Augustine

Breathe in me, Holy Spirit,
that my thoughts may be holy.
Act in me, Holy Spirit,
that my work , too, may be holy.
Draw my heart, Holy Spirit,
That I may love only what is holy.
Strengthen me, Holy Spirit,
To defend all what is holy.
Guard me, Holy Spirit,
that I may always be holy.

Phillips Brooks

Do not pray for easy lives. Pray to be stroner men.

Do not pray for tasks equal to your powers.

Pray for powers equal to your tasks.

deep hunger

What I feel inside my being is a deep hunger for the Living Christ. I long for Him in hours and minutes of a day. I pray and I sign...

Have you ever being in a place of spiritual drought? I believe that even in the religion a person can become a spritual prisoner. Yet Christ is faithful and He is the only one I need.

Dear Lord,

I am so bad today. It is like a a torture in my soul to become annoyed, angry, upset and discouraged. My mum is sufering because of that. I feel powerless and exhausted.

What shall I do?

I know I need to repent and change, but I can't.

Have I become too much selfish?

RULE in me by the HOLY SPIRIT.

In Father,

Katya

Invited to the Feast

I had a dream where I said to somebody:"Today is a feast!". Well, I thought I had only 4 dollars left to get food, but decided to stop by ATM machine and check the money, and as I said before, there were $163 dollars. I thanked the Lord!

Then today was the day of great dinner with Phil and Tara. They invited Ziyod and Lani, JM and me. I told them that would come, but today I felt so uncomfotable to go there, that I was looking for reasons not to go. WEll, Rhyse called and asked to postpone our dance practice fom 4 pm till 5:15pm, I agreed. Anyway, after having a productive time, We finished at 7 pm. Then we went to Panera were I treated her with a dinner as a feast.

Here is the story in the Bible that I just read:

"The kingdom of heaven is like a king who gave a wedding banquet for his son, and sent his servants to summon those who had been invited to the wedding banquet, but they refused to come.Again he sent other servants, saying, 'Tell those who are invited, Behold, I have prepared my banquet... everything is prepared; come to the wedding feast. But they were not concerned and paid no attention- they ignored and made light of the summons, treating it with contempt- and they went away, one to his farm, another to his business, while the others seized his servants, treated them shamefully and put them to death.

Then he said to his servants, th ewedding feast is prepared, but those invited were not worthy. So go to the thoroughfares where they leave the city- where the main roads and those from the country end- and invite to the wedding feast as many as you find. And those servants went out on the crossroads and got together as many as they found, both bad and good, the room which the wedding feast was helf was filled with guests. But when the king came in to view the guests, he looked intently at a man there who had on no wedding garment; adn he said, Friend, how did you come in here without putting on the appropriate wedding garment? And he was speechless )muzzled, gagged).

For many are called (invited and sumoned), but few chosen." Matthew 22:2-14

give to the poor

"Go and sell what you have and give to the poor, and you will have the riches in heaven..." Matthew 19:21

Today, to my surprise I had $163.02 in my debit card. Praise the Lord! This is the last check from work on campus. I took off $20, 00 to get food and money for the laundry. Then I spent $50,00 for the Food of the poor (sorry, it should be in secret). And I have still $ 93.02 left. I know that it is aweful to live hungry and without money. There are some blessigns from that, but unless you receive some help, it's difficult.

Lord, I pray that you will change my mind and attitude toward poor, so that I will not remain wealthy on the earth but rich in heaven. Help me to be reminded to give to the poor everytime there is something to give. Oh Lord, help them soon!!!

Amen.
Another example that my friend just shared with me. At the grocery store, there was a man who at the counter did not have enough money to pay for the food and he asked the lady to take off some items. But the man behind him said, I will pay fo ryou whatever you have left.

Thank You Dear Lord!!!

Little children, you are of God- you belong to Him, ...

He Who is in you is greater (mightier) than he who is in the world.

1 John 4:4

I continue to pray and meditate about His presence inside me. I want to be a body, spirit and soul that contains the Holy Spirit, just as it is written in the New Testament.

you are living the life of the Spirit, if the Holy Spirit of God really dwells within you- directs and controls you. But if any one does not possess the Holy Sprit of Christ, he is none of His- he does not belong to Christ, is not truly a child of God. but if Christ lives in you, then although your natural body is dead by reason of sin and guilt, the spirit is alive because of the righteousness that He imputes to you. And if the Spirit of him Who raised up Jesus from the dead dwells in you, then He Who raised up Christ Jesus from te dead will also restore to life your mortal (short-lived, perishable) bodies through His Spirit Who dwells in you.

Romans 8:9-11

Poverty- source

I have wondered about an issue of poverty. Many times I heard and believed too that poverty is a demonic thing. So instead of having a compassion on people, we treat them as those possessed by devil. But when we ourselves become poor or step into their shoes, we discover how needy and unworthy we are, how desperate we are for God and mercy. When you are poor, you become to see the graces of God that in other times you take for granted. When you are poor, you feel low and humble, sometimes there is self-pity, but there is also a remorse. How can we say that poverty comes from devil? Why would God be so concerned for the poor and widowed, orphans and foreigners?

I want to look at the Word and search whether poverty is a demonic activity or whether it is not.
Help me the Holy Spirit to find the truth, so that my heart will not be wrong before God.

Amen.

Therefore the kigdom of heaven is like a human king who wished to settle accounts with his attendants. When he began the accounting, one was brought to him who owed him ten thousand talents (probably about $10,000,000), and becuase he could not pay, his master ordered him to be sold, with his wife and his children and everything that he possessed, and payment to be made. So the attendant fell on his knees, begging him, hHave patience with me and I will pay you everything. And his master;s heart was moved with compassion, and he released him and forgave him (cancelling) the debt. But that same attendant, as he went out, found one of his fellow attendants who owed him a hundred denarii (about twenty dollars); and he caught him by the throat and said, Pay what you owe! So his fellow attendant fell down and begged him earnestly, Give me time, and I will pay you all! But he was unwilling and went out and had him put in prison till he should pay the debt. When his fellow attendants saw what had happened, they were greatly distressed, and they went and told everything that had taken place to their master. Then his master called him and said to him, You contemptible and wicked attendant! I forgave you and cancelled al that great debt of yours because you begged me; and should you not have had pity and mercy on your fellow attendant, as I had pity and mercy on you? And in wrath his master turned him over to the torturers (the jailers), till he should pay all that he owed. So also My heavenly Father will deal with every one of you, if you do not freely forgive your brother from your heart his offenses. Matthew 18:23-35

There are at least two dimensions in this parable (that I am aware of )

1. Why do people not want to pay back the debt? Most likely they do not have money at that moment, but also I think that it is our selfishness. WE think of ourselves and our needs as more important than others. For example, in this story, the first attendant pleaded to give him mercy, like saying I know I need mercy, give me that. THe second one, probably was more sincere , he could not pay the debt at that moment but was willing to pay later. I noticed even in my heart this tendency. AS I received freely 100 dollars, I knew I had to pay back to Jenny, but immediately our thoughts came: Well, I would like to spend this money on my needs. Maybe I should pay her back of that sum of money. This is completely wrong! Jesus gives supernaturally to cover our debts (not only financial ut spiritual), yet we continue to serve our own needs and desires.
2. The point of this story is to be willing to forgive freely and not hold offenses against those who made us wrong. I feel that I am also in this category. It is so hard in my heart to let go and freely love with compassion my sister Tori. But no matter what I feel, God's word says to "freely forgive your sister from your heart her offenses".

tax for Me and for you

"In order not to give offense and cause them to stumle- that is, to judge unfavorably and unjustly- go down to the sea and throw in a hook; take the first fish that comes up, and when you open its mouth you will find there a shekel. Take it and give it to them to pay the temple tax for Me and for yourself." Matthew 17:27

We do have taxes and debts here on earth. I like how Jesus showed that He will provide money, but make sure that you give them to pay for tax and debt. It is an answer to my prayer what to do with $100 dollars I received today. I have a debt to pay to my friend Jenny Jung, because I borrowed $100 to cover my negative balance on the debit card. I was so thankful to her and now it is to pay it back with God's divine provision.

Lord, blessed are Your ways, Your Divine Ways!

p.s. Look at the words "take it and give it to them to pay the temple tax for Me and for yourself."

Jesus lives in me, so He is concern with everything I am in. He is a major part of me, I am the least of me...

my dear Erin, thank you

I just came to my room, there was an envolopw on the floor for me. I picked it up and went to the restroom with it. The card's envelope said "psalm 23". By the way, for this semseter I received two cards with Psalm 23 from Karen and this was from Erin Davis (from fast meeting yesterday). I still cry and feel unworthy to accept what was inside.

There was 100 dollars.
I can't explain it. I just know that it's so humbling and compassionate. Thank You Lord!
Thank You Lord! Thank You for dear Erin. I will not forget hear, my dear Erin. Thank you.

The presidency of the U.S.

George Washington was not the first President of the United States. He was the first President of the United States under the Constitution we follow today. And the first seven Presidents are forgotten in history.

In 1781, John Hanson was elected as the first president in the U.S. Six other presidents were elected after him - Elias Boudinot (1783), Thomas Mifflin (1784), Richard Henry Lee (1785), Nathan Gorman (1786), Arthur St. Clair (1787), and Cyrus Griffin (1788) - all prior to Washington taking office
George Washington (1789-1797)
John Adam (1797-1801)
Thomas Jefferson (1801-1809)
James Madison (1809-1817)
James Monroe (1817-1825)
John Q. Adams (1825-1829)
Andrew Jackson (1829-1837)
Martin Van Buren (1837-1841)
William Henry Harrison (1841)
John Tyler (1841-1845)
James K. Polk (1845-1849)
Zachary Taylor (1849-1850)
Millard Fillmore (1850-1853)
Franklin Pierce (1853-1857)
James Buchanan (1857-1861)
Abraham Lincoln (1861-1865)
Andrew Johnson (1865-1869)
Ulysses Grant (1869-1877)
Rutherford Hayes (1877-1881)
James Garfield (1881)
Chester Arthur (1881- 1885)
Grover Cleveland (1885-1889)
Benjamin Harrison (1889-1893)
Grover Cleveland (1893-1897)
William McKinley (1897-1901)

"The chief purposes of a fst are to clear our heads and hearts, to practice the discipline of detachment from what we suppose to be our needs, and to focus on hearing God rather than lobbying of our own compromised sinfulness..." (p, 83).

Relating to the war in Iraq, I think that many Christians (including myself) consider that what 's going on there is what supposed to be happening. However, I do consider that violence and war is not God's way but it also could be his wrath on the nation... AS you see, I am not very familiar on this topic just as it seemed to me that's what it supposed to be. However, in this world there are so much bad going on, that we do need to take "spiritual " weapons to fight the enemy.

The spiritual weapons are fsting, prayer, worship, th Word of God, evangelism, healing, deliverance, discipleship and missionary. So may our hearts turn to God with these weapons, so that God could bestow grace upon the nations instead of wrath.

Amen

"And let us call the church to fasting and prayer in repentance for the destrauction our nation has influenced upon the people of Iraq" (qt. in Jim Wallis, p. 79).

"This military action has killed at least 10,000 Iraqis, about 900 American soldiers have died in Iraq." (p. 80)

"At no time has he or any other national leader, of either political part, called the notaion to apologize or repent for these volent abd highnanded acts." (p.81).

"As Christians, what shall we say to these things? We are called to serve a Lord whotaught his followers to turn the other cheek when attacked and to love their enemies. We should aslo recall the passionate exhortation of St. Paul, "Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave room for the wrath of God... Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good." (p.81).

The newspaper "The Chronicle" for April 2008:

Has an article "'Adopt a Terrorist for Prayer' movement begins"

-The new web-based ministry, Adopt a Terrorist for Prayer (ATFP), helps Christians follow Jesus' instructions to love and pray for their enemies.

-The founder of ATFP is Dr. Thomas Bruce

-"It's all about connecting these prayer warriors to each other to see how others are praying, to encourage each other, to spread the word, and fight this Ward on Terrorism in a powerful and spiritual way."

- go to their website : http://www.myatfp.com/

SOME WAYS TO PRAY FOR TERRORIST:

• For heart changes


• For dreams and visions


• For irresistable pursuit by God's Spirit


• For inescapable proclamation of God's word


• For demonstration of God's grace


• For conviction of sins


• For freedom to respond


• Against spiritual blindness and bondage

Today most of the wolrd's people are poor-1.2 billion earn less than $1;

854 million are hungry.

• "The poor becoming hungrier while the appetites of the rich show little sich of subsiding. " (Jim Wallis p.73)

• "When we see a church that has fallen into accumulation and affluence, a church that is being consumed by its own consumption, we are witnessing a church that has fallen into idolatry." (Jim Wallis p.73).

My next comment is not relating to the poverty issue but just about colllege studying. I have thought that we spent so much time writing the papers (from 4 to 6 pages), yet the only thing we get back is the grade. The teacher is not discussing with us what our issues and point of view are. Do we grow if we just soak in our own thoughts? No response, no communication about what we write, why we write. I think that every student take an effort to put something valuable and meaningful in each paper (even if it it a sentence). It will be great if after spending so much time and energy in our papers, to be able to meet and talk with teachers and professors and hear their comments. WE need to grow and hear the responses from the older generation. The only time we hear their response is the group discussion. But have you noticed that not all people are comfortable to share and open in front of others? What is the purpose of writing all those papers, anyway? I love writing and searching the information, but after 4 years of college I question the fruitfullness of its approach.

Thanks

This morning I have been asked by Tori: "Can we live the rest 1,5 weeks in peace?" I asked her: "What does it require?" SHe said: "Just be kind to each otehr, but do not expact anything..." I told her: "I will try". WHen I came back to the room , the sorrow and diapoinment came on me: "Did she care for her convenience last weeks of finals or did she truly care for our relationship?" Becaue I thought it was her selfish desire to experience the last weeks of finals without anxiety and so forth, I was sad.

By the way, at around 11 am (still the morning), but I felt like the whole day run through and I was tired and exhuasted. So, I went to Haven and the Lord provided a meal for me for free.
My next class it at 2pm and before that time I am reading the book for another class.

By the way, when yesterday I was crying in my secret room, Danielle came and hugged me. She said : "Do you wanna talk?" I nodded No. I also did not feel trusty to share with her my feelings and what God was doing in me. TOday I met her on the way, she hugged me again, asked ferw questions. I do not feel the same toward her, but it could be just my bitterness and uneasy with the whole situation with Tori.

Thank you Lord,
for letting me go through this. I thought yeasterday that it is my lesson so that in future I would be able to keep silence in the group or public resistence.

I wonder how my mom is doing, probably busy. May the Lord with His angels guard her in all the ways and bring her safely to the U.S. I am looking forward to show her that "secret room", give her the pillow, feed her on campus, and cry in her shoulders.

It feels very lonely here. But I ahve Sarah and Rhyse who are a great support, as well as Phil and Tara. Of course the Lord is my help and support.

I will wait on Him,
He will console me. Praise to Him!

searching for the answer

Well, let's learn from the opposite example given in MAtthew 12:43-45

"But when the unclean spirit has gone out of man, he roams through dry places in search of rest, but he does not find any. Then he says, I will go back to my house from which I came out. ANd when he arrives he finds the plae unoccupied, swept, put in order and decorated. Then he goes and brings with him seven other spirits more wicked than himself, and they go in and make their home there. And the last condition of that man becomes worse than the first."

Let's come back to the scripture in Matthew 12:35 "The good man from his inner good treasure flings forth good things, and the evil man out of his inner evil storehouse flings forth evil things."

Question

And now I have a question: how can God come and live in theinner man of a person when that person is nothing, beggar, poor?

Would glory come in to that undeserved place of a body of a mere men?

Where is the wisdom here?
Teach me Lord, I pray.

Amen

Treasure in the man

Matthew 12:35

The good man from his inner good treasure flings forth good things, and the evil man out of his inner evil storehouse flings forth evil things.

How deep this message, yet a little that I copmrehend. Help me Lord!

I noticed that this scripture realtes to the Epesians 3:16, 19. It talks about God's rich treasure in the inner being of a man.

I prayed to God: "Make me rich in the heavenly. Do not give me the riches earthly. Let me store the riches in heaven. But Now there is a new dimension to that prayer:

"Dear Lord, I pray and ask you to grant me the riches of Your presence within my spirit an dinner man. Make me rich in my inner being. Amen."

God is good.
Where God is in the inner being of a man, that man becomes a good man.

Hunger

"His disciples were hungry"... Matthew 12:1
We are hungry, we are hungry, we are hungry for You (the song)

His disciples were hungry
and we will be hungry as well.
Fill me and flood me with Yourself, Your Spirit and Love!

"the Pharisees saw it, they said to Him, See there! Your disciples are doing what is unlawful and not permitted on the Sabbath. He said to them, Have you not even read what David did when he was hungry, and those who accompanied him? (1 Sam 21:1-6; Lev.24:9) How he went into the house of God and ate the loaves of the showbread, which it was not lawful for him to eat nor for the men who accompanied him, but for the priests only?"... Matthew 12:2-4

God allows through Christ to hunger for Him no matter if you are a priest or a mere disciple. Hunger is good and you can come to the house of God and eat His bread. Hunger is good, remeber that. That will always allow you to come into the house of God!

Dream

The desires:

To buy an Amplified Bible (especially New Testament)
To have a printed machine
To write on the CD the songs God gave me

Farther Dreams:
To raise the dead
To dance for Christ
Do mighty works for GOD the Father
Proclaim the Kindom of God

Ephesians 3:16,19

Ephesians 3:16

May He grant you out of the rich treasury of His glory to be strengthened and reinforced with mighty power in the inner man by the Holy Spirit Himself-indwelling your innermost being and personality.

Ephesians 3:19

That you may be filled through all your being unto all the fullness of God- that is may have the richest measure of the divine Presence, and become a body wholly filled and flooded with God Himself!

Fast meeting at Prayer Room on campus

Voila!
I attended a fast meeting at our prayer room on campus. At first I felt out of place and uneasy to share, but our leader the lady started speaking, the presence of God filled the room. At that moment I did not care about who is around. GOD was the Center of it all!

After a great time,

I have talked to her personally, rahter crying and flooding with tears. This is what she said: "God is going to use you mightily." She said that all the people whom God uses mightily go through this dark testing time "the shadow of death". I felt hope and faith that God will do something through me. Yeah

But when I left that precious room, I cried intensively and shaked so desperately. I could not stop. Then I came to my beloved "secreat room" in Morison and prayed...

I love God and His ways!!!!

Love Him!!!!

the Gospel

I feel HUNGER for the GOSPEL>>>>>

I just want to read THE NEW TESTAMENT to see and witness about JESUS and the HOLY SPIRIT>>>>>

Father, I glorify You for sending Your dear BElOVED SON to save sinners.

James 1:22

"Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says." James 1:22


The Bible Study:


Read the passage from the Bible and then intentionally seek the ways how to do what it says.


I think it is a helpful way to build your Christian walk with Christ.





There are so many different ways for Bible Study: memorize the scriptures, confess the word, word study, etc.


I think that reading the Bible with an intention to get out of it things to do is a great way.


Lord, help me to do as You instruct.





I am a forgetful and deceived person, because I listen to the Word of God a lot, yet little that I do.

Prophetic words on April 23, 2008

Chuck Pierce:
" This is the perfect time for self-reflection. It is the perfect time to do a "spring-cleaning" of your emotions and mind."

Kathy:

"I say that He is King od kings and Lord of lords. I say that He is faithful and true, even when we don't understand. I say that He is the God who keeps His promises, the God who gives us victory, and the God who heals our wounds"

Amen and Amen.

Commitment

Commitment is to be dedicated to a specific purpose, activity, assingment or a person.

It is a pledge or promise.

What is the value of commitment?

What does it do to a person wellbeing?

Is it important to a Christian faith?

What are the examples of commitment?

Where am I with commitments?

My friend Rhyse asked me to participate in a Bible Study, and I have a hard time to commit myself to it.

I had a difficulty to commit myslef in the past to a person for the future mariage becuase I tried to change him or give up when the tough times came.

Sometimes I fail to be where I suposed to be for school... (classes, meetings, etc)

For a long time (while I am being in America) I did not dedicate myself to a specific church.

I used to think that I like changes and new things, but maybe underline reason for that

is my unwillingness to commit for a long time.

Commitment to God

Commitment to people

Commitment to work and study

Commitment to goals

Commitment to church

How does my lack of commitment effect?

There is a dissapointment and unsure feelings about future.

There is lack of trust to people

There is a fear of unknown

Commitment sounds boring to people who like adventure and new experiences, but a true life cannot exist without commitment. Look, Jesus asked people to follow Him. He cannot intrust the Kingdom of God to those who wanted to escape and return to their previous life.

Commitment is a constant choice to wait and prevail in patience.

Commitment is inconvinience in our worldview

Commitment is the bond that is not easily broken

Но я к Богу обратился бы, предал бы дело мое Богу,
Который творит дела великие и неисследимые, чудные без
числа,
дает дождь на лице земли и посылает воды на лице
полей;
униженных поставляет на высоту, и сетующие возносятся во
спасение.
Он разрушает замыслы коварных, и руки их не довершают
предприятия.
Он уловляет мудрецов их же лукавством, и совет хитрых
становится
тщетным:
днем они встречают тьму и в полдень ходят ощупью,
как
ночью.
Он
спасает бедного от меча, от уст их и от руки
сильного.
И
есть несчастному
надежда, и неправда затворяет уста
свои.
Блажен человек,
которого вразумляет Бог, и потому
наказания
Вседержителева не отвергай,
ибо
Он причиняет раны и Сам
обвязывает их; Он
поражает, и Его же руки
врачуют.
В шести
бедах спасет тебя, и в
седьмой не коснется тебя
зло.
Во время
голода
избавит тебя от смерти, и
на войне – от руки меча.
От
бича
языка
укроешь себя и не убоишься
опустошения, когда оно придет.
Опустошению и голоду посмеешься и
зверей земли не убоишься,
ибо с
камнями полевыми у тебя союз, и звери
полевые в мире с тобою.
И
узнаешь, что
шатер твой в безопасности, и
будешь смотреть за домом
твоим, и не
согрешишь.
И увидишь, что семя твое
многочисленно,
и отрасли твои, как
трава на земле.
Войдешь
во гроб
в зрелости, как
укладываются снопы пшеницы в
свое
время.

Proverbs 1:23
Обратитесь к моему обличению: вот, я изолью на вас дух мой, возвещу вам слова мои.


Proverbs 19:20
Слушайся совета и принимай обличение, чтобы сделаться тебе впоследствии мудрым.


Proverbs 15:12
Не любит распутный обличающих его, и к мудрым не пойдет.

Hebrews 12:1-13

1.
свергнем с себя всякое бремя и запинающий нас грех ис терпением будем проходить предлежащее нампоприще,
2.
взирая на начальника и совершителя веры Иисуса, Который, вместо предлежавшей Ему радости, претерпел крест, пренебрегши посрамление, и воссел одесную престола Божия.
3.
Помыслите о Претерпевшем такое над Собою поругание отгрешников, чтобы вам не изнемочь и не ослабеть душами вашими.
4.
Вы еще не до крови сражались, подвизаясьпротив греха,
5.
и забыли утешение, которое предлагается вам, как сынам: сын мой! не пренебрегай наказания Господня, и не унывай, когда Он обличает тебя.
6.
Ибо Господь, кого любит, того наказывает; бьет же всякого сына, которого принимает.
7.
Если вы терпите наказание, то Бог поступает с вами, как с сынами. Ибо есть ли какой сын, которого бы не наказывал отец?
8.
Если же остаетесь без наказания, которое всем обще,то вы незаконные дети, а не сыны.
9.
Притом, если мы, будучи наказываемы плотскими родителями нашими, боялись их, то не гораздо ли более должны покориться Отцу духов, чтобы жить?
10.
Те наказывали нас по своему произволу для немногихдней; а Сей – для пользы, чтобы нам иметь участие в святости Его.
11.
Всякое наказание в настоящее времякажется не радостью, а печалью; но после наученным через него доставляет мирный плод праведности.
12.
Итак укрепите опустившиеся руки и ослабевшие колени
13.
и ходите прямо ногами вашими, дабы хромлющее не совратилось, а лучше исправилось.

Dynamic Semester

This is the most dynamic semster I've ever had!

• walked through the valley of the shadow of death


• was afraid to be in Hell


• suffered silence


• was in poverty and in need


• fasted


• sinned a lot and repented often


• worried about future ways


• felt homesick


• created 4 songs

What things did I learn about God through all of these?

He is with me. (Ps. 23:4)

The Lord is longsuffering and merciful. (Ps. 103:8-13)

As for God, His way is perfect.

Psalm 18:30

Knock and it will be opened to you.

Matthew 7:7

Long Hair

I had a dream that after I woke up my hair were long! t was so wonderufl feeling! MY hair were dark, staright, smooth and most important long!!!!

"If a woman has long hair, it is a glory to her" 1 Cor. 11:15

Interesting enough, that two days I am studying and reading about glory of God. he promised me to glorify me with His glory. So, I thank Jesus for the wonderful dream and Hid glory.

Reject all discouragement that is attempting to rob you of your momentum! This past week while we were worshipping, it was as if the Lord gave me supernatural vision and I saw our emotions. I could see that the enemy had made ploys against God's saints to block feelings in us, to stop us from gaining new zeal in the Lord. I saw satan and his forces had erected hidden snares and were creating offenses to wound our wellbeing and capture our soul expressions, causing us to stumble and lose momentum.
Our longing comes from the power of our desire, locked in our emotions. While the Spirit of God is creating a desire for the NEW, the enemy is attempting to ensnare us with old patterns, remove our creative unction, and bring many distractions into our lives. We must rise up now and say, "I've got to have You to help me press through into this new place. Reorder my focus so I can pinpoint the enemy's movement around me!"

Indeed, i had experienced an atack from the enemy for my emotions. Nikolai spoke again his nice words to capture me into the old pattern. Honestly, because of this enemy attack, I could not concentrate on school work. It was a battle over my emotional well being.
I refuse to come back to an old pattern through Nikolai. Lord, rise up in me like a lion that Your roar will scar the enemy.
Lord, jesus, I repent for allowing myself to got caught in the enemy illusion. Thank you so much for revealing me again the danger related to Nikolai' situation. Blessed be your name.

In Jesus Christ, Katya

Galatians 2:20

I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.

But many who are first will be last, and the last first. Matthew 19:30


Therefore what God has joined together, let no man separete. Matthew 19:6

Hello my friends,
Today is Saturday. Yesterday Danielle, Tori, Kevin and me went to the Italian restaurant "Bravo", We all were dressed up as for the formal. It was a good time and good food. Then I came home and immediately the phone call from Nikolai. Because I was in a way emotionally thirsty for affection and affirmation, I let our conversation continue. We talked hours and hours. He brought up questions, I brought up questions, We laughed, discussed our disagreement, etc. it became clear that he is not giving up on me. It was weird because I enjoyed our conversation but I also told him that "no" there is not going to be anything more.

Then I had a dream which is not very important but just because it happened after our conversation I thought it impotant to write it down.
We were in the classroom with Dr. Mbito. The group asked me to be thier leader for the project. There were a lot of assignments and I knew that I am not a leader but I would like to take a position. So we agreed. Then I see myself waling with another girl to a building but nobody from our class is there. So I wondered how am I a leader if I don't know where we are supposed to be. So we turned back from there and on our way back the people were coming toward that place two by two holding hands. I wonered but we just were there. Then it appeared "the last will be frist and the first will be last". Then somewhere in the middle I joined the group of people and we went to the police office. there were stairs. So I am walking up and see a lady sitting with closed eyes worshipping God by singing about the kingdom of God.I knew I had to show her my document to pass. When I passed her there was a music on TV : "Where you go I 'll go". I immediately started to dance and sing. Everybody was surprised including my sister but it was because of that song.

When I woke up I wondered about leadership....
But on one hand, Nikolai talked about the leadership that he received on his new job. We also talked about me being last instead of first on his list.


So I pray that God's wisdom will be with me in the name of Jesus.

Lord, You are a help to all who trust and call upon You. Please, listen to their cries and prayers. I know that You are good and abundant in mercy. Just as David said: "For You, Lord, are good, and ready to forgive, and abundant in mercy to all those who call upon You" (Ps. 86:5). So, Father, I pray, that You will be merciful and forgiving through Your Beloved Son.

Jesus, I thank You for the Cross and Your Blood shed on it. Who could ever deliver us form our sins and iniquities? We were like sheep withouht shepherd. But You became a lving sacrifice and You are a true shepherd.

I love to say this to You: "Who is like You, glorious in holiness, fearful in praises, doing wonders?" (Exodus 15:11) Jesus, You are the One who sets people free. Jesus, come to their rescue even today. Please, draw them near to Your Cross! Make them alive in You!

And let all the praise and glory be Yours!

Faithfulness and mercy

Dear Lord, I love You and Praise You for the love for us.
Blessed be Your Name!
I read in Your word: "My faithfulness and My mercy shall be with him" (Psalm 89:24). This verse most likely speaks of our Lord Jesus; but I also pray this scripture personally.

Jesus, may Your faithfulness and mercy shall be with me.

Jesus, may Your Faithfulness and Mercy shall be with

Iana and Michael!!!!

Today, Sarah and I met and had a great time. We prayed, read the scriptures and at the end worshipped in songs. The Lord anwered to one of the prayer even today. I had difficulties with my roommate. We prayed over that situation and talked about it. When I came home, she appologized. It was such a relief and thankfullness. Great is our God!

But there is another thing that caputred my attention. The situation with Nikolai is a battle over my trust. Whould I trust the voice of the Lord that clearly made known His will to me that Nikolai is no the right person for me, or whould I waver and trust the persistence and the words of Nikolai. My goal is to trust Jesus Christ even without understanding everything. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own undersanding" (Pr.3:5).

"The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; the God of my strength, in whom I will trust" 2 Samuel 22:2-3

"Trust in the Lord... feed on His faithfulness. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday" Psalm 37: 3,5


This dream happened in the beginning of the February month. The circumstances for the dream were folowing: On Saturday 2, I was supposed to meet Nikolai to give him his staff and the gift. However, by the deliverance of God, the meeting did not happen. But this was the dream prior to Saturday.
Here was the dream:

I was sleeping on my bed in the dorm. In the hallway there was loud voices, the door was slightly opened. My roommate was Jenny but she was with her guy friends, so she was not in the room. Then I hear some guys came into the room. The next thing happened is that I felt a fat face kissing me. I could not open my eyes but with all my strength I pushed him away. Those guys were leaving the room with laughing, mocking... I was still in my bed thinking about what had happened. THen I arose and went outside to the hallway.There were two groups on each side, so I asked them: "What's going on?" People were loud and the environment was wicked. Then I was in a kitchen, then one red hair guy came in and tells me:"I love you". I realized that it was the same guy who kissed, so I argued with him that he does not love me. He started to seduce me and on the floor we were wrestling. Then I saw standing and I touched his shoulder and said: "I do not trust a guy but my trust is in the Rock, Jesus Christ." Immediately, the guy became weak, powerless, afraid and left the kitchen. I called the police.

This dream means that God warns me not to trust Nikolai by any means. My only trust is in Christ Jesus. The kiss meant a betrayal like Judah toward Jesus. The funny thing is that when Nikolai called a day later he said: "I love you". It was a confirmation to the dream the Lord gave.

Then Jesus went into the temple of God and drve out all those who boght and sold in the temple, and overturned the tables of the money changers and the seats of those who sold doves. And He said to them, "It is written, 'My house shall be called a house of prayer,' but you have made it a 'den of thieves'.

Matthew 21:12-13

Trust me

I had a dream.

I was newly married. My husband and me were living in a simple house. That young men spoke the words: "Trust me. I will not forsake you, nor leave you." I had a feeling of distrust to him to be fully His in body, spirit and soul. Then I was by myself in a room. Outside was summer, people old and young were enjoying the water, splashing andplaying games, then I closed the curtains and came to the mirror comletely naked and started to dance. Then I hear the voice of a husband. He noticed that the black cat came into the ouse and spoke with a different voice. So we both realized it was a demon. Together we fought against it. The cat was trying to jump on me but then he, my husband, took the cat, I opened the door, he threw it away and I quickly shut it. There was heard unpleasant scream. My husband made sure that the door was looked.
Then we both came to the kitchen holding hands and kneeled down by the window. I started to thank Jesus in prayer. While still I was praying I woke up.

You know in a dream it was not clear that he was Jesus, but because of what He said and done to me, He proved to be Jesus who is with me.
Then I repented over the mirror and letting coming the evil.
And then I thought about word "trust" which is similar to "faith". When Jesus said "have faith in Me", He means "Trust me".

Thank You Jesus.

Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant seeking beautiful pearls, who, when he had found one pearl of great price, went, and sold all that he had and bought it

Matthew 13:45-46

Greatest riches!!!!

I want to have the greatest richness that is in Christ Jesus.
Dear Jesus, the world may look for the diamonds and expensive restaurants to eat, but my soul longs for You alone. You are the richest Gift! You are the Savior of my dark soul; You have lifted me up from the darkness and doom. Jesus, who is there like you? What riches will ever compare with You? You are worthy!

Thank You, Jesus, for becoming my friend!

Dear Jesus, My only Savior!
To You I pray and give my expectations.
You said to come to you and trust.
Jesus, in Your name I ask victory over impurity in my life. Let these seven days be in my life the days of purification. Jesus, create a work in my life that will glorify Your name!

Thank you for the great book "Pioneer Experiences" that shares the testimonies of people who discovered holiness through Jesus Christ. I am reading it and thinking of a work that you could do in me.

To You be the glory and honor.

Save and restore,
Lead to the Way Everlasting.
Promises and vows
Now find new ground...
Jesus , Jesus,
Jesus, Jesus
Meek and Holy,
Touch unholy
And make it holy.

water...

SPIRIT SONG OVER THE WATERS.

(1789 by Goethe).

THE soul of man

Resembleth water:

From heaven it cometh,

To heaven it soareth.

And then again

To earth descendeth,

Changing ever.

living worthy

I had an interesting day. Today I have learned things about Vgotsky (Russion psychologist) and about Paul's letter to Phillipians. Here is the scripture that I want to elaborate more:
"Living worthy of the gospel". What could this mean to me?

It is obvious to me that I believe in God but how obvoius and how worthy of the gospel it to others?
What I am trying to say is that there are different things in my life that are not worthy of the gospel. For example, skipping the class because I am lazy or sleeppy. Not doing my homework with excellence and consistency. And there are many other areas.

What shall I do?

The class has really challenged me today to live a life worthy of the gospel.
It will include sufferings for the good, making sacrifcies, rejoicing and being thankful, enduring and truthful before God, yourself and others.

Lord, help me to live a life worthy of You and Your Gospel. Let every day I will be reminded that to live is Christ. Lord, let all my life has a visible reflecting of the Invisible God.

With love and thankfulness,
Katya

Shadow of death

This is a new season in my life. It is called "the valley of the shadow of death".
But despite the difficulties, loneliness, other issues the word says: "I will fear no evil for You are with me."

Lord, I pray that You will help me to move on. Establish my path in Your righteousness and truth. Thank You so much!

FOR THUS SAYS THE HIGH AND LOFTY ONE WHO INHABITS ETERNITY, WHOSE NAME IS HOLY: "I DWELL IN THE HIGH AND HOLY PLACE, WITH HIM WHO HAS A CONTRITE AND HUMBLE SPIRIT, TO REVIVE THE SPIRIT OF THE HUMBLE, AND TO REVIVE THE SPIRIT OF THE HUMBLE, AND TO REVIVE THE HEART OF THE CONTRITE ONES

ISAIAH 57:15

THEREFORE HUMBLE YOURSELVES UNDER THE MIGHTY HAND OF GOD, HTAT HE MAY EXALT YOU IN DUE TIME, CASTING ALL YOUR CARE UPON HIM FOR HE CARES FOR YOU. BE SOBER (SELF-CONTROLLED), BE VIGILANT (WATCHFUL); BECAUSE YOUR ADVERSARY THE DEVIL WALKS ABOUT LIKE A ROARING LION, SEEKING WHOM HE MAY DEVOUR. RESIST HIM, STEADFAST IN THE FAITH, KNOWING THAT THE SAME SUFFERINGS ARE EXPERIENCED BY YOUR BROTHERHOOD IN THE WORLD.

1 PETER 5:6-9

"GOD RESIST THE PROUD, BUT GIVES GRACE TO THE HUMBLE."
THEREFORE SUBMIT TO GOD. RESIST THE DEVIL AND HE WILL FLEE FROM YOU. DRAW NEAR TO GOD AND HE WILL DRAW NEAR TO YOU. CLEANSE YOUR HANDS, YOU SINNERS; AND PURIFY YOUR HEARTS, YOU DOUBLE-MINDED. LAMENT AND MOURN AND WEEP! lET YOUR LAUGHTER BE TURNED TO MOURNING AND YOUR JOY TO GLOOM. HUMBLE YOURSELVES IN THE SIGHT OF THE lORD, AND HE WILL LIFT YOU UP.

JAMES 4:6-10

NOW SALVATION, AND STRENGTH, AND THE KINGDOM OF OUR GOD, AND THE POWER OF HIS CHRIST HAVE COME, FOR THE ACCUSER OF OUR BRETHREN, WHO ACCUSED THEM BEFORE OUR GOD DAY AND NIGHT, HAS BEEN CAST DOWN. AND THEY OVERCAME HIM BY THE BLOOD OF THE LAMB AND BY THE WORD OF THEIR TESTIMONY, AND THEY DID NOT LOVE THEIR LIVES TO THE DEATH.

REVELATION 12:10-11

Joseph flees from Potiphar

Finally, you and I can meet here again adn enjoy new postings.

Today I want to mention the dream and its connection to the BIble scripture.

In a dream, I was in a very rich family. We were sitting at the table. TIme after time their son was flirting with me. by tryinhg to touch me. Well, most of the time I just ignored. On the back of my mind I thought about nikolai. I knew he is there somewhere. Then I saw him sitting in the next room on a couch. He looked so sad and closed up. I sat near to him, hugged and kissed. Then comes that rich boy who says to the whole family that we have done something wrong. Then I talked to his sister... Well, even though it was a bivid dream, I could not understand the meaning of it.

Well, as Nikolai and i were reaeding a book on a phone, there was a chapter about Joseph and Potiphar. Potiphar was a wife of pharaoh (rich family). Joseph fleed from her... THis story is told in Gegnesis 39.

In a dream it was a sense that I thought about Nikolai, and hwen I sat next to him, we were both together and not belonging among them.

Lord, I pray that our heart be devoted to you, the LOVER of our souls. That we may not be entitled by the riches, or pleasures of this world. Let we run from those things in to Your arms of love. "It is better to have a sald where love is, then a calf where there is hatress".

Thank You Lord. We bless you adn praise You

Joy

Hello my dear friends,

I am very happy that there is a word to share with you. Today I will speak about the joy that comes through faith.

Several days ago (during the THanksgiving Break) I had a dream. The boy was so depressed, almost seek. I wondered in my dream what happened, why he was so sad. I remember coming to the hospital to cisit him. There were no emotions on his face but still sadness.

On Sunday School we talked about being CONTENT.

Content in who you are, what you have and who you are with. (Phil. 4:8, Hebr. 13:5, Ps. 62:10).

However, in order to be content you need to be restored first. (That's why I came to the hospital). Restored physically, emotionally and spiritually. But restoration comes from LOVE.

2. Fill yourself with the Word of God. Romans 10:17 "Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God". When you are in faith, the joy will be your outcome. Nehemiah 8:10 "THe joy of the Lord is your strength". Psalm 40:16 "Let all those who seek You rejoice and be glad in You" "Rejoice always" 1 Thessalonians 5:16.

3. Today Keeth Moore spoke on "joy of faith". Romans 15:13 "Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing". He said that joy is gage to your faith. If you are in faith, you have joy.

So, I hope that you and I will respond in faith to God and fill our heart with joy.

Fire on my FEET

Hi beloved friends.

Praise the Lord Almighty who is doing GREAT things! He is above all other names! He is alone greatly to be praised.

Well, today at our late Evening Sunday Service, the Holy Spirit was stirring in my heart the desire to be near to God. Nikolai's dear grandmother, Marybeth has elped me to come closer to God in prayer.

She asked me, "What do you want to pray for?" I said: "Fire on my feet." She laughed and then prayed.

Let me explain to you what that means to have a fire on my feet. I prayed to Jesus: "Lord, I want to go and just witness people about Jesus. Lord, give me boldness. It does not matter what people might think, I just want to do Your work. Jesus, I love You and want more of You. For this reason I need to have Bible with me, (Maybe candiesor other gifts)...

THen after the prayer, the Holy Spirit showed this scripture:

How then shall they call on Him in whome they have not believed? ANd how shal they believe in Him of whom they have not heard? ANd how shall they hear without a preacher? And how shall they preach unless they are sent? As it is written: "How Beautiful are the Feet of those who PREACH the Gospel of peace, who bring glad tidings of good things." Romans 10:14-15

IN ORDER to testify about Jesus to people we need to have fire on our feet to be bold and corageous, not afraid!

Tornado

I want to come back again to that dream and its interpretation. My situation with roommate has changed to the best side. We are loving and friendly again because through the love and patience the Lord worked at all out. Praise to Him.

Once again, the dream was. It was a tornado in the sky (not hurricane cause hurricane is from water). It did not rain yet but the tornado was strong and the wind pushed me back several steps. I remember my surprise even during the dream that the wind was strong to push me back. THen I turned to the side of a house and the sky was clear. Well, that day, Sunday, one man at chuch said to me: Wait what the Holy Spirit will tell you about this dream."
So today less than a week, I read in elijahlist an article of vision of tornado and hurricane that meant a good thing: the Goodness of the Lord and His miracleous Power.

Now I see that something is happening that was left undone, unperfect, in the past that the Lord has placed me to see His goodness in it. I am very excited to believe Hid goodness in what I see and experience now.

Here is an article by Julie A. Smith:

"Last week, I had vision of a huge tornado coming. This tornado was the Lord, Himself, and it was a tornado filled with the goodness of the Lord. I saw this tornado do many, many things as nothing could escape its path. It uprooted and replanted. It moved people from where they were to where they needed to be. It was moving so fast and furious, it was hard for me to comprehend all that it was doing. It was completely changing and rearranging people, places, situatians and circumstances. It was moving everything! Then I heard there words:"Nothing can escape the goodness of the Lord."

Dear Lord, My Faithful One! How are you today? I have something to share with you over this letter. The Word and the dream has helped me to realize the situation with my roommate.
In my dream I saw a huge hurrican wind. It pushed me backward several steps and then I turned behind the house and the sky was clear. At first I thought during the Sunday School that it is a wind of the Holy Spirit, but as I looked throught the scriptures, I found Psalm 55.
Lord, here they are those words:

How quickly I would escape far from this wild storm of hatred. (8)
It is not an enemy who taunts me- I could bear that. It is not my foes who so arrogantly insult me- I could have hidden from them. Instead, it is you-my equal, my companion and close friend. Qhat good friendship we once enjoyed as we walked together to the house of God. 12014)

As my companion, he betrayed his friends, he broke his promises. His words are as smooth as butter, but in his heart is war. His words are as sothing as lotion, but ubderneath are daggers!
Give your burdens to the Lord, and He will take care of you.


Thnak You, My SPEPHERD, JESUS!!!

giving birth

The voice of the Lord makes the deer give birth. Psalm 29:9

Do you know the time when the wild mountain goats bear young? Or can you mark when the deer gives birth?

Can you number the months that they fulfill? Or do you know the time when they bear young?

They bow down, they bring forth their young, they deliver their offspring. Their young ones are healthy, they grow strong with grain; they depart and do not return.

Job 39:1-4

Jesus Christ HEALS you!

Now may the God of patience and comfort

grant you to be like-minded toward one another,

according to Christ Jesus,

that you may with one mind and one mouth

glorify the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ.

Romans 15:5-6

BUT IF YOU PRAY TO GOD AND SEEK THE FAVOR OF THE ALMIGHTY ,

AND IF YOU ARE PURE AND LIVE WITH INTEGRITY,

HE WILL SURELY RISE UP AND RESTORE YOUR HAPPY HOME.

AND THOUGH YOU STARTED WITH LITLLE, YOU WILL END WITH MUCH.

JOB 8:5-7

Learn the promises of God conditional and unconditional. Especially, if it is a conditional promise, What Shall I do to have it?

Besides the promises, God also gave us some commands (that are requirements).

Smile

Luke 15

Then all the tax collectors and the sinners drew near to Him to hear Him.

And the Pharisees and scribes complained, saying, "This Man receives sinners and eats with them." So He spoke the parable to them, saying:

"What man of you, having a hundred sheep, if he loses one of them, does not leave the ninety-nine in the wilderness, and go after the one which is lost until he finds it? And when he has found it, he lays it on his shoulders, rejoicing. And when he comes home, he calls together his friends and neighbors, saying to them, "rejoice with me, for I have found my sheep which was lost!"

I say to you that likewise there will be more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine just persons who need no repentance.

"Or what woman, having ten silver coins, if she loses one coin, does not light a lamp, sweep the house, and search carefully until she finds it? And when she has found it, she calls her friends and neighbors together, saying, 'Rejoice with me, for I have found the piece which I lost!'

Likewise, I say to you, there is joy in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.

Then He said: "A certain man had two sons. And the younger of them said to his father,
'Father, give me the portion of goods that falls to me.' So he divided to them his livelihood. ANd not many days after, the younger son gathered all together, journeyed to a far country, and there wasted his possessions with prodigal living. But when he had spent all, there arose a severe famine in that land, and he bagan to be in want. Then he went and joined himself to a citizen of that country, and he spent him into his fields to feed swine. And he would gladly have filled his stomach with the pods that the swine ate, and no one gave him anything.
But when he came to himself, he said, 'How many of my father's hired servants have bread enough and to spare, and I perish with hunger! I will arise and go to my father, and will say to him,
"Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you, and I am no longer wothy to be called your son. Make me like one of your hired servants."

And he arose and came to his father. But when he was still a great way off, his father saw him and had compassion, and ran and fell on his neck and kissed him. And the son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight, and am no longer worthy to be called your son.'

But the father said to his servants, 'Bring out the best robe and put it on him, and put a ring on his hand and sandals on his feet. And bring the fatted calf here and kill it, and let us eat and be merry: for this my son was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' And they began to be merry.

my ear heard His voice

Blessed by My Lord, Jesus Christ, the One who is who was and who is to come.

When I left my house to go to work, the Holy Spirit spoke to me unexpectantly: "Many people put you down but I will put you up". I told Him that the first person who put me down was myself.

We had a conversation together while I was walking. It's been so natural and easy going, I was amazed. I asked Him why I hear His voice even before I spent time with HIm, HE said:"Didn't you pray last night with the verse:"He awakens me morning by morning, He awakens my ear to hear as the learned. The Lord has opened my ear; and I was bot rebellious; nor did I turn away." Isaiah 50:4-5

(I believe He will speak to me continually every moring, and now I will be careful to hear His voice).

He reminded me the scripture: "draw near to me and I will draw near to you." James 5:6

extra mile

You are in the season of preparation: FINISHING THE OLD in order to move into the new.

Many of you had dreams and visions that were aborted or LEFT UNFINISHED, and you will see them revived and come to pass.



If someone forces you to go one mile, go with him TWO MILES Matthew 5:41

Remember, the first mile was required, and there was no special honor or attention by fuifiling this task. It can be greatly rewarding to do acts of kindness- for people who appreciate them. Even the world does this, but I want you to go further.
Jesus said: "Do not resist one who is evil. But if any one strikes you on the right cheeck, turh to him the other also. Matthew 5:39




When My Son impresses you to walk the second mile, He is talking about helping people who don't like you, and who don't appreciate what you do for them.
When you do them good, they may go off and laugh at you.
This is My agape love in action, the ind that was expressed on the Cross.

Sustain me with cakes of raisins,

refresh me with apples

Song of Solomon 2:5

• Refreshing those who are broken hearted, weary and tired...
• Being hospitable in your house

dream

Hello dear readers of my Blogger. I want to say "Thank You" to all of you who had stopped here and read the thoughts, dreams and revelations...

Today I am in New Castle and here I had a dream. Yeasterday I tried to fasted but it did not last whole day and by the end of the day I had a strong headache. But I was so happy and thanked God for the blessings Jesus Christ brought in my life. I trully understood the difference between the cursed and blessed life. Praise the Lord!

Well, in my dream:
Before the most important part of a dream, I had a battle. Something was difficult, but I do not remember what it was. Then Jesus spoke to me: "Do you want to go to heaven and ask an Angel to open the gate of Twelve tribes?" I said to Jesus (whom I could not see but He was standing close) : "you know my heart and You know if I am able to do that." He said to me, "It is your choice". Then I said: "OK". Jesus also said that when the gate will be open, the president will smell it in his nostrils.
I went and did that. Then I see myself tellin gthat dream to my sister. She said: "Oh, I smell it even now." Then we prayed, cried, and weeped

I want to share with you the dream that I had many years ago,when I was back in Russia.

I was in my room, before the mirror, getting myself ready and looking out of window because I knew that Jesus was on the earth. I already knew that He and His disciples were there. So I rushed outside knowing that I will be his wife. It is only thing I wanted: TO BE HIS WIFE.

Then I sat in a circle of people on a green valley. Next to me was a girl who asked me: "WHo is HE?" I told her: "You don't know! He is the Son of God!" THen I realized that because He is Jesus, Son of God I could not be His wife. sitting there behind somebody's back, Jesus looked at me. He looked without any emotion for a while. I had a feeling that I was raised up from the ground. Then He started to laugh and smile. Everybody around Him started to laugh and smile.

He called me in the center. He touched my back and said:"Do not be shy."



P.S. Oh, my heart is leaping with joy to me Jesus. He does not fail His word! I believe that what He is teaching me roght now is the revelation on BRIDE and the BRIDEGROOM.

I bow down and wroship HIM with deep awe to His name.
I glorify His NAME!

suffer, glory, hope

Romans 8:17-25

Now if we are children, then we are heirs- heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in His sufferings in order that we may also share in His glory.

I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.

The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed.

For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the glorious freedom of the children of God.

We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in hte pains of childbirth right up to the present time. Not only so, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption as sons, the redeption of our bodies.

For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for whawt he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.

I just woke up and want to share the dream I had.

It was AU campus, many people walking after the leader. He was saying something like "It's hard to be away from home" and there was a feeling of conviction to turn back to God. But then we were gathered and lady appointed teams for the dance. It was te Holy Spirit group. AS she was speaking, I looked behind me and there were three girls dancing. And the lady said: The revival in Russia already started pointed at me. So,I joined the last team (very strong one). The team of girls went on a stage to perform dancing. I was amazed how professional they were. I wanted to say : Let those who are professional stand in a first lane (line) but me and another girl on a second one.

Then I woke up wishin gto see that dance performed.