that our love is stronger than death, than demonic attacks, than emotional pain and so forth.

Jeremiah 33:10-11

This is what the Lord says: 'You say about this place, "It is a desolate waste, without men or animals." Yet in the townds of Judah and the streets of Jerusalem that are deserted, inhabited by neither men nor animals, there will be heard once more the sounds of joy and gladness, the voices of bride and bridegroom, and the voices of those who bring thank offerings to the house of the Lord, saying,

"Give thanks to the Lord Almighty, for the Lord is good; his love endures forever."

For I will restore the fortunes of the land as they were before,' says the Lord.

Father,

Sam is innocent in my eyes and I do not want to hold anything against him in my expecations and dreams. Please, grant us peace, love and humility. We need you in our midst, without you, we perish in selfishness, frailty and sin.

love you, Lord Jesus.

My goals today

I have definate goals today:

Come to the library with books and notebook.

Spend hours or reading and reflecting.
Read! Read! Read!!!!!

Maybe I should take a test or a quiz of some kind on learning.

reading lost?

Today, the thirdgraders have a problem of not being able to read well. This is a problem of our society. As I reflect on that, I thought of those years back when people did not have tvs and computers (visual stimulus), that is why they devoted their times to reading. It is through books they were able to see visions and dreams. Today, the society is overactive with computers and movies- the visual stuff, that takes away time from reading books. It is even true somewhat in my life today. It is much easier and faster, pleasurable and fun to go on the internet, then to open a book and spend an hour or two reading.

Lord, what would You say and what shall we do?

reflection

It is clearly that there is a difference in the teaching between what I hear at the FGA (Full Gospel Assembly) with the things I learn at the Anderson School of Theology. It is not that I want to be close-minded but that it never occured to me before the substantial differences in what people preach and present. The word "church" now means so many things, that you have to clarify in order to be understood.

I think the class on Christian Mission in a Pluralistic World will be a great effort to exercise those differences and come to a somewhat conclusion or a notch to move forward.

But outside of studying and teaching, in the realm of worship. I am so thankful for the open door to be in ministry with Tim Johnson and his friends of musicians doing IHOP and possibly the services on Sundays. I praise the Lord for that open door. Glory and Praise to our Faithful God.

It will be beneficial to answer this question this semester: How can we say the phrase "Our God" and what it means to different people and communities.

I still hold to the conviction that Jesus Christ is the way, the truth and the life. He is a mediator of our salvation and eternal life. Secondly, I believe in our call to worship the Father by One Spirit. All believers are called to praise and worship God the Father and learn in the knowledge of Him.

So, these are my recent thoughts and meditations. It is actually benefical to pour out those ideas in letter, rather than holding them in chaotic form in my mind.

Father, I come to You in the name of Your Son Jesus, Yeshua. I praise You for this wonderous day of Your glory. You provided with a meal and felowship! You opened new doors and I am thankful. Thank you for Sam who sent me letter and heart. May you bless those who decided to bless me today in many ways.
Be with Allison, deliver her from the spirit of rejection (dreamed today). Would you reveal the power of Your love toward her this semester. Bring healing to her relationship with her earthly father and with You. Receive our praises in advance for what You are going to do.

Father, this is personal. I would really like to practice Your presence every day. May the praise toward You be on my lips at school, at home, at church or any other places I go. May it energize those around me to pay attention to You and to glorify Your Holy Name.
Lord, keep us healthy, strong, enregized every week for Your Son's sake. May we be the learners of Your way, the practitioners of Your wisdom and the lovers of You.

I love You, Lord.
My Father, Son and the Holy Spirit.

Sunday worship.

Hello dear blog,

I am so amazed at what the Lord has done this Sunday service.

Phil picked me up early and I had lots of time to prepare for worship. However, all songs were so hard to play, they did not flow. Basically I struggled all that morning. Then my faithful friend, Phil came and joined the worshi practice. He is always a great help!!! Well, before the service the Lord gave me two songs to play and sing and they trully blessed the congregation (we had two new people, visitors). Then, God touched the worship outside of my understanding, but all that I could say is that people used flags, and then some went to the altar on their knees, crying "Holy, Holy,Holy". Phil (stading beside me and singing), went on his knees too. My fingers were covered in golden dust and peace, joy and amazement filled my heart. There was a call to accept the Lord Jesus as personal savior an dlots of other good prayers.

So, I am so thankful for the outpouring of His worship on the congragation or His presence in the midst of our worship. For all things, I give Him praise and devotion.

Love you and see you soon.

The things, visions and words that have been given by the Spirit to me

1. repentance & forgiveness, grace
2. worship
3. sow in the fields of evangelism
4. pray
5. smile, rejoice

authority in Christ

Father in heaven,

Thank you so very much for the lessons you are giving to us.
Sam and I will exercise our authority in Christ against any demonic attacks.

We love You Lord, Almighty.

My mom talked me to use the authority in Christ!!!!!

Psalm 144

Psalm 144

Praise be to the Lord my Rock, who trains my hands for war, my fingers for battle.
He is my loving God and my fortress, my stronghold and my deliverer, my shield, in whom I take refuge, who subdues peoples under me.

O Lord, what is man that you care for him, the son of man that you think of him? Man is like a breath; his days are ike a fleeting shadow.

Part your heavens, O Lord, and come down; touch the mountains, so that they smoke. Send forth lightning and scatter the enemies; shoot your arrows and rout them. Reach down your hand from on high; deliver me and rescue me from the mighty waters, from the hands of foreigners whose mouths are full of lies, whose right hands are deceitful.

I will sing a new song to You, o God; on the ten-stringed lyre I will make music to you, to the One who gives victory to kings, who delivers his servant David from the deadly sword.

Deliver me and rescue me from the hands of foreigners whose mouths are full of lies, whose right hands are deceitful.

Then our sons in their youth will be like well-nurtured plants, and our daughters will be like pillars carved to adorn a palace. Our barns will be filled with every kind of provision. Our sheep will increase by thousands, by tens of thousands in our fields; our oxen will draw heavy loads. There will be no breching of walls, no going into captivity, no cry of distress in our streets.
Blessed are the people whom this is true; blessed are the people whose God is the Lord.

I was so difficult today to Sammy

Heavenly Father, My Lord,

I apologize for the impatience and a difficult mood I am having today.

Things look so strange and upsetting to me almost all day long.

Father, would you take care of me this evening? Maybe my hormones overreacting to something, or I have been attacked by the enemy who works out his schemes against me and Sam.

Yesterday, we had a wonderful powerful experience in the Lord. But today I have been so unloving like a wall from Sammy.

In the name of Jesus,

Please remove from me this awful feeling and all will be well.

Love you and rely on your precious name

Cool

Samushka and I had a wonderful conversation the other day. He shared with me the truth with gentle words. He pointed to the value of the Spirit versus religion. He noticed the lack of joy in churches. But most of all, I was happy that we are on the same page...

We were also attacked with sicknesses since Sunday. But today God borught the healing back to my voice.

Hallelujah,
the Lord reigns.

Plan for 2010

If you want to reach the lost, you need to sow in EVANGELISM.

Sow strategically.

Secondly, pray without ceasing for the lost you encounter.

Rejoice! May the people see the joy of the Lord an ddraw to that river of the healing water of the Spirit.

That's it!

That's the Plan for you for 2010.

You don't have to worry about the churches shift. I have directed your path, my child.
You were my obedient vessel to go and give constant praise to My Name.
Who can say you did a wrong choice? Don't you remember the great thing, a miracle happened when you were accused of not attending classes on Sunday at University, while you at that time were put to be a worship leader. Is that not a war, what is? You were destined to praise Me. I need your vessel all the time. Thank Me and Rejoice in that position. I will help you always. Have you not discovered at thirst hand My mighty power in worship in your weakest hour? Have you not tasted that I loved your song and devotion? My child, keep singing and let Me take care of those accusing words.

I love you,

Your God Almighty,
Forver Faithful,
Amen.