Expecation to sew

After the exam, the Lord opened an opportunity to go to the Christian center, where my mom was. Interestingly, I desired to go there and the Lord provided. Thank you Jesus.

Secondly, I am excited to sew soon. May the Lord bless the hands and the creativity. The projects are curtain for Tara, pillow for us (Sammy and me), and others.

Love you dear Lord,

thank you!

P.S. Oh, I need to tell you about the coming opportunity for dance ministry in the church. The Lord is able to equip and multiple the resources to glorify His name through dance.

Exam

Thank you dear Father in heaven. What a joy to know that I can pray and lift Your name today.
Yesterday we were at our home church, new service at the new place!
Thank You Father for everything.

Today is my exam for Church of God reformation movement. I trust and rely that Youa re enabling me to retain information and cover everything in my study today. Would You pour out Your spirit to seek You first of all and then to be happy about the final exam.

I love you.
May You be with Sam and my mom.

Hebrew 11:6 "... because anyone who comes to Him must believe that He exists and rewards those who earnestly seek Him."

1) Come

2) Believe

3) Earnestly Seek

Day

Hi dear Blog!

I want to study today very hard and enjoy the day through flowers, colors, cards, joy, inspirational words ....

Lord, I pray to You!

May You be lifted up today! Help us today to be all we can be in You! Giving You glory by what we do! I am so excited to LIVE this day, live it with Joy, Enthusiasm, Love and Your Presence.

Make me an instrument that works well in Your hands, brings fruit and make You happy.

Love,

Signs of the End of the Age

Mark 13:5 "Jesus said to them: Watch out that no one deceives you. Many will come in my name, claiming, "I am he,' and will deceive many."
Mark 13:22 "For false Christs and false prophets will appear and perform signs and miracles to decieve the elect- if that were possible."
Matthew 24 :4 "Jesus answered: Watch out that no one decieves you. For many will come in my name, claiming, 'I am the Christ,' and will deceive many.'
Matthew 24:10 "At that time many will false prophets will appear and decieve many people. Becuase of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold, but he who stands firm to the end will be saved."
Matthew 24:24 "For false Christs and false prophets will appear and perform great signs and miracles to deceive even the elect- if that were possible."

Dear Lord, may my eyes see the distinction and discernemnt, because of this warning. I was given a dream last night. There were two men, who looked awful, with scars on their faces. They were performing some sort of healing on people, but people would experience tremendous pain and suffering and then die. Well, he came to my and my sister. He put three fingers on my head, and a finger into my left ear. All the time, he would pray in the name of Jesus.
But when we did not die, my sister and I rejoiced. THe light shone around us and he went away from us. Another doctor came and sat on my right side (as almost looking for protection). The bad person returned. He prayed over somebody infront of me, trying to cast off the evil spirits on my, but from inside, I resisted. Then the bad guy comes to the doctor, he asks my to put my head toward the mind of the bad guy and then toward the ear. I obeyed, yet prayed: "In the name of Jesus, may it be only for good." The bad guy started experiencing convulsions, like a demon-possessed. I was overwhelmed with love toward that person. I took my soft red blanket and tried to cover him, but he refused over and over again. After, I ran from that place outside and woke up.

Matthew 7:15 "Watch out for false prophets. They come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ferocious wolves. By their fruit you will recognize them."
Matthew 7:21 "Not everyone who says to me, 'Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. Many will say to me on that day, "Lord, Lrd, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles? Then I will tell them plainly, 'I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!'

1 John 4:18 "There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love."

1 Peter 4:8 "Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins."

work

Father,
today I received a compliment from both Jackie and Linda, my two bosses from work. One called me a sweethard and told my mom that she loves me. Another said, "you are a great worker. You take extra mile."
I am so honored, but it is You, Oh Lord.

Love you , Daddy.

Whitout you, I am nothing.
But You are my vine, You help me to grow and bear fruit.

role in opera

Dear Father,

I THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! Your blessings flow so big and wonderfully!
Sam received a role for the opera next year. It is a big deal!!!!! Praise the Lord.
We are going to buy a ticket, so I can fly with him on May 23.
God is good and worthy of all praise.

Love,

"What no eye has seen,
what no ear has heard,
and what no human mind has conceived-
these things God has prepared for those who love Him."
Romans 2:9

Prayer of thanks

Dear Lord, You are so Worthy and Wonderful.
Jesus, in Your name we are not perished. You are our everlasting strength and goodness.

Father, thank You for yesterday! Your grace brought the money back to the checking account and by Your grace, I was given new things to wear.
Thank You.

Lord, may today's studies will be for Your glory. Help me to accomplish so much, to bear good fruit. Jesus, I want to remain in You. Please, bind me in Yourside.

Be with Samuel and others!

With love,
Katya

Romans 8:28 "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose."

This scripture is significant due to the circumstances in my life right now. It appeared that someone stole my money from the checking account yesterday, and I was not able to buy a ticket to Russia. It was an enemy work after the amazing spiritual battle that happened the day before. Praise God! I rejoice now, becuase we know that God will work everything for the good, even some situations that were meant for harm.

Today, this morning, after sharing our dreams, my mom and I were led to repentance. Sometimes later Samuel called and asked forgiveness; he shared that the Lord led him to repentance. What a great God!

Thank you Father,
I give You praise for this day. May everything that will happen today will work for the good of Your children. Be with Samuel as he is singing for his audition to opera. Be with my mom, as she is listenning to the word of God on computer. Be with me, as I study Your word and do homework.
Love you.

Yesterday at the prayer/worship meeting. The Lord spoke to me these words:
I am moved by your obedience and desire for the Word. I am with you always. I will show you many things and reveal, I giving you a spiritual vision and discernemnt. I am guiding you, do not be afraid where I am taking you.

Mighty in Battle

So if the Son sets you free,

you will be free indeed.

Thank you Heavenly Father for yesterday. You were so mighty in battle, as we ministered to several people and fought the evil spirits in the name of Your Son, Jesus. Thank you for the Victory in Christ.

Psalm 24:8 "Who is this King of glory? The Lord strong and mighty,

The Lord mighty in battle."

1 Corinthians 15:57 "But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory

through our Lord Jesus Christ."

Psalm 23:1-3 "The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

He makes me lie down in green pastures,

He leads me beside quiet waters,

He restores my soul."

Insignificant and Ungifted

Dear reader,

I want to guide you through a journey of discovery.
On Sunday, after service, we lifted prayers on behalf of those who feel insignificant, unimportant within the body of Chirst. They feel like they do not have gifts or have no opportunity to plug in what they can.
On Tuesday, I received a phone call from Judy, who wants to get together on Friday to receive some training from those who are gifted in music how to lead IHOP worship. We talked about those who want to be active yet they are not professional and need help of training. It was very exciting to hear. Also, yesterday, the Lord Almighty was gracious and amazing because He let me see ants!!!! Yes, little ants!
The meaning of it is in following:
Ants are very small and look insignificant. However, in the pastery of God, they are the ones to take example. The Lord praises them for their hardwork and wisdom, etc. So, just like those little ants, there are many people who are unseen in our churches. They are so small!!! However, the Lord is changing that. He will make sure those ungifted people, insignificant will be raised up, trained and brought to the active role and ministry in the churches. Amen.

Word of God

Father, in the name of Your Son, Jesus.

I pray that You would release the hunger, the passion, and the endurance for the Word of God. I pray that the students and people in general will be drawn to the living word. Father, even today, pour fown your mighty presence through understanding and revelation of Your word.

Love You and Thank You for Your goodness to us.

You are the BEST GOD!!!!

Other religions

I just met Ginny,
She was so concern for the fact that the Christian School promotes to visit D. Lama (a Buddhist monk) to ask his questions. SHe is like me is concern that people respect other religions (idolatry) so much, and putting down the Christianity.

We are not to be afraid, and are not lose faith in Jesus.

Amen.

Good afternoon , readers!!!!

Samushka and my mom spent a lot of time together, because I had to work from 11 to 4 pm. My sould feels strange and weary between me and Sam, but Sam is doing so much to help us: he bought flowers, heart box and food, etc. Thank you Father. I am content.

I also think that this evening is the night of worship and digging into your presence. So the enemy is working against me in the area of weakness. I am an overcomer through Christ!!!


Give me strength to love unconditioanlly my dear Samuel.

Amen.

Job 22

Good morning, dear Blog!

I am happy to announce that my mom arrived last night! Elisa and I travelled to pick her up at the airport.

But right now, I would like to take time to make notes from the studying of the word, delivered by Donny (from South Africa).

Job 22:21-30

* Friendship with God. It is time to step from being a baby, a son to a friend.

*Romans says believe in your heart and confess with your mouth. The whole Word of God has something that is applicable to your life. "Lay up His words in your heart" The more we hear His spoken word , the more the level of our faith grows.

*Job had nothing left, he was devasted. If you return to God, He will return to you. First of all, get iniquity out of your tent, purify yurself. 1 John 3:1-3, realize how pure Jesus is.

*Get rid of attachment- put down gold in the dust. Rich man came to Christ: go, sell all your possesions. Test the motives of your heart: attachment. Get distance from earthly things, then the gold will be yur God Almighty.

*Change in heart-I have God, I delight in Him. Grace is sufficient.

Example, little girl, "Thank you Lor for the life I had until now."

*Be content with what you have in Jesus. Delight yourself in the LOrd, delight means lose yourself in it, abandon in it, everything vanishes from view.

*Say what shall be, speak solutions, not problem. Proverbs 18:20-21 Life and death is th epower of tongue. At the end of the day, if you put all the words on a plate, take a knife and fork, will you eat it?

* Say to ways and things to go up and to be right. Proclaim!

*In conclusion: get your tent clean and oure, get rid of your own, pray to God... OTHERS WILL BE SAVED THROUGH CLEANNESS AND PURITY IN YOUR LIFE!

God is good

Our God is good and actually so awesome!!!

Sam and I had a great conversation this morning.

He left a voicemail saying the reference to Philippians 1:9. In my reading today, this scripture was one of many. So, we talked on the phone and it was to the glory of God.

We were amazed at the confirmation level of the Spirit: in songs, prayers, and the word.

God is good!!!

Today my mom arrives!!!! Love you!!!

I am amazed at the work of the Holy Spirit! To my great amazement is to see the wisdom and care that just is flowing from Samuel. Praise the LORD!
He has been a great encouragement to me and to another student. I love to be ministered by my fiance. Thank you Father for granting him wisdom through your SPirit.

Isaiah 49

His comfort and reassurance!
Thank you Father!
You are near!

I want to be open with you reader, whoever you are. Many times I feel lonely and without close people, although the Lord has blessed amazingly with Samuel, who is my fiance and Judy's circle of friends (Who is my family) and Tara with Phil and few friends like Xen, Sarah, Jenny, Tim, Jinny and others. But for the most part, my heart is torn within me as I think of separation between my family and the feeling of lost with people.

Another thing that maybe is going on with me is a turture of the enemy and depression. The enemy likes to keep us like that- sad, depressed, lonely and so forth.

Also, as I moved to this new apartment, I found it so hard to pray and to seek God's face there. I cannot read the Bible too much, neither dance. My relationship with roommate is so-so (maybe due to my fault). I wish things will start changing and they will: my mom is arriving on April 7 and soon there will be the end of the semester. I am tired of studying. I want to belong an dbe nurtured by those around me again like a little child.

Jesus, I know You are faithful . Forgive me that I am mournind here, let me see the joy of Your salvation and rejoice. Truly in Your presence there is fulness of joy. Release me from oppression and depression, my dear Savior. I hold unto Your strong hands. Speak to me, love me strong.
Teach and restore.

Thank you!

Oh, I remember how Mike (the prophet) told me to go lower, so that Christ might increase. Lord, if I am going through this process, glory to You. But right now it seems very dark and strange, I want more of Your light and joy. You know my heart is to serve the gospel and to sing praises to You. I am yearning for heaven, because there will be fullness of joy.

SPASIBA ZA TVOU LUBOV KO MNE. I- TVOYA

Good afternoon friends, your Katya is feeling good and happy, energized and productive! Praise the Lord!

Last night I had a sort of nightmare. It almost like the devil showed up in the dream. But in the morning, Sam supported me and said that in his dream I was afraid of two mouses.

If the enemy is roaring, I know that God gave an awesome evening last night at Judy. There was so much joy!!!!! Joy and joy and joy! There was a gold dust on our hands and I even fell back during Jamy's prayer.

We watched IHOP and I returned home close to midnight.

Sam is singing today with a choir in Columbus, Indiana. Lord bless his travels and his voice. May the Blood of Jesus be his shield. He shared with me how in the car yesterday, they were listening to one song that brought the thoughts of sensuality. Sam realized those thoughts and prayed against them. Well, in the car was a homosexul with that spirit. The good thing is that Samusl is learning the discernment and prayed that hour. Good job!!!

Praise to Jesus! I want to know more of HIm and His word. Come Lord Jesus!

Dreams and submission

Sam and I had a great evening and an amazing morning! Last night we spent 40 minutes praying and reading the Bible. It was so encouraging to our spirits. In the morning we agreed to call too. In our early conversation, we shared the dreams that we had. His dream involved a lake area in the mountains; bridge; owl and photos with a tree and people on it. My dream involved hearing Tara Harrington, "He took the rebelious spirit and gave you a submissive." In my dream, Sam slept on a separate bed and I was happy that he was peaceful. :)

Praise the Lord!
P.S. Sam was so happy and encouraged after the fact that I supported him in professional singing and career. He confessed that it is very important for a man to have that support. I love you, Sam

Glory to God!!!
Today Sam and I both feel somewhat strange and challenge. However, it is because we are on the right track!!! We are pursuing holiness and purity in our relationship. Father, please, remove from us the stain of any impurity. Let Your glory shine ever more!!!

Daddy, would you strengthen us to study today and be active? May our bodes be Your temple!

Prepare ye the Way!

Thank you for my mom and her phone call.
Blessing and honor to your name!

Living It Today

We made a trip to New Castle. It was so wonderful and fun. Everybody enjoyed each other.


My thoughts:::

Dear Lord,
I found myself living for the future events rather than living in the present moment. It's like "don't enjoy this moment" becauce so and so in front and you need to get there.
The Word of God says that we should not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Matthew 6:34)

I noticed that the level of joy diminishes with those thoughts of future (even thought they might be good), rather than living in the present!!!
Father, in the name of Jesus, free me from worries about the future and even about tommorow. Help me to live every day in the power of the Holy Spirit. Every day is a new day with Christ!!! I shall overcome and use every day to glorify the King of Kings. Love you, dear Lord.

Thank you for Sam and giving him an opprotunity today to extract the tooth. We are happy about that!

Chicago

We are in Chicago. Last night we arrived at the hotep and went straight to the pool. It was fun!!!! When the time came to rest, Sam experienced a powerful dream from the Lord.
The Lord was calling him, then Sam started crawling toward Him. In that, he heard "It takes faith to get to the destination." Sam finally reached his destination and then suddenly a vine of pure water erupted within him. He screamed out because of the intense flow.

Father, I pray that today You will guide us. That all of us, in humility and love enjoy each other. Please, cover us in the blood of the Lamb and watch over.
WE love you.

P.S. Yesterday I experienced a severe emotional turmoil. But in the name of Jesus, we have the victory.

diet for the eyes

I am very serious in getting my perfect eyes sight back.The enemy has stolen it a while back, but my Lord Jesus Christ is a Redeemer and a Healer. I believe that every day, through prayer, reading of the word, speaking the right confession and proper diet for they eyes, the LORD SPEAD UP MY EYE HEALING. I believe that my eye sight is connected to the brain operation as well, so not only the healing to the eyes but to the brain as well. God will open up new creativity, wisdom to His child for the glory of Christ.

my God heals all my diseases. He loves to heal. I am going to receive my healing!!!! Amen.

Today, the Lord revealed to me what I need to eat. I am going to follow His guidance in that. Thanks and praise by to God, my Almighty Lord.

LOVE YOU, Jesus.

My healing of eyes

Luke 4:40 When the sun was setting, the people brought to Jesus all who had various kinds of sickness, and laying His hands on each one, He healed them.

Our God is definitely good and amazing!!!! I have so many praise reports to give Him glory back for what He has done. I shared with you lately about the financial provision, car and a wedding cake. But today happened something unusual and awesome. I was home and used time in prayer early evening. I cried and asked Father for several things and thanked Him a lot. But then I meditated on the word "favoriticism" and confessed that God is no respecter of persons and that all His promises are available to all who believe. So I confessed in faith and asked healing for my eyes. I waited for healing and believed!!!! Then after an hour or more my mom had called and after sharing testimonies with one another I urgently asked her to pray on the phone. I shared the prayer requests. I remember her prayer and when she started to pray in tongues I discerned the words "Rhema to Katya" and after that she prayed about healing. WOW!!!! She asked me to place one arm on eyes, the other on hand. And we prayed and prayed and prayed. I experienced some movements in my hands on the eyes and after on the head. Praise God! Then my mom shared few visions that she had. Around my eyes and head there was a wire that looked like Nazi war type wire. It was around my head and eyes. Then either the Holy Spirit or the Angels were untying those things and removing it. Then, there was some sort of tight clothing on my body that the Holy Spirit or the Angels were putting off from me. My mom wanted it to be taken faster, but she knew they were doing the work. After that, there was a shower from the Lord all over my body.

my mom also told me to have a right confession. It will help!!!

So I rejoice in healing of my eyes and urgently wait in expectation for the manifestation.
I determined to believe and confess the healing, because God is no respecter of persons. He loves to heal. Jesus died on the cross and by His stripes we are healed. Amen. Hallelujah.
P.S. Oh, I remember, she said that the angels were cleansing the house all around looking for the objects in the dark by the fire. So I already cleaned and threw away unnecessary things, giving away books and so forth. Praise God!!!!!

Dear Creator, of heaven and earth, sun and moon, flowers and trees, melodies and dances. I love You very much!!!!


Thank you so much for the school homework and Your hand upon our studies. Thank you for those who pray for us. Bless them!!!

Father, this week, would You help me to draw near to You and establish relationship that is deeper than before. I want MORE of You, of Your Son Jesus Christ adn the work of the Holy Spirit.

Dear, Jesus.
I devote my studies to You. May You be blessed through them and receive glory. I need Your help too, Holy Spirit.

LOVE YOU SO MUCH>>>>>>

Marvelous Weekend

THANK YOU LORD!!!

Father provided a car for Sam, a free wedding cake, and lots of money ($340) for the service of worship.

God is so good!!!!

Prayer Requests:

Jackie to sell the house and buy a new one close to campus.

Buy the house for Sam and Katya

Rent situation for summer and following year for Sam and Katya

Fix the house in Colorado, and smooth transition to that place Victoria and her family.

bloomington

I am in Bloomington right now. Sam has a rehearsal, and I am sitting at the music library. We spent some times together yesterday and today. If the Lord wills, we are travelling back to Anderson tonight and be there until Sunday or Monday.

We watched a movie "Swing vote;" it was really interesting.

I wonder what the Lord has for us this weekend. Father, may You guide us.

weary and discouraged???

God has done great things lately, but the discouragment and weariness has fallen upon me. I rebuke it in the in name of Jesus. Sometimes, we need to know what caused it and have a clear answer, but even if I do not know the answer to why I feel the way I do, may the name of Jesus, strong tower, be lifted up and exulted over every feeling.

Father, forgive me over my conversation with mommy. I tried to clarfiy the dates about April and her coming, but it turned out into discouragemnt as well. Lord, come and bless her coming to the U.S. Please, remove from my heart and thoughts that are contradictory to Your will. But if it the Holy Spirit that corrects the time of her coming, may it will be blessed. Either one, we trust You and know that You will work things out for the good of those who love You.

Jesus, thank you for the midterm, writing 2 Corinthians 4. THank you for the chapel and other things.

Love you.

Freedom

Patty prophesied yesterday CREATIVITY AND WISDOM! I heard the Lord speak to me of FREEDOM.

Today I woke up, Samuel greeted me with lots of great messages. I was encouraged. The Lord strengthened. Now I am going to work hard on my homeworks and even in advance.

*memorize 2 Corinthians 4
* read and write the paper for Strege (March 1)

Dream Interpretation

One of my desires lately has ben to learn dream interpretation! The Lord gives me prophetic dreams, and there is need to know how to interpret them. Also, I want to be able to help others to understand their dreams.
I was listenning to the CD on prophetic minsiters, he said to read the Bible accounts where God gave dreams and how they interpreted. That's a good start!!! I believe the Lord will open the door to understand dreams for His glory!

Judy shared with me the dream that Pauline had. She was squizing mices that had glasses. Those mices looked also like people. We are puzzled right now, but God can open the mysteries!

Financial provision

One of the last prophetic dreams that I had was going into a storehouse. Just before the entrance to it, the spirit of witchcraft approached me, but I rebuked it in Jesus name. he ran from the back of the building into the storehouse, but I perceived. So as soon as I saw him at the store, I bombarded him with the words, "Come out in teh naem of Jesus." That man was delivered from the spirit, but he did not listen to my wrning to be fillied with the Holy Spirit and have Jesus in his heart, he showed me his back waslking away. However, there was another woman who was bothering what I was saying of the Lord. I realized that the words won't do with her, so I started singing "El Shadai" (God more than enough) adn all the people in that storehouse picked up that song and sang it with a beautiful and joyful unity. After that we sand another joyful song of praise unto the Lord with dances. I saw Sam at the door well dressed up and was about to ask him to sing.

Just now, I realized that this dream shows that God is pouring out His blessings financial into my life (and Sams). The people who sang that song so in unity were the choir of angels. Storehouse is God's provision. Both Sam and me received financial blessings lately. Annonimously I recived 25 dollars through MaryAnnHawkins, Sam recieved $35 from Fritz and $20 from Cindy. Isn't our God good!!!!! Father, I pray for wisdom!!!!
Thank You, Daddy in heaven, for Yours blessings!!!!! It came from You, You are my El Shaddai! The name El Shaddai indicates all sufficiency, fruitfullness and noursishment. That day when I dreamed of that song in the storehouse, my friend Priscilla was playing the song "El Shaddai."

P.S. I just remember that yesterday Sally said, 'let me know when you are going to Russia, I want to do something for you. Not so much maybe 10 dollars..." Thank You Father for Sally and her willingness to bless me in due time. Love You, Lord.

AS I talked to Sam last night, he told me that there is a loan available for him. Even through this the Lord supplies for our needs. God is so good! We see Your hand of supply and priotection, favor and sufficiency. Love you!

A continuation:
On Friday (Febraury 26), I received $212.50 from Anderson University, I believe it is a deposit returned.

I encourage Sam in giving even out of his account, so GOD can start poruing into. Father, as we give to You and to Your kingdom, please bless Samuel with a job at Waffle House. May he be a blessing to them. Also, Father, bless him financially so that he can sing at churches and other opprotunities. Jesus, as he walks today, open the doors for him in faith. Thank you for the perfect time and giving him a job. Teach us to give to You wholeheartedly. You supply all of our needs. May even people be surprized seeing the financial provision that You are pouring into our lives.

Father, continued his financial outpouring on us this weekend (March 6-8). Praise God for the car, a wedding cake and money for the service. Love you Lord

Engagement!!!!

Yes, Samuel Green proposed me to marry him on Sunday night/ Early Monday morning. On February 22, 2010 I was engaged to him.

God has brought the new forth!!! I feel peace and even more desire to go the narrow way rather than the broad way. It is obvious that engaged couples have greater risk of keeping themselves pure, but the Spirit of God wants us to be pure and not be sexually involved before marriage.

With this great news comes a responsibility, to live holy!!!!!

old is gone, new is coming

We had an awesome time of prayer and intercession last evening. After that I went to Tara's house, shared my dreams and we ate pizza and watched iceskating.

Last night I also experienced a huge pain relating to Sam. I thought of not talking to him until face to face. No more words, but love that is evident in action and pursuit. My heart is still bitter and angry, but I try not to dwell on those thoughts. God is doing a new thing that He showed me in the dream, but the old has to die!!!! God cannot build a new things without removing the old!

"forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland." Isaiah 43:18-19
God is able to bring forth the engagement betweem me and Sam. We are not to conintinue our boyfirne/girlfriend relationship being stagnant. Sam, himself desires a new thing, rather the old stagnation. However, I am not trusting in Sam to move forward but in God who makes all things new.

Lord gave me a dream just before all these turmoil in our relationship started to happen. The Lord knows and He is with us. If we are to die to our old relationship, may the Lord bring forth the new soon.

"The Lord said, "I have indeed seen the misery of my people in Egypt. I have heard them crying out because of their slave drivers, and I am concerned about their suffering. So I have come down to rescue them from the hand of the Egyptians and to bring them up out of that land into a good and spacious land." Exodus 3:7-8
Lord God, You saw the stufferings and the pain the Israelites felt in their relationship with Egyptians. The Egyptians had a superior position, they mastered over them (the slaves). The children of Israel could not voice their pain to the masters of Egypt, but they cried out to You, the Living God and You heard them and acted on their behalf. Now, just the same, I feel like a slave who was mastered by the will and desire of Sam. My life became insignificant in his sight. I feel pain and rejection, but Lord knowing of who You are and what You can do, I trust in Your deliverance on my behalf. Blessings to Your name, Jehovah.
"The God of Israel spoke, the Rock of Israel said to me: 'When one rules over men in righteousness, when he rules in the fear of God, he is like the light of morning at sunrise on a cloudless morning, like the brightness after rain that brings the grass from the earth." 2 Samuel 23:3-4
"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven." Matthew 5:14-16 It is interesting that Jesus said we are the light of the world not by our words that we say, but by our good actions!!!! Let's say a person says nice and right words, but we notice that his words are not in agreement with actions. This situation will not create in us a desire to praise God the Father in heaven on their behalf as a witness of true light. On the contrary, we would feel rejection, hypocrasy, lies etc. That is why the Lord Jesus said may your light shines before every person that that may observe the good deeds and praise the Father in heaven.

"Not everyone who says to me, 'Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. Many will say to me on that day, 'Lord, lord, did we not prophecy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?' Then I will tell them plainly, 'I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!'" Matthew 7:21-23 See in the economy of God, He wants us to act in His ways and in the will of God, we on the other hand, like to talk the talk that appers to the hearers as sweet speach and lovely words. I feel the pain of hearing the words and not seeing the actions.

a student on campus

I have been seeing this student so often around the campus. He was the one, the Spirit of the Lord prompted me to pray and to witness to him about Jesus. There is a homosexual spirit or something like that. It is time to pray for him again and believe that God wants to touch him and to save by the blood of Jesus. Father, may he hear Your word and repent.

What shall I do concerning this young fellow who is lost right now and lives in sin?

To Pray More than just one homosexual, pray for the whole group, a coomunity on campus.

PEACE

Last night the Lord gave dream (about a huge fish and me like a pet) and I had a converstaion with my roommate. We shared communion and a cup of hot tea.

Philippians 4:6-7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Heavenly Father, I come before you in faith to your son Jesus Christ and to your Holy Word. There is something going on with Samuel, that I am not aware of, but You know. Instead of being anxious about his state and condition, I pray to You now. Will You come into his heart today with peace that is above our circumstances and understanding. May You penetrate his mind with the love of God, peace and Your word. Whatever troubles him, I ask You to put it on the altar. May Your consuming fire take away the worries from his heart. I repent if there is anyt hindrance because of unrepented sin. May your Blood wash him today and make his new and clean. By Your grace we are not perished but are called to the fellowship with You, O Lord. And I pray for my heart concerning this situation. Help me to trust You, Lord and remain stadfst and thankful. Protect our minds in Christ JEsus from any turbulance or unbelief. I Thank You for What You are doing in our mids. Blessed be Your name. Your peace which transcends my understanding, guards my heart and my mind in Christ Jesus.

YOUR PEACE, WHICH TRANSCENDS ALL MY UNDERSTANDING, GUARDS MY HEART AND MY MIND IN CHRIST JESUS.
AMEN.

Fourth watch

Thanks and Praise to the Lord God Almighty, Who is Seated in the Heavenly Places.

On February 15 (Monday), the Lord gave me a dream about the ring and perfect love at 3 am in the morning. The next day, I was puzzled between the third and the fourth watches, which one God is directing me to. Today, February 17 (Wednesday), I woke up at 5 am with praises on my lips and my mind unto Jesus. It was so intense and sweet and peaceful. I raised few prayers and went to sleep and woke up at 6 am and then later for work.

Well, today I am going to put an a larm clock for 3 am and by the grace of God and His Holy Spirit we will watch!!!! Father, may the blood of Jesus be my protection this night and please let Your Holy Spirit guide me. I love you. Thank you so much!!!!! I think I need to go and get a juice and have communion prior going to bed. God is blessed and praised!!!!

There are so many questions in my mind, searching for answers in God.

Thanks for Judy, becuase today I will do the laundry. Praise God also for the lunch He provided with friends. He knew that those two were my main concernc today and He asnwered for them. Praise be to God the Father, who hears our heart cries.

How can I please You, Lord Jesus?

P.S. I loved the Second Epistle of Clement. It is about repentance mostly.

Blessed be the name of the Lord.

FGA

Father, this morning I want to thank you for the Full Gospel Assembly church.

This church prays for one another. You are free to send requests or share your needs, and they will lift you up. You hear their prayers and respond accordingly.

Secondly, it is a circle of people who are persistent and lovers of worship.. They encourage one another!

So, thank You!!!

Confession

Father, I would like to be a person who is creative (art, music, etc) that people around me get interested in spending time with me. Use that creative side that You have given to me so that through that I could be a witness of Your love to all people. Secondly, in all my relationship Grant me the power to LOVE like Christ has loved me. It is in the secret place that I want to seek Your face and spend time in Your Word. I want to like in Your presence day and night, to be ONE with You. To love what You love and to hate the evil. Knowing that we are in the war with darkness through the light of the Gospel, I pray that You will set people free through Your anointing Spirit.

Jesus, in the relationship with Sam, surround us with Your glory, peace and everlasting joy. may

we spend time together to equip, to love, to forgive and to nurture one another. May we be obedient to Your call. May we be one in spirit and in truth. Father, we thank You that you are joining us in unity and love. That's so awesome.

Father, thank you that You brought friends into my life that were lost and now found by Your Love. I thank You for the gift of discipleship. I thank You that You are My Best Teacher. The books that we are to read in school and seminary have not taught me to love others, nor to stay away from evil. But it is through Your Holy Spirit You are in constant teaching mode, that I could reflect Your will. I thank You that You distinguished the wisdom of the age/ the world, from the wisdom You have. May my mind draw near to Your wisdom, rather that be decieved and blinded with the wisdom of this world.

I love that You pursue Your people with love and Great is your mercy. We are forgiven on the account of Your Son Jesus. It is so awesome! Thank you for the heavens and the everlasting life in Your presence.Thank you, dear Jesus, for breaking the chains of Satan from my feet. You set me free and became the Rock of my life. You are the Rock!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jesus, I wisper to You the words of my love and adoration: Be Praised Through All Nations. Be Glorified Through the Ages. May Your Kingdom Come, May Your Will Be Done. Praise, Honor and Adoration to Your Holy Name, Father, Son and the Holy Spirit.

FURIOUS LOVE

The Lord Jesus is teaching us again the value to love the people with His Love.

1. Yesterday we watched a movie "Furious Love" at New Life Church. It was incredible; there were stories of those who were touched by God's love in their deepest darkest hour.
2. On Sunday morning, I was feeling very down, did not feel God's presence with me and so forth. But after the service, some people gathered in a circle for prayer and God stepped into my situation and gave me JOY and increased my faith. We prayed for the house I stay in. The prophetic word was I saw you working in the garden and the hands became dirty. But do not be afarid, God can make you clean up. Keep working in the garden." Lisa then said that I am sowing seeds in the Spirit that will later bring good fruits. So, I put my faith.
3. Sam's situation on Sunday was not an easy one. His roommate told him that Chester could not stay with them. So, it was very painful, but they put their trust in God. He performed in proArte that day and was blessed to sing praises to God.
4. I had a dream last night, where I saw Sam talking to people about a ring and etc. I was in the bed seeing and hearing him; and found a pink bag with a ring in it. I did not open the bad but I felt it. Then the lady asked me in total acceptance of me, whether I am ready to recieve a gift from Sam of PERFECT LOVE. The words "Perfect Love" stood out from the whole dream. The feeling of proposal and engagement are near that I could see in the Spirit, hear and touch. Praise God!!!!

Love the lost

Our Mission is to LOVE

On the Elijahlist.com for February 12, 2010.

Dream of compassion and love

Praise the Lord today and forevermore!!!!

I had an awesome dream that came as a response to the yesterday's prayer: to have compassion and love for the lost.

The dream:

There were three kids in the orphanage, but one of them decides to run away from the master and so two other join him. Actually, it becomes evident that the guy also wanted to kill the master accidentally... The master, however, escapes that trap but continues to run after those three guys. I was running with kids looking where they are going. There were difficult roads, hidden places, water like in a vacation place, and finally hotel. The master (who was quite older) joined with police and they caught those boys. I was with one of them hidden in the red van like jeep. The master had the key to get in. Now, the feelings that boys had toward master were of fear!!!! However, when the master opened that van, I realized that he did not mean any harm but in love he saved them. The boys now understand that he cares for them and loves them. However, as they were standing outside experiencing reconciliation, there was a mafia dressed in a police uniform but they were bad guys. So one of them shot the gun into the master, master bleeds. Everyone understands that he is about to die. He laid down his life for those boys. Then, the helicopter arrived and he was put in a bed and raised up into the air. Then he becomes alive in the spirit.

I like the symbol of orphanage (God adopts us into His family), master is killed even though he laid down his life for those children (Jesus died for us, he saved us), the master was searching and running after the lost boys (Jesus came to seek and save the lost), the master was raised up by a helicopter (Jesus was resurrected from the dead and went to heaven) and some other symbolism.

Thank You Lord for giving this dream. I love you!!!! I can share this not only as a story, but a testimony and a sermon of evangelism.

where are we?

Hello dear readers and those who are in Christ!!!

I am pleased to tell you that God is great and He is awesome!!! The journey of faith is all about trust in God!

For the last few days I have been attacked by the unclean spirits. But, there is a battle going on right now. The Word of God is my sword and that is the weapon of the Spirit against flesh. I am thankful that His words are given to us to use and exercise, confess and hold unto. Jesus, when fasted, was tempted by satan. The weapon that Jesus used against devil was written word of God. I am to follow in the footsteps of my master, Jesus with fastings and declaration of written word.

Secondly, I am in the strategic plan to pay off the debt and thus to glorify God.

Thirdly, it is possible that the enemy increased attackes through my flesh and unclean spirits becuase there is a greater move of God is coming not only upon mu life but those around, even AU campus. It is so, GOD is going to step in with His glorious army into our place and shout the name of Jesus over us. I pray that the Heaven will be opened above us to drive out the demons and the darkness. Praise God!!!

I need to increase fasting, reading plus confessing the word of God, believing, praying in the Spirit and expecting GREAT WORKS OF GOD IN OUR MIDST THIS MONTH OF FEBRUARY.

oh my grandpa

I want to write something: about my grandpa...

I have great memroies of this man. Everytime we visited him, he was patient and moderate in all he did. He was not fascinated with money, he did not have greed in his heart, rather he gave us so much. He blessed us (my sister and me) with food and spare change. He liked to instruct us by talking about future jobs, goals. I have not heard him to say negative abusive words to anybody. When he spoke during the birthdays and holidays, his speech reflected reverance!!! I cry because there is no like my grandpa, I miss him. I know that I will see him in heaven!!!

He loved to show photos and tell stories of his life. He loved to write letters to others.

One day I had a conversation with him and grandma about the word of God and Jesus. Then he asked me (when grandma was not around): Why did they crucify Jesus? I told him because of the blashemy, He said he was the Son of God.
My last time I talked to him was on the phone (from America to Russia). He was sick at that moment, and apparently could not speak. However, that call he kept saying: "Thank you. Thank you. Thank you..." I told him that "he is the most handsome man, the saint." i love you grandpa. I know you aer with Jesus, because you gave your heart to the Lord (when my mom prayed with you) and your face shone with light the day you passed away.
Blessings.

Sam's birthday and prayer

Today is Sam's birthday: he is 25 years old!!! Father, in the name of Jesus, please continue to be His God and guide his steps. May Your will be done and You be glorified. Create in him a clean heart and sharpen his spiritual vision. Give him discernment, he needs it, becuase he is surrounded by lots of people. Thank you for the love in his heart toward people. Thank you fo rgiving him an ability to accept others and be their friend. We are companions that are willing to serve You in greater way. Please, be with us faithfully all the days of our lives in Christ. We want to be Yours totally.

Daddy, I love you. Thank You. I have a desire for Your word to enter my spirit. But Father, without Your grace and Spirit, there is a possibility to grow weary and even misunderstand. Please, show Your grace and teach me Your word. Who will do it better than the Spirit of God? I surrender myself to the guidance of Your spirit to enlighten Your word upon my soul. Daddy, I do not want status or recognition of men, all I want is to be with You, hear Your voice and remain in Your love. Forgive me for times when I could be the love to others. Forgive me when my look and appearance drew people away from me. Forgive me for all the ways that grieved Your holy Heart. I fall in love with You. I need You!!!!! Father, yestderday's glories and victories are not today's. So, help me to run after You and fill with Your word. I give You priority, Jesus.

Daddy,
LOVE YOU> LOVE YOU>LOVE YOU>
You are mine and I am Yours forever.

Monday news

Today is Monday. Our class had a speaker Salah E., he is a Muslim. We had a presentation on the Islam. We were allowed to ask qeustions. I asked him about the resurrection of Jesus Christ. In Islam, they believe that Jesus was taken to heaven and He will return for His people. However, they do not believe that Jesus was crucified and thus resurrected. Later one, our class had a short discussion about that. But honestly, he noticed that we disagreed on that issue, yet he saw that I respected him by saying "thank you" for his answer.

Secondly, One of the surprizing things. Yesterday Sam decided to ask me something "directly." He asked the size of my finger for the engagement ring. It was so honest and fun, peaceful and serious at the same time. I was surprized even though we talked about something like that before, but yeaterday it was so straightforward and exciting.

I thank You, dear Jesus, that You are our God. I am sorry if my emotions and feelings were difficult relating to the Islam and the whole classroom experience. But Youa re my peace and I follow Jesus Christ, the Risen Lord. Fill my heart with love and understanding the truth. Shed Your light into my heart.

Blessings of my professors and friends. I was surprized also to recived a message and being attached in a not by a seminary person. Maybe he is looking for a friendship and a security to have someone who will listen to and look forward to his coming back to seminary??? but anyway, I bless him too in the name of Jesus. May he will follow Jesus and receive Your best.

Send my love to Samushka.

Glory and Praise to Father through Jesus Christ!

Yesterday I met with Tara H. It was an intense prayer-Word time!!! She shared the dream about 10 pirates (deception/liying; witchcraft; sneekie; greedy; envy; poverty; jealousy; manipulation; mocker; pride) and the sciptures. Together we prayed. I had a vision:

in the center of the living room there was a ground/plot for the plants to grow. It was functioning like a garden. I saw green grass and the understanding that there will be fruits growing in this garden.

Of course I did not knwo right away the meaning of its vision, but that evening the Lord gave this scripture:

Isaiah 61:10-11
I delight greatly in the Lord; my soul rejoices in my God. For He has clothed me with garments of salvation and arrayed me in a robe of righteousness, as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest, and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels. For as the soil makes the sprout come up and a garden causes seeds to grow, so the Sovereign Lord will make righteousness and praise spring up before all nations.

Secondly, today on the Elijahlist, prophetic word was about the root. It identified the generational root of bitterness and then the root of Jesse, that of Christ Jesus. This is the prayer by Kathi Pelton:

Lord, I pray that every root in my life that is not a righteous root would be severed from me. I give You permission to show me any unrighteous root in my life or within my bloodline. I repent of and renounce all unrighteousness that has a hold on my life and ask You to let the Root of Jesse be my taproot. Jesus, I want to receive the fruit that comes from Your vine. I ask that the same Spirit that rested upon You would rest upon me; the Spirit of wisdom and of understanding, the Spirit of counsel and of power, the Spirit of knowledge and of the fear of the Lord.
Open my eyes and ears to judge rightly and to walk in justice and truth. I ask, both for me and for Your Church, to have righteousness be our belt and faithfulness to be the sash around our waist. Thank you for the past season of refining, testing, exposing and deliverance. Thank you for loving us enough to align us. We receive Your righteousness alone. In the name of our Messiah, Jesus Christ. Amen.

GREAT CONVERSATIONS

PTL!!!! Praise The Lord!

I am so happy of the conversations aI had with Patience and Sam. I learned so much just in one sitting about Patience. She is from Swaziland, a country within South Africa. She also lived in Canada, Netherlands and US. She tasted homelessness, rejection and so other trials in life, but her faith in God is pure as crystal, alive as a passion, and contageous as fire!

I already love her!

Secondly, Sam and I had a conversation too. It was amazing! We talked about kids, matrinomy, wedding, marital relationship and so forth. It was in peace, joy and love. How exciting to think of us being married one day; we call it adventure and journey. In response to my question, he said that motherhood requires three things: patience, goodness and kindness. He explained each term in detail, especially patience. What a journey! What a discovery!

PRAISE BE TO GOD ALMIGHTY AND TO THE LORD JESUS CHRIST. WE LIVE IN HIM AND HE IS EVERYTHING!

Interesting the month of February!

I moved to a new apartment that is cheaper and plus I have a roommate. Secondly, a new discernment related to the content of the sermons.

Lord, You prepared something amazing for this month. May I step into all that You have for this season. I pray that you will keep my health in Your strength and peace. Thank You so much for what You have done and doing in out lives.

Father, I bless You and Jesus, You are awesome. Be glorified! Help me to preach the Gospel to the lost. I love you.

sermon?

It's been an interesting morning. I had experienced something unusual during the sermon at chapel today. I was grieved and broken becuase of the sermon. It did not the name of Jesus, nor did it glorify the Lord. I was upset but thankfully Zen and my mom were there to hold me up.

Thank you.

My body was also weak, maybe not enough the right nutritions. I do want to go back to Russia with Sam!!!!

This evening I will go to Judy, becuase tofether we will persevere and hold on.
I need Jesus and support today.

Love,
Katya

Yay- travel to Russia!

Dear Friends,

I am so happy! Papa Oleg called and said that my foreign passport and Russian are getting expired, so I need to travel to Russia to renew. Well, he proposed an idea and an invitation for Sam and me travel together suring summer vacation. I am so happy, my spirit is jubilant.

Lord, since this is Your guidance, I am giving You thanks. May You prepare the road for us and help Sam and I to accomplish the trip to Russia. We trust you.

Worship Leader

Dear friends,

Let me share with you my thoughts about worship.

I have been a worship leader two times in two different churches and was a member of a worship team in four churches.

1) Being a worship leader does not mean that you are an outstanding musician necessarily. Rather, your heart does not stop singing and praising God daily.

2) Worship leader is not responsible for everything, he or she can delegate different areas to people in a team. Freedom, creativity, enthusiam, joy and delight are important avenues in worship.

3) Holy Spirit is the only true leader of worship. The Gospel of John says that the true worshipers are in Spirit and truth. We are not to grieve the Holy Spirit and listens to His guidance.

4) If it were possibly, I would change the title 'worship leader' into 'a servant of worship' or something like that. Just like the word "Christian" today means so many things that lost its true meaning, so I believe the word "worship leader."

5) Humility is so crucial to every member of worship team, because "God opposes the proud, but gives grace to the humble." We praise the name of the Lord Jesus and give glory to the Father in the Spirit, and it requires humility.

Being on the Rock

I had a dream yesterday that I shared with Sam.

I saw a brown bear, he was going after me. So I ran from it.
It was not that long till I found a rock and started climbing. Finally, I reached the top with some efforts!!! There was a group with me and we were definately secure on the top of the rock. I looked to the side and there was another rock, but it was not steady. The people on it were swang side to side.

Sam and I talked about our relationship being on the steady rock. Praise the Lord, Jesus is our Rock!!!!

Memory

Hello Dear Readers,

I greet you in the name of Jesus.

Let me spend some time remembering facts, events of my life.

I lived in Starokomishinsk, with grandparents in Kopeisk (st. Tomilova 5) and two other apartments. I lived in Chellyabinsk in two places; in St. Petersburg (St. Budapesht) plus liceum; in America I lived in Anderson (dorms Martin, Fair Commons, and Morrison), apartment on East 7 th, house West 6th, Walnut 628 C, and now on East 6th.

It is so great!

I wonder where God will guide me (and Sam) to live in the future.

a thought from academic world

Magazine "The Social Studies"
Article: "Using Children's Literature to Promote Critical Georgaphic Awareness in Elementary Classrooms"

Children's literature has been found to be a powerful tool in both the presentation and understanding of seminal geographical consepts, paticularly for younger students. Using rich children's literature bridges the gap between geographically disparate worlds and provides younger learners with a more insightful understanding of other lives and other experiences.

News and Overview

Praise the Lord!

His Name is Worhty to Be Praised!
It is more than a cliche: God is indeed worthy of praise!

I had a talk with a person from the Physical Plant, who allowed me to move out from the Seminary Village. That is an exciting news, which means that I will be living in a new place starting February. Praise God!!!!!!

Samushka and I are doing great. He is so loving and suportive toward me. He told me of the gifts he purchased for the coming Valentine's Day. His opera is on February 6 and 12. Most likely, Xen, Sarah and I will come on Friday, February 12.

I love learning more about ministry at FGA.

The month of January has been an amazing experience so far: because of the corporate fast among the members of the Church at FGA. Secondly, I decided to study and take notes in such a way, so that I could review all the material for the month of January. It has been a month of struggle against loneliness. This month I spent quality time with Danielly B. This month I experienced intense longing to love the Lord. The Lord has blessed with musicians this month to our church, praise the Lord. It is the first month of 2010 and a new semester.

musical worship

I)Sunday Service: The Worship was so good, it took us way different. After the service the Lord brought many people who were interested musically in worship: Matthew, Tim, A.J., Linda. Priase the Lord. Lisa Hall said today, "The Lord is a gardener. He takes this and that and makes a bouquet." I agree that bouquet of worship and praise for His glory. As always, Phil has been a blessing, today he played violin and improvised musically and singing. It was wonderful. The church as a whole is getting involved with lots of things. Everyone wants to be a part of the service onw way or the other.

2) After the prayer this morning, Phil, Connie adn I had a onversation. It helped me to see that marriage is not that pretty roses. Phil said, "Think of something that annoys you in him. In the marriage it will only get bigger." Connie also shared her life experiences that shows the difficulties of marriage. So, it actually helped me to cool down in my outburst desire for marriage. I want to be married, but marriage is not the pedestal. The life for Jesus and all that He wants is what matters most.

Thanksgiving: Dear Daddy.
I thank You, the Lord Most High, for the wonderful opportunity You gave us today in meeting with You. I hope that Your weight and glory was ministering to all of us. You amaze me in how you bring musicians, I give You glory. You are the author. May all of us together be a pleasing, sweet aroma, so that You enjoy it and reveal Your glory in Jesus Christ. Thank You for the dance team and how You work through them mighty. Thank You for the pastor Clint, his message on budget and finances moved me to think critically. I put $5 into a saving and will try to pay off my debt to school along the way this semester. Father, may this day be all for YOur glory and praise. Please, be with Linda. You see her heart; that she desires to play keyboard for You. Would you make her available and healthy, so that she can come on Sundays to worship Your name in congregation.

Father, You made us so beautiful. I rejoice in that. Blessings on Pastor Shelly, may she rejoice in You. Blessings on Mike, Lisa, Janice, Scot, Barbara and others. Be with A.J. and make him ready for the worship. May the songs of his life bring deliverance and healing to his body. You are our Healer and Comforter. We are never alone, because You are near.

I Love You Lord Jesus.
Praise be to You forever and ever.
Help me to listen to Your voice and be obedient.

Continuing with a story

Remember, I wrote about my concerned heart in relation to Sam.

Well, my silence was a motivational key to Sam, apparently. He called me twice, left a voice mail, message with a picture, a gift on facebook (a rose) and a message on facebook.

It is surprising to me all of that, my heart is still concerned. Don't take me wrong, I love Samushka very much. He is the best of all the men! He is my love! I just wanted to be chased after and attempted to be asked in marriage. It is like in the movie, Danielle and I watched, called "Here comes the groom." This guy was so busy with his work and travels that he unintentionally left this lady in waiting period for such a long time, that she was concerned! She sent him a recording of her intentions either to be pursued into marriage or she will find someone else. The guy was awakened from his slumber. He arranged all he could, but it seemed too late now, she found a man who offered her not only hand in marriage but lots of money. The movie showed that through struggle to win his girl back, they are happily united.

That's a similar feeling and thoughts I have. I am ready to be asked, but all I see is waiting and waiting. That's a great biblical thing to do, but I am a woman. So, here all these concerns.

Lord, I do not want to use You in my own manipulative ways, but I ask Your help to guide us in the relationship and the timing. I have been told by spiritual leaders of my life to get ready for the wedding, to set a date and so forth, which I submitted slowly, but I do not even have the engagement ring. So, thanks for listenning to my story for today and I hope I would learn something positive out of it and will be able to help another lady in her desire to be loved and bewedded.
God bless you!

my concerned heart

Dear Lord,

You know me so well. You rejoice when I live in peace, humility and love. But today, Oh Father, my thoughts toward Sam are tormentng me. I feel like not talking... What's wrong? I think the enemy is doing something, Lord, please help us.

Blessings to you Sam,
I love you dearly. See, I wanted to be married to you so much, but whenever we talk, I feel like it does not cross your mind. It is a conflict from being in a different mindsets. It is good to be in unity and on the same page...
I bless you today. Thank you so much for what you do and who you are. I trust that our love is stronger than death, than demonic attacks, than emotional pain and so forth.

Jeremiah 33:10-11

This is what the Lord says: 'You say about this place, "It is a desolate waste, without men or animals." Yet in the townds of Judah and the streets of Jerusalem that are deserted, inhabited by neither men nor animals, there will be heard once more the sounds of joy and gladness, the voices of bride and bridegroom, and the voices of those who bring thank offerings to the house of the Lord, saying,

"Give thanks to the Lord Almighty, for the Lord is good; his love endures forever."

For I will restore the fortunes of the land as they were before,' says the Lord.

Father,

Sam is innocent in my eyes and I do not want to hold anything against him in my expecations and dreams. Please, grant us peace, love and humility. We need you in our midst, without you, we perish in selfishness, frailty and sin.

love you, Lord Jesus.

My goals today

I have definate goals today:

Come to the library with books and notebook.

Spend hours or reading and reflecting.
Read! Read! Read!!!!!

Maybe I should take a test or a quiz of some kind on learning.

reading lost?

Today, the thirdgraders have a problem of not being able to read well. This is a problem of our society. As I reflect on that, I thought of those years back when people did not have tvs and computers (visual stimulus), that is why they devoted their times to reading. It is through books they were able to see visions and dreams. Today, the society is overactive with computers and movies- the visual stuff, that takes away time from reading books. It is even true somewhat in my life today. It is much easier and faster, pleasurable and fun to go on the internet, then to open a book and spend an hour or two reading.

Lord, what would You say and what shall we do?

reflection

It is clearly that there is a difference in the teaching between what I hear at the FGA (Full Gospel Assembly) with the things I learn at the Anderson School of Theology. It is not that I want to be close-minded but that it never occured to me before the substantial differences in what people preach and present. The word "church" now means so many things, that you have to clarify in order to be understood.

I think the class on Christian Mission in a Pluralistic World will be a great effort to exercise those differences and come to a somewhat conclusion or a notch to move forward.

But outside of studying and teaching, in the realm of worship. I am so thankful for the open door to be in ministry with Tim Johnson and his friends of musicians doing IHOP and possibly the services on Sundays. I praise the Lord for that open door. Glory and Praise to our Faithful God.

It will be beneficial to answer this question this semester: How can we say the phrase "Our God" and what it means to different people and communities.

I still hold to the conviction that Jesus Christ is the way, the truth and the life. He is a mediator of our salvation and eternal life. Secondly, I believe in our call to worship the Father by One Spirit. All believers are called to praise and worship God the Father and learn in the knowledge of Him.

So, these are my recent thoughts and meditations. It is actually benefical to pour out those ideas in letter, rather than holding them in chaotic form in my mind.

Father, I come to You in the name of Your Son Jesus, Yeshua. I praise You for this wonderous day of Your glory. You provided with a meal and felowship! You opened new doors and I am thankful. Thank you for Sam who sent me letter and heart. May you bless those who decided to bless me today in many ways.
Be with Allison, deliver her from the spirit of rejection (dreamed today). Would you reveal the power of Your love toward her this semester. Bring healing to her relationship with her earthly father and with You. Receive our praises in advance for what You are going to do.

Father, this is personal. I would really like to practice Your presence every day. May the praise toward You be on my lips at school, at home, at church or any other places I go. May it energize those around me to pay attention to You and to glorify Your Holy Name.
Lord, keep us healthy, strong, enregized every week for Your Son's sake. May we be the learners of Your way, the practitioners of Your wisdom and the lovers of You.

I love You, Lord.
My Father, Son and the Holy Spirit.

Sunday worship.

Hello dear blog,

I am so amazed at what the Lord has done this Sunday service.

Phil picked me up early and I had lots of time to prepare for worship. However, all songs were so hard to play, they did not flow. Basically I struggled all that morning. Then my faithful friend, Phil came and joined the worshi practice. He is always a great help!!! Well, before the service the Lord gave me two songs to play and sing and they trully blessed the congregation (we had two new people, visitors). Then, God touched the worship outside of my understanding, but all that I could say is that people used flags, and then some went to the altar on their knees, crying "Holy, Holy,Holy". Phil (stading beside me and singing), went on his knees too. My fingers were covered in golden dust and peace, joy and amazement filled my heart. There was a call to accept the Lord Jesus as personal savior an dlots of other good prayers.

So, I am so thankful for the outpouring of His worship on the congragation or His presence in the midst of our worship. For all things, I give Him praise and devotion.

Love you and see you soon.

The things, visions and words that have been given by the Spirit to me

1. repentance & forgiveness, grace
2. worship
3. sow in the fields of evangelism
4. pray
5. smile, rejoice

authority in Christ

Father in heaven,

Thank you so very much for the lessons you are giving to us.
Sam and I will exercise our authority in Christ against any demonic attacks.

We love You Lord, Almighty.

My mom talked me to use the authority in Christ!!!!!

Psalm 144

Psalm 144

Praise be to the Lord my Rock, who trains my hands for war, my fingers for battle.
He is my loving God and my fortress, my stronghold and my deliverer, my shield, in whom I take refuge, who subdues peoples under me.

O Lord, what is man that you care for him, the son of man that you think of him? Man is like a breath; his days are ike a fleeting shadow.

Part your heavens, O Lord, and come down; touch the mountains, so that they smoke. Send forth lightning and scatter the enemies; shoot your arrows and rout them. Reach down your hand from on high; deliver me and rescue me from the mighty waters, from the hands of foreigners whose mouths are full of lies, whose right hands are deceitful.

I will sing a new song to You, o God; on the ten-stringed lyre I will make music to you, to the One who gives victory to kings, who delivers his servant David from the deadly sword.

Deliver me and rescue me from the hands of foreigners whose mouths are full of lies, whose right hands are deceitful.

Then our sons in their youth will be like well-nurtured plants, and our daughters will be like pillars carved to adorn a palace. Our barns will be filled with every kind of provision. Our sheep will increase by thousands, by tens of thousands in our fields; our oxen will draw heavy loads. There will be no breching of walls, no going into captivity, no cry of distress in our streets.
Blessed are the people whom this is true; blessed are the people whose God is the Lord.

I was so difficult today to Sammy

Heavenly Father, My Lord,

I apologize for the impatience and a difficult mood I am having today.

Things look so strange and upsetting to me almost all day long.

Father, would you take care of me this evening? Maybe my hormones overreacting to something, or I have been attacked by the enemy who works out his schemes against me and Sam.

Yesterday, we had a wonderful powerful experience in the Lord. But today I have been so unloving like a wall from Sammy.

In the name of Jesus,

Please remove from me this awful feeling and all will be well.

Love you and rely on your precious name

Cool

Samushka and I had a wonderful conversation the other day. He shared with me the truth with gentle words. He pointed to the value of the Spirit versus religion. He noticed the lack of joy in churches. But most of all, I was happy that we are on the same page...

We were also attacked with sicknesses since Sunday. But today God borught the healing back to my voice.

Hallelujah,
the Lord reigns.

Plan for 2010

If you want to reach the lost, you need to sow in EVANGELISM.

Sow strategically.

Secondly, pray without ceasing for the lost you encounter.

Rejoice! May the people see the joy of the Lord an ddraw to that river of the healing water of the Spirit.

That's it!

That's the Plan for you for 2010.

You don't have to worry about the churches shift. I have directed your path, my child.
You were my obedient vessel to go and give constant praise to My Name.
Who can say you did a wrong choice? Don't you remember the great thing, a miracle happened when you were accused of not attending classes on Sunday at University, while you at that time were put to be a worship leader. Is that not a war, what is? You were destined to praise Me. I need your vessel all the time. Thank Me and Rejoice in that position. I will help you always. Have you not discovered at thirst hand My mighty power in worship in your weakest hour? Have you not tasted that I loved your song and devotion? My child, keep singing and let Me take care of those accusing words.

I love you,

Your God Almighty,
Forver Faithful,
Amen.

Dear Lord Jesus,

You are so wonderful! Today we celebrated your birthday!!! You know that many of us enjoyed every moment, but some were filled with grief and sorrow. So I pray that You help those who feel lonely and tired.

Jesus, I have amazing things to tell you: You are awesome in that You laid down Your life for us. WIthout You, we would never enter Your kingdom and the life everlasting. So, thank You so much! You are wonderful!

Thank You for the phone call from mother, thank You for minsitering to me through Sammy and much more. We are overcomers with You. You are awesome!!!! How lovely and majestic is Your name!!!

I love you.

Blessings on William Green, Amanda, Mindy, Shannon and the kids.
Father, be with us tomorrow. Provide for our needs and fun! May we all have an awesome time together! Cover us all with Your divine evertrue love. Please, be comfort to uncle Chuck and William. They need You! Today, uncle Chuck asked for prayers several times. So, would You meet Him where he is at, just like the Psalm 139 says that Your spirit can reach us everywhere and You hem us behind and infront.
Dear Jesus, may Your blood be upon us. With love,

Katya. Your daughter, chosen in Christ for great purpose. Father, help us to be used by Your majesty. Please, provide an opportunity to serve You and Your people in love.

Amen

he was looking for...

1. Love the Lord with all her heart; seek Him...


2. Fit him (around the arm pit)


3. Smile


4. Librarian


5. Musical


6. Soft voice


7. Like his dear grandma

That is what Sam was looking in the woman. He found me... I am so thankful!

first snow

Today is the first snow in Anderson this year (2009). It looks beautiful on the ground!!!

Today I need to complete the exegesis paper on Luke, praise the LORD!!!! We are able to do it with God's mighty help! I believe it!

Father, may Your glory cover Samuel today. Guide him and speak to his heart. Open his ears to listen to You. I pray that You will keep his family protected and in complete healing. Father, have mercy on every member of his family. Lord, I pray that You will give us patience and grace to endure the waiting period. May we accomplish all that we need to do during this time. Father, grant Your Spirit in a greater way. Fill us anew, we pray.

Love You dearly, my Heavenly Father. In the precious name of Jesus.